So I'm having the dream and suddenly I wake up. But then I fall back asleep and I'm in the same spot/exact moment I was in the dream, like nothing had happened. I know I'm having a dream, I'm conscious of that, I just can't wake up. And when I look at things they're very dark and hard to make out; I try to open my eyes but I'm too tired to do so (in the dream). I tried waking up for real but couldn't. So I started thinking up ways I could wake myself up like splashing my face with cold water or slapping myself. I try to give myself a slap but my arm is as though it's underwater and it's slow, so I can barely feel the slap. I try harder to make it hurt, over and over, but it's the same.
Finally I wake up and my head is a mess, I'm very anxious, very worried, my back hurts in the center, my heart is bothering me. I feel tired but I refuse to go back to sleep because the experience has scared me. I think it scared me so much that I might be having a heart attack. I stay in bed for a while, hoping the feeling will go away, but it doesn't. I turn on the TV to distract myself. I feel nauseous. I go to the bathroom, wash my face. I come back to the room, feeling a bit woozy still. I go make some camomile tea to calm myself down. And now I'm writing this in hopes someone helps me or at least to take this out of my chest.
It's not the first time I experience this, but the other times I didn't feel as anxious. Yes, it was horrible and disturbing after I woke up and during the dream but it soon was over. This time the feelings lingered so that's why I was worried. I've been researching and wonder if what I'm suffering from is sleep paralysis. It definitely sounds like it but at the same time there are many differences. Like, I don't feel paralized; I move freely just like in real life. I just feel extremely tired and my eyes can't picture things properly and I can't "slap myself" I guess you could say.
I started crying after I woke up, like tears started rushing out, the more I thought about it. I'm still crying as we speak...
Any ideas? Especially what can I do to avoid having more of this or, if I can't, calm myself down afterwards? Thank you so much.
Edited by ThompsonCherry, 10 January 2012 - 06:02 AM.