I have been so overwhelmed (for over a year) about getting things done because I usually never use my time wisely. If I need to clean my room, get an assignment done, do chores, get ready for work/school/to go out, I usually always go on the computer first and end up spending way too much time on it... but the time I spend on the PC goes by SOOO QUICKLY This past year at school, I barely got any sleep because I had to go on the computer every 20 minutes (probably), in the middle of doing my work... and I absolutely hated how I could never concentrate on my schoolwork (even if there are no computers around… I’ll still think about computers and other things on my mind).
My roommate never knew about my computer habits because she was never there, but I’m worried about this coming year because my roommate is going to be one of my friends.
My mom is constantly reminding me how lazy I am around the house, and I know she’s right.
I barely ever exercise anymore, when I ALWAYS used to in high school and middle school.
My vision is definitely blurrier.
I feel like I am addicted to the computer.
Anyway, If I ever happen to tell someone that I spend too much time on the computer, they ask me, "What do you do on there?" Sure, I check my e-mail, myspace, facebook, same as everyone else. But what I *never* tell anyone is that...
--I check a fansite of my favorite actress too many times a day. Anyway, I really admire this actress a lot, but the reason I never mention how much I like her is because I'm scared people will think I'm a lesbian or something, which I'm certain I'm not. So it's almost like I have this paranoia that people would associate my love (sibling/aunt/uncle-type of love) for this actress with homosexuality. And I’m not speaking negatively of people who are homosexual. Anyway, I would like to meet a really nice guy some time soon (since I've never even had a d*** boyfriend in my life), and I don’t want people to think I’m a lesbian. I’m probably thinking too deeply into it, but whatever…… I’d never feel comfortable checking this actress’s fansite in front of my friends, just because it’s probably weird, and it seems like something a tween would do. Anyone agree?
--On MySpace, or those blogging online journal-type-sites, I enjoy reading people's profiles if I see that they have some of the same interests as me, if they want to meet the same people as me (“Who I’d Like to Meet” section), or if their picture or background looks interesting/creative. I just enjoy reading/looking at these entries/pages sometimes because it's almost like reading one of those Catcher in the Rye type of novels, you know?
I am sort of an observer. I like to people-watch if I'm out somewhere. I looooove pictures of nature, like the mountains, the beach, trees, flowers, etc. I can honestly stare at a beautiful webpage layout for a long time, especially if it is the layout to my journal or myspace. This REALLY annoys me.
For example, after I write an entry in my web journal, I'll sit there and read the entry and stare at my journal and then just keep reading old entries, and then read my profile (even though it really says pretty much nothing), and then I'll look at the pictures of my icons. I deleted the pretty backgrounds and colored fonts to lessen this problem, but I still find myself staring because I like to read what I write for some reason. I also have a ton of trouble condensing things, if you haven't noticed from this terribly long post =( =( =( =(
I tried keeping a hand-written journal instead of a typed one, but it takes too long. I need to write almost every day to clear my head (even though my head is never clear), so typing is the fastest way to go about it. If I'm reading my friends’ page, I'll still check it at least ten times a day, to see if anyone else has updated.
Does anyone have anyyyyyyyyyyy advice? If I don't go on the computer, I feel like I'm missing out on something.
-I have books to read, movies that I rent, a full-time job [summer], tons of schoolwork to do [during the school year], and friends that I hang out with a couple times a week, but I STILL manage to always spend useless hours on the computer every day.
Thanks in advance if anyone has any ideas.... or if you simply read this entire thing. Thank you...
Edited by acdc111999, 02 August 2006 - 12:07 AM.