Posted 30 December 2011 - 05:45 PM
I find that depression causes SO MUCH exhaustion and that my focus is mainly on how miserable I am feeling, that is has definitely contributed to my memory loss. Whether or not I am on meds, my memory has really suffered from being depressed for such a long time, with little to no relief. Being that I am extremely med-resistant, I have been severely depressed for about 6 months with bouts of my OCD also flaring up. When I am feeling so miserable, that is literally all I focus on. I also find it unbearable to make simple decisions and have not been able to work for three years due to my inability to carry out simple instructions. I too am one of those who has to write EVERYTHING down so I don't forget. I think the longer you are depressed, the worse your memory gets. I am not a doctor but this has been my experience. Personally, I have been on SO many different meds that I believe that is another contributing factor of my forgetfulness.
I know it's hard but hang in there! Perhaps you can look at your local county hospital. Mine offers low cost services if you are low income. Worrying about being depressed is the WORST, making the depression that much more difficult to live through....and so begins the vicious cycle. For me, having severe depression/anxiety/OCD/agoraphobia has made it nearly impossible to focus on anything else-no wonder I can't remember the simplest of things. I know what you are going through and I hope you get the help you need.
My long bout being misdiagnosed Bipolar II for the last year and a half, along with the following drugs: Lithium, Serzone, Lamictal, Neurontin, Remeron, Cymbalta, Abilify, Seroquel, Depakote, Propranolol, Ambien, Trazadone, Sonata, Valium, Ativan, Paxil, Prozac, Wellbutrin, Zoloft and Temazepam (these are the only ones I can remember. There are MANY more)
Current diagnosis: GAD (severe) OCD (severe) MDD ( Severe), Agoraphobia, PTSD
Possible diagnosis: Dysthymia with recurrent MDD
Current Meds: 30 mgs. Nortriptyline, 163 mgs. Seroquel, 1mg Klonopin 4x/daily, 15 mgs. Temazepam/10 mgs. Sonata, 7.5 mgs. Abilify