I hope everyone is doing fine. I haven't been on this site in a while but i'm glad i'm back.
I started taking 5mg Cipralex around May after losing my license in a DUI and going through very bad anxiety. It was weird because I told myself its okay if I lose my license and I was acting very positive but I guess my brain/body wanted to react differently, which was by acting out with anxiety.
So things were going pretty good on the 5mg. I had some very rough times at the beginning with increased anxiety but after a while I think it started working. I started feeling a little more confident and some self esteem came back. I started exercising and making goals that I wanted to reach in my life and felt like they were within arms reach. I even had some periods of very high self confidence and happiness. I wouldn't say MANIC, because I wasn't going hyper and all over the place, but I felt very good about myself and had so much interest and enthusiasm in parts of my life. These periods lasted a couple days.
I started taking the medication in May and I must say that August and September were good months. I know this because I make music (hip hop producer) and during those 2 months I made so much good music because I felt full of energy and creativity and had this genuine passion for life in me.
I upped the dose to 10mg a few weeks ago after talking to my doctor because I started to feel a little down and sluggish again, losing motivation for things I had interest in. I was feeling a little better again, but then after a huge fight with my dad I had a pretty bad depressive episode. It was like a complete relapse in my depression. I lost all will to live life and I was so depressed and miserable for a week or 2 that I couldn't even get myself to brush my teeth or shower. This was about 2 weeks ago. I think taking the 10mg helped me deal with the fight better overall, maybe if I weren't on the med I would have reacted differently and taken longer to recover.
Anyways, i'm not sure if its because i've been stuck at home all day everyday for the past few months due to losing my license, or if its because I need to increase my medication, but I am easily losing interest in old activities again. I used to take 20mg Cipralex in the past so maybe I should take 20mg again?
I have also considered adding Wellbutrin because it seems like it would help all the issues I have problems with like lack of motivation, creativity, energy. Has anyone used Wellbutrin for this or added it to their Cipralex? I just want to make it clear that I do have enough energy to get up and exercise and do things and am a pretty creative person but if i'm depressed or in a depressive state all my motivation/creativity/imagination goes out the window. I have never taken Wellbutrin and I am not even 100% sure what it is used for so i'm just taking a guess here.
I am still going to talk to my doctor about all this, because i've also read Wellbutrin is highly stimulating and I can't stand anymore anxiety...
Edited by gs1003, 31 October 2011 - 01:29 PM.