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#1 Lindsay

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Posted 07 April 2006 - 12:58 AM

1. Previously known as multiple personality disorder, dissociative identity disorder (DID) is a dissociative disorder in which two or more distinct identities take control of a patient
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Posted 07 April 2006 - 11:59 AM

Thanks Lindsay for this write up. It is very informative and right on the money.

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Posted 20 July 2006 - 08:43 PM

[quote name='Lindsay' post='105721' date='Apr 7 2006, 01:58 AM']1. Previously known as multiple personality disorder, dissociative identity disorder (DID) is a dissociative disorder in which two or more distinct identities take control of a patient

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Posted 31 July 2007 - 07:15 PM

I am reading up on DID and other identity issues becuase the older i get the more introspective. with that. i find that the definitionso fo these disorders are very real to me.
They scare me, and they define my actions.
Thank you for posting this information.

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Posted 21 August 2008 - 05:48 AM

you forgot to add that it sucks :hearts:
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Posted 21 July 2009 - 10:37 AM

[quote name='Lindsay' post='105721' date='Apr 7 2006, 12:58 AM']1. Previously known as multiple personality disorder, dissociative identity disorder (DID) is a dissociative disorder in which two or more distinct identities take control of a patient
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Posted 06 October 2009 - 03:25 PM

I was diagnosed with this while getting intensive treatment for my trauma. I have mostly integrated since then. The self destructive ones integrated first for which I was pleased.
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Posted 01 November 2009 - 07:06 AM

ive been suffering with this for many years along with major depression. it seems like just recently it has gotten worse. i feel like im going through a pyschosis. ive noticed that my spendings on drugs has gotten higher as well.

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Posted 02 November 2009 - 06:13 PM

I was 36 when I got into AA, then into therapy. I had no memory of my life like other people did.
I didn't even know what my favorite color was, what I liked to wear, I just like woke up, and was 36
years old.

Found this therapist finally who, well it was his eyes that looked so different than anything I had ever
seen, they just sparkled, someone was in that body that stood before me, and it was the safest feeling
I had ever felt.

I sat there for over a year with my sunglasses on, and then can remember when we took them off, and
how that felt. He just said "Hello there" I could be wrong about how long before I took the glasses off it
could have been 3 years, but I do know that's about the time I finally said I have a question for you, and
said I wanted to know what he would diagnosis me with. He laughed, and siad" Why do you want to go on
oprah"? I said no, and you know how I am, I said "am I a multiple", all the while knowing I was, but not wanting
to hear the answer from him. Of course he answered "Yes", and all that I could say was "NO, NO,NO".

I don't remember much else of tht day at all. Our sessions always lasted only 5 min, and I never could figure that out
for the longest time, and why I never knew what had been talked about until the last few minutes, as he was putting
his shoes back on. I remember the first time that happened. I got there, and 5 min later he was putting his shoes back on,
and I said "Why are you putting your shoes on" He spoke so gently, and said that the time was up.


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Posted 05 November 2009 - 02:52 PM

ive been suffering with this for many years along with major depression. it seems like just recently it has gotten worse. i feel like im going through a pyschosis. ive noticed that my spendings on drugs has gotten higher as well.


Welcome to DF zomb1e,

how are you doing now? Are you talking to your Dr/therapist about the way you feel and your spending habits?


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Posted 05 November 2009 - 02:54 PM

I was 36 when I got into AA, then into therapy. I had no memory of my life like other people did.
I didn't even know what my favorite color was, what I liked to wear, I just like woke up, and was 36
years old.

Found this therapist finally who, well it was his eyes that looked so different than anything I had ever
seen, they just sparkled, someone was in that body that stood before me, and it was the safest feeling
I had ever felt.

I sat there for over a year with my sunglasses on, and then can remember when we took them off, and
how that felt. He just said "Hello there" I could be wrong about how long before I took the glasses off it
could have been 3 years, but I do know that's about the time I finally said I have a question for you, and
said I wanted to know what he would diagnosis me with. He laughed, and siad" Why do you want to go on
oprah"? I said no, and you know how I am, I said "am I a multiple", all the while knowing I was, but not wanting
to hear the answer from him. Of course he answered "Yes", and all that I could say was "NO, NO,NO".

I don't remember much else of tht day at all. Our sessions always lasted only 5 min, and I never could figure that out
for the longest time, and why I never knew what had been talked about until the last few minutes, as he was putting
his shoes back on. I remember the first time that happened. I got there, and 5 min later he was putting his shoes back on,
and I said "Why are you putting your shoes on" He spoke so gently, and said that the time was up.


Debbie


Hi Debbie!

I'm glad to hear you found a wonderful therapist. It makes talking about things a bit easier when you find someone you feel you can trust and feel safe with.
Are your sessions still going well? How have you been these days?
Keep us posted, we are always here to listen,

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Posted 16 December 2009 - 12:08 AM

Ok so his shoes were off???? Why??? This sounds scary

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Posted 18 June 2010 - 09:29 PM

[quote name='Slim' post='134983' date='Jul 20 2006, 09:43 PM'][quote name='Lindsay' post='105721' date='Apr 7 2006, 01:58 AM']1. Previously known as multiple personality disorder, dissociative identity disorder (DID) is a dissociative disorder in which two or more distinct identities take control of a patient

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Posted 19 June 2010 - 05:35 AM

GOOD NEWS,
After 5 years of treatment for depression and DID Living with up to 10 alters at one time I have come through and am healing nicely. All my alters have integrated and my life has returned to some normalcy. I now can handle a full time job and I no longer self-injure myself. I have reached out to some others with DID that I have met on another site and helped then so that they don't feel alone and try to help them if I can. It is interesting to find that there are few of us men that have DID compared to females. I have found several that I chat with that as I had felt alone. The thing I had to do was forgive myself for what happened in the past. All my alters ended up becoming my friend prior to integration. I still have problems with my memory but I suppose that will not change. I am getting old. (50) I wish all of you well and I hope you all find comfort in knowing that there is an end to the pain and it can be happy. Stick with your treatment and try to remain calm as possible. I hope you have a life partner that is as understandable as I do she has helped me through my journey. Slim


Hi there Slim this is really fantastic news :shocked: :wwww:

It is so moving to hear such inspirational stories from others. Would it be possible for you to give our members some more information on the treatment that you recived?

Thank you so much for updating us,

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Posted 19 June 2010 - 06:07 PM

GOOD NEWS,
After 5 years of treatment for depression and DID Living with up to 10 alters at one time I have come through and am healing nicely. All my alters have integrated and my life has returned to some normalcy. I now can handle a full time job and I no longer self-injure myself. I have reached out to some others with DID that I have met on another site and helped then so that they don't feel alone and try to help them if I can. It is interesting to find that there are few of us men that have DID compared to females. I have found several that I chat with that as I had felt alone. The thing I had to do was forgive myself for what happened in the past. All my alters ended up becoming my friend prior to integration. I still have problems with my memory but I suppose that will not change. I am getting old. (50) I wish all of you well and I hope you all find comfort in knowing that there is an end to the pain and it can be happy. Stick with your treatment and try to remain calm as possible. I hope you have a life partner that is as understandable as I do she has helped me through my journey. Slim


Hi there Slim this is really fantastic news :shocked: :wwww:

It is so moving to hear such inspirational stories from others. Would it be possible for you to give our members some more information on the treatment that you recived?

Thank you so much for updating us,

Girly

Hi Girly,
well as for my treatment I started with a therapist who was trying to get me to tune out and ignore the voices and visuals and that didn' work. I found a DID specialist who was a Psychologist and she walked me through a whole spectrum of making jobs for each of the alters inside. They were also given time Up front so that they didn't pop up when it was inconvienent. We set up a whole inside world where they could live together and take care of each other, the older ones would help the younger ones. We would meet with the therapist at least two times per week. The alters would write to the therapist and let her know what was on their mind. Most of the times I was not to read what they wrote and that was ok with me. In our sessions we would discuss what they wrote and then she would talk to my alters and discuss what was going on that week. I was co conscious so I was there but not in control It was like I was in the back seat looking over their shoulder. It was not always a smooth recovery. There were times when the alters were mean and nasty to me. I have some tattoos that they did when they were in control. We worked like this for about a year and had one of the 10 integrate but then it was time to switch therapists. My wife was concerned about how i was responding to therapy. I came out totally drained and she was worried about me.

I started with another therapist and he had a totally different approach. He would only contact with me the host. We worked on my past problems with my family and my abusers and he helped my alters feel that they were ready to join the others. I sometimes miss chatting with them they were interesting people but I have to live in the real world where my family is and there are people who depend on me.

This is a short summary of what I did to go through the healing process. My wife gets a little nervous when she sees that I am focusing on my DID issues she is so afraid that they will pop up again. But I know they are not going to because I am focused on my new life. I love my new job.I have had it now for 3years and it is helping the elderly and they accept me for who I am. My boss knows about my history and she has been supportive of my recovery. I guess I have been very lucky.
Thanks for listening to my little story.
Tim

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Posted 20 June 2010 - 12:17 AM

GOOD NEWS,
After 5 years of treatment for depression and DID Living with up to 10 alters at one time I have come through and am healing nicely. All my alters have integrated and my life has returned to some normalcy. I now can handle a full time job and I no longer self-injure myself. I have reached out to some others with DID that I have met on another site and helped then so that they don't feel alone and try to help them if I can. It is interesting to find that there are few of us men that have DID compared to females. I have found several that I chat with that as I had felt alone. The thing I had to do was forgive myself for what happened in the past. All my alters ended up becoming my friend prior to integration. I still have problems with my memory but I suppose that will not change. I am getting old. (50) I wish all of you well and I hope you all find comfort in knowing that there is an end to the pain and it can be happy. Stick with your treatment and try to remain calm as possible. I hope you have a life partner that is as understandable as I do she has helped me through my journey. Slim


Hi there Slim this is really fantastic news :shocked: :wwww:

It is so moving to hear such inspirational stories from others. Would it be possible for you to give our members some more information on the treatment that you recived?

Thank you so much for updating us,

Girly

Hi Girly,
well as for my treatment I started with a therapist who was trying to get me to tune out and ignore the voices and visuals and that didn' work. I found a DID specialist who was a Psychologist and she walked me through a whole spectrum of making jobs for each of the alters inside. They were also given time Up front so that they didn't pop up when it was inconvienent. We set up a whole inside world where they could live together and take care of each other, the older ones would help the younger ones. We would meet with the therapist at least two times per week. The alters would write to the therapist and let her know what was on their mind. Most of the times I was not to read what they wrote and that was ok with me. In our sessions we would discuss what they wrote and then she would talk to my alters and discuss what was going on that week. I was co conscious so I was there but not in control It was like I was in the back seat looking over their shoulder. It was not always a smooth recovery. There were times when the alters were mean and nasty to me. I have some tattoos that they did when they were in control. We worked like this for about a year and had one of the 10 integrate but then it was time to switch therapists. My wife was concerned about how i was responding to therapy. I came out totally drained and she was worried about me.

I started with another therapist and he had a totally different approach. He would only contact with me the host. We worked on my past problems with my family and my abusers and he helped my alters feel that they were ready to join the others. I sometimes miss chatting with them they were interesting people but I have to live in the real world where my family is and there are people who depend on me.

This is a short summary of what I did to go through the healing process. My wife gets a little nervous when she sees that I am focusing on my DID issues she is so afraid that they will pop up again. But I know they are not going to because I am focused on my new life. I love my new job.I have had it now for 3years and it is helping the elderly and they accept me for who I am. My boss knows about my history and she has been supportive of my recovery. I guess I have been very lucky.
Thanks for listening to my little story.
Tim

Wow that is an interesting story and an amazing recovery! I thank you for sharing this with us. I am a psychology student and am fascinated with the human mind and psychopathology :D

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Posted 20 June 2010 - 04:30 PM

GOOD NEWS,
After 5 years of treatment for depression and DID Living with up to 10 alters at one time I have come through and am healing nicely. All my alters have integrated and my life has returned to some normalcy. I now can handle a full time job and I no longer self-injure myself. I have reached out to some others with DID that I have met on another site and helped then so that they don't feel alone and try to help them if I can. It is interesting to find that there are few of us men that have DID compared to females. I have found several that I chat with that as I had felt alone. The thing I had to do was forgive myself for what happened in the past. All my alters ended up becoming my friend prior to integration. I still have problems with my memory but I suppose that will not change. I am getting old. (50) I wish all of you well and I hope you all find comfort in knowing that there is an end to the pain and it can be happy. Stick with your treatment and try to remain calm as possible. I hope you have a life partner that is as understandable as I do she has helped me through my journey. Slim


Hi there Slim this is really fantastic news :shocked: :wwww:

It is so moving to hear such inspirational stories from others. Would it be possible for you to give our members some more information on the treatment that you recived?

Thank you so much for updating us,

Girly

Hi Girly,
well as for my treatment I started with a therapist who was trying to get me to tune out and ignore the voices and visuals and that didn' work. I found a DID specialist who was a Psychologist and she walked me through a whole spectrum of making jobs for each of the alters inside. They were also given time Up front so that they didn't pop up when it was inconvienent. We set up a whole inside world where they could live together and take care of each other, the older ones would help the younger ones. We would meet with the therapist at least two times per week. The alters would write to the therapist and let her know what was on their mind. Most of the times I was not to read what they wrote and that was ok with me. In our sessions we would discuss what they wrote and then she would talk to my alters and discuss what was going on that week. I was co conscious so I was there but not in control It was like I was in the back seat looking over their shoulder. It was not always a smooth recovery. There were times when the alters were mean and nasty to me. I have some tattoos that they did when they were in control. We worked like this for about a year and had one of the 10 integrate but then it was time to switch therapists. My wife was concerned about how i was responding to therapy. I came out totally drained and she was worried about me.

I started with another therapist and he had a totally different approach. He would only contact with me the host. We worked on my past problems with my family and my abusers and he helped my alters feel that they were ready to join the others. I sometimes miss chatting with them they were interesting people but I have to live in the real world where my family is and there are people who depend on me.

This is a short summary of what I did to go through the healing process. My wife gets a little nervous when she sees that I am focusing on my DID issues she is so afraid that they will pop up again. But I know they are not going to because I am focused on my new life. I love my new job.I have had it now for 3years and it is helping the elderly and they accept me for who I am. My boss knows about my history and she has been supportive of my recovery. I guess I have been very lucky.
Thanks for listening to my little story.
Tim


Thank you so much Tim

As Avian86 has said this really is interesting. It is amazing to hear that you've been through so much and got through it.

Thank you so much for sharing this with us Tim. i do hope that others with DID will read your story and get inspiration from it.

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Posted 21 June 2010 - 05:53 AM

Hi Slim

That is absolutely fantastic news and it can give so much hope. I am so glad that you are healing, this is absolutely awesome to read!

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Posted 07 August 2010 - 05:11 AM

Unsure.

My name is Andrew and im 32YO. When i was 15/16/17YO sometime around then i was "taken over" by someone else. I just sort of "went to sleep" for a few days. I found that this "person" took me over whenever everything got too stressful for me. At least.. thats the only times i REMEMBER him taking me over.

I sat down and named him "Tristram" which, in the book i was reading, meant "rider of the tumult". More of a descriptive name of what his "job" was... for some reason he just needed a name...

Over many years of practise i toyed around with how to "evoke" this change in myself.. how to bring out Tristram. Thinking i had gone insane.. i wandered through life until i found a website on "the multiple personality gift" which was very kind and accepting and detailed an example dialogue one could have with their alter... This seemed ridiculous to me until i tried question 1... "what do you want?" .. to which i received a reply "to **** you".

niiiice i thought.. as well as a few other things such as "OMFG!" haha :) After working through the dialogue though i realised "Tristram" didnt want to **** me. He wanted to keep himself safe.. and that MY personality kept taking over when he was out and he couldnt control it.. so he was fighting me for control.. while i was fighting him for control. By the end of the conversation we discussed our different skills and abilities.. I was better in social situations and he was better in creative situations.. so we came to some sort of mutually agreed cease-fire. and agreed to work together.

This was the start of me really starting to deal with who i am.

Later, on a deeper exploration into myself, i found my 5YO alter "Kalen" who, i believed at the time, held the keys to my emotions... which seemed somehow dormant.

In later years in a time of a personal crisis i "discovered" (or did i create her at the time?) Azariel. A female ghost-like person who is the epitome of love and kindless.. who nursed me through a difficult S.I. time.

Each psychologist/councillor i have ever spoken wipes away "D.I.D." with a wave of their hand saying "Have you ever been professionally diagnosed? No? well you dont have it!"

So, as line 1 of my letter states.. i am unsure. Each of my "people" have different likes/dislikes/writing styles/voices/manerisms/goals/thought processes/skills and abilities.

Tristram is immune to pain. He has a will of iron and can pull me up when i dont have the strength to move. He is a dark vampiric angelic monk who is so incredibly wise all the time.

Kalen is beautiful and sweet and pure and kind. He always asks questions and is always eager to understand and learn something new. He's always the first to try and cheer me up when im feeling down and is never phased by anything thats going on (probably because it all goes over his little head)

Azariel is just such a beautiful creature.. shes always there for me just to encourage me and wrap me up with love.

and me.. im the social one. I love people and love just going crazy with them :) I love talking and im always the first one to jump out and chat to people when people are around. I am also fairly withdrawn and depressed at times and i worry about how i can't really click with my own emotions or other people around me.

I have no memory of my childhood other than a few key points i seem to have memorised.. like finding one old set of photographs tucked away in grandma's dresser drawer. I dont relate to the fragments i can remember. They are mearly snap-shots of things that, i assume, my mind found desperately important to remember and memorise at the time. So i don't call them memories as i dont actually remember them. I call them memorisations.. like finding a piece of paper folded up in an old pair of pants with a phone number scrawled on it.. I have things in my memory.. but no reference as to why i have them or what they mean or any other information in conjunction with them. My "memory" seems to have started forming around age 16 or so.

I get constant... gaps in time when im stressed and things go missing, or ive already done something i was trying to do. I can drive, sms and email perfectly fine when i "fall asleep".. and then suddenly wake up to find that i have finished typing a sentence while i was sleeping.. or that somehow i have perfectly kept the car in between the lines and at the correct speed limit (I STRONGLY do not recommend this. im expecting next time it happens to not have been so sucessful. It just happened to me a few weeks ago and freaked me out. I shouldnt have been okay.. but i was)

I "react" and just watch myself do things when i am in a crisis.. with no control over my body.. Tristram comes out and does some amazing "Fast and the Furious" driving or "Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon" manoevers which leave me dumb-founded.

Yet.. in australia i havent yet come across a councillor who says "oh yes, sounds like DID to me. how about i ask you a few questions".. instead they discredit it and start discussing my relationship with my mother, then ask me to keep a diary.

After filling 200 pages of the diary by the next session and handing it to them just to see their eyebrows raise and watch them flip through possibly.. 3.. 4 pages of it then then commence dealing with how i feel "sad" sometimes or something else that seems ridiculously trivial.

So im at a stage where i dont know if i have DID. I assume, by the symptoms that i must. However recently, because my inner family and i work so closely together, i havent had the opportunity of "meeting people on the street who know me by a different name" or anything else of the sort typically characteristic of DID.

Anyone got any ideas or thoughts?

Thanks, lost and holding onto hope of finding an answer,

Andrew.

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Posted 07 August 2010 - 11:12 PM

I'm back at work again. sitting in my chair again. feeling depressed again. the same as i have for the last 5.5 years. Prior to this i was sitting at home unemployed again.. sitting in my chair again.. feeling depressed again.. 5.5 years ago.

I just had a pretty bad time of it a few months ago.. disassociated for a few weeks without being able to "wake up". Ended up seeing my G.P. He's put me onto the councillor in their clinic who, upon googling, i find out is trained as a nurse in psychology and has been practising now for 1.8 years.

I ask for help.. and get someone who is not experienced. Yet.. she is the best i have had so far.. for years i have jumped from one councillor to another ... spending a few sessions with some until i realised they had no idea how to come at me.. while others i went to for years.. just to end up coming around full circle back to wear i had started again like some sort of psychotic "There's ***** in my bucket".

I believe i have DID / MPD (Multiple personalities) but.. without any help available from councillors/psychologists in dealing with it I've had to manage it myself. I've taken myself from an insane world where i was trying to **** myself and simultaneously fight this thing trying to take me over and **** me... to working closely now with my "alters". We all have separate skills/thought patterns/voices/mannerisms/writing styles. One likes Red alcohol which "brings him out" while another loves to colour in and sing.

Each time i have spoken to anyone i have seen their immediate response is "Have you been diagnosed with it?" to which i normally find my eyebrows raising.. and say "well no.. thats SORT OF why im here! so i can get some help".. what i actually say is "no".. to which the councillor retorts "then you dont have it! you dont have it until you have been diagnosed with it"

which everyone knows is stupid and makes no sense.. however that seems to be the prevailing theory.. perhaps i come across as some sort of easily-lead and easily-fooled psycological hypercondriac.. who needs to be "talked down" from the dizzying heights of self-diagnosis.

My latest councillor was taken aback.. immediately i could feel her get her back up with she asked me what she could do for me and my response was "i believe i might have multiple personalities"

A few seconds and a few facial expressions later.. she managed to control and compose herself enough to ask "what makes you think that?"

From then on she has avoided the topic at all costs.. even when i was given the task of "writing out a list of goals for myself".. to which i included various multiple personality goals. She got really excited about one small topic i wasnt particularly concerned with.. something along the lines of "i get stressed out when i feel other people are angry at me".. and we spent the entire session with her discussing that.

I feel like im not believed. I have something going on and not one person i have ever spoken to me about it said: "wow.. thats a lot to deal with.. how about we take a look at that and see what we can find out for you?"

Are there ANY councillors/psychologists out there who react this way?

Is there any hope?

Should i just give up?

Should i just keep councilling myself.. then go get a PHD in psychology.. just so that one day i can write a book and explain to people that this does exist and there are people out there?

*sighs*

#21 AngelOfTheMoor

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Posted 10 August 2010 - 12:42 PM

I understand your frustration, NekrosdeMort. :console: It doesn't sound like you've come across any good counselors so far. I would like to hope that there are better ones out there. In my opinion, a counselor should listen to your concerns and directly respond to them . . . It sounds like these therapists are avoiding topics that they might feel uncomfortable discussing more than anything else.

I think that a psychiatrists are supposed to be better than counselors at diagnosis. Have you ever seen a psychiatrist? I suggest that you try one, as diagnoses are more their line of expertise.

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Posted 12 August 2010 - 03:21 AM

I understand your frustration, NekrosdeMort. :console: It doesn't sound like you've come across any good counselors so far. I would like to hope that there are better ones out there. In my opinion, a counselor should listen to your concerns and directly respond to them . . . It sounds like these therapists are avoiding topics that they might feel uncomfortable discussing more than anything else.

I think that a psychiatrists are supposed to be better than counselors at diagnosis. Have you ever seen a psychiatrist? I suggest that you try one, as diagnoses are more their line of expertise.


Thankyou for your suggestion AngelOfTheMoor.

Not really know anything about this.. i went through my G.P. .. who.. i think didnt know anything about it either and referred me to a psychiatric nurse working in the same clinic.

I have seen one psychiatrist once.. the entire experience consisted of him not saying one single word .. literally.. he motioned to the chair and just sat in his own.. staring at me. i proceeded to talk.. to which he wrote a few notes.

After 3 sessions of this i didn't bother going back.. ill have to take a look into it again.

Thankyou.

Andrew. / NekrosdeMort.

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Posted 01 September 2010 - 03:00 AM

[quote name='Lindsay' timestamp='1144389715' post='105721']

During the physical evaluation, patients will be asked to recount a complete history of symptoms, including when they started, how long they have lasted and how severe they are. It is also noted whether the patient has had these symptoms before and, if so, whether and how they were treated. In addition, other tests and questioning may be performed to rule out other conditions

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Posted 19 October 2011 - 05:59 PM

I've had DID since I was in fourth grade, but only got seriously diagnosed with it last year by my school psychologist. Because of that, I really want to get into a psychology major in college [two more years!] I hope someday to be able to help kids like me realize things like this and help them through it. Because, I don't really have very supportive parents when it comes to this. My mom doesn't believe I have it, and my step-dad doesn't know a thing because I refuse to tell him, and my real dad...I barely get to see him at all anyway...
So, I'm actually doing my Juniour Research Paper on Dissociative Identity Disorder. And I have some good stuff on it too. Out of all dissociative disorders, DID is probably the least common, and it occurs in only about 1% of all cases. No matter where you look, most of the symtoms are listed the same as well: mood swings [so often mistaken for Bipolar], abnormal fears [so often put off as phobias], suicidal tenencies [so often thought as depression], depression [self explanatory], sleep disorders, partial loss of memory, traits of OCD [so it's often thrown off as plain OCD], headaches, flashbacks, panis attacks, eating problems, addictions, and night terrors. You name it. That's why DID is probably one of the hardest 'disorders' to identify, it has so many symptoms that it could be mistaken for a bunch of other things. But obviously, the main thing is the seperate individual personalities, all having different styles and names [some don't have names though]. There have even been cases where a split is a plant [personally, I'd like to know how that one works...] And there's also been record of a woman having more than 1,000 seperate individual splits.
I want to do a bit more research about this myself, but I was wondering if anyone knows if splits can get splits of their own? Is it possible?

I am Kayla Mina, and I have 16 splits currently, but I haven't gone to anyone about this, because as I said, my parents don't believe in the whole 'mental disorder' thing. But I took a step of my own [those of you who have ever read my blog] and went to the school psychologist last year and talked with her, and she diagnosed me with Dissociative Identity Disorder. At that time, I only had Kaleb Matthew Inugami and Victor Alistair Raine. Neither of them were a threat to me, but Kaleb I've had with me since I was 8 and in fourth grade.

Now, I have 16 splits and it's only been about a year. All have different names, different ways of speech, different ways of thinking. I have three that are potentially dangerous, but so far, nothing terrible has happened. But as I said...this hasn't been so for that long.

Well, maybe this will be of use to somebody, maybe not. I just wanted to get it out there, because this is my only way of venting and letting myself be free of being alone.

~Kayla Mina [and all the rest...]
Kayla, 16- fragile
Kaleb, 8- strong, Protector
Victor, 3- ISH
Mono, 2- Fragment
Derek&Dylan, 1- twins, Dylan is deaf
Dean&Sammy, 1- brothers, Dean is blind
Vergil- jerk
Dante, 1- Gatekeeper
Nero-OBNOXIOUS
Ruben-rude
Sebastian-humble
Roan-cannibal
Krystian- K-9
Seth- genius

#25 Lumessence

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Posted 14 March 2014 - 11:48 AM

I have DID yet I don't.

I have schizo, yet I don't.

SO what do I have?

 

I have most of the symptoms, but nothing meets exact requirements for anything. So I've been diagnosed as that "we-don't-know-schizoaffective".

I have DID other than the memory loss, and lack of physical control. I have a severe dissociative and detachement to life, due to what I can best describe as maladaptive daydreaming/fantasy prone personality disorder, which blocks out external action to straight up show people that it exists. But it can EASILY be seen in both my writing, or interaction with people on the internet. I have many different concrete personalities, with all features a normal person has. Interests, history, likes, dislikes, morals, even typical thought processes and behaviors. The best that can be seen in the real physical world are all but actions. That being my thoughts, views, ideas, interests, etc. What doesn't get effected however is a universal consciousness, and understanding of the situation. A bipolar person who completely recognizes that they are in one of those bad upset and sensitive moments. I rant at people, and tell them to ignore me, and that it will pass. I tell them that it's pointless to argue with me, because it's the same as trying to convince a rock to move using words. I completely recognize all of it, but I am still frustrated that people don't listen, even as I'm telling them not to.

 

It's as if I always have physical control, but no emotional control at all. My personalities are not aggressive. I'm a peaceful person, and I don't yell or get angry at anyone in the real world. In the real world when Im angry, or extremely frustrated, at the world, even as I'm telling someone about my hated issues with my life, I smile, giggle and laugh, which makes it even more difficult. And to be honest, I feel like it's just a result of insanity, or hysteria. 

 

There is a novel of explanation that I can provide, but it always turns to be wasted words and time, so until further notice, that's all I'm going to bother with.



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Posted 03 May 2015 - 11:02 PM

Ok, I thought that DID had to do with dissasociating from people etc due to being triggers.  Like going into one's own la la land and seperating self from conversation, etc. I did this my whole childhood.

 

Plus, I would love to know if their is a specific forum for things like a "no memory, or barely any memory of childhood" most likely related to traumatic events

 

Blessings to all!

 

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Posted 04 May 2015 - 01:18 AM

Hi Sandy! 

 

The way I understand it there are various things that fit under dissociation. Those with DID usually have a lot of depersonalisation and derealisation but what sets it apart is not the zoning/spacing out and rather the existence of two or more distinct personality states. Some people are starting to talk about that as Tertiary Structural Dissociation. 

 

What you describe sounds more like depersonalisation/derealisation. That can  be where we go into a type of trance or where we are outside our bodies looking down on them for example. These are thought to be a totally different mechanism that is involved compared to the ones in DID. If in response to triggers like you mention then under the structural dissociation theory model it could fall under primary structural dissociation too. Not the resulting zoning out but more the intense emotional response to the trigger that precipitates it. 

 

You could maybe  post about those things under the Anxiety and PTSD forum or even the Depression Central forum which gets more traffic. 

 

I too have little memory of childhood and have a long history of depersonalisation etc. Welcome. 



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Posted 04 May 2015 - 09:01 AM

Fizzle,

Thank you so much for clarifying things

I am dashing off to work, but I will follow through on the other boards as suggested

 

Hugs and blessings!

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