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I am feeling so overwhelmed at the mo with university. I love it so much there but my depression is holding me back. I have been on Venlafaxine since 2004 150mg. I have no motivation to cook myself a meal or do anything. I've been in bed 2 days. Just on the internet. I have been living on chocolate and diet coke to give me energy (yes I know). But its the only thing I have at home. I'm too tired to go to the shop for food and too tired to cook. I live on my own I'm 36.

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I am feeling so overwhelmed at the mo with university. I love it so much there but my depression is holding me back. I have been on Venlafaxine since 2004 150mg. I have no motivation to cook myself a meal or do anything. I've been in bed 2 days. Just on the internet. I have been living on chocolate and diet coke to give me energy (yes I know). But its the only thing I have at home. I'm too tired to go to the shop for food and too tired to cook. I live on my own I'm 36.

Amanda

Could you get yourself to the doctor, or at least call. It sounds like you need a med adjustment. Sometimes they just poop out after you've been on them that long and simply raising the dose can work.

Call the doctor, Amanda

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Hi and thanks.

Yeah I was going to try and go today but I just cant get up. I can't even open my mail. I got an appointment for tomorrow. Feel like I'm covered in cobwebs. I've not even washed or brushed my teeth.

Amanda

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why don't you try ringing a friend or relative and explain your situation and get them to come around and buy you food and cook you a meal or something?

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I don't really want anyone to see me. My place is a mess. I have texted some friends but its late here (London) 23:04pm. Its only at night it all seems worse. I've had my curtains closed all this time too. Doctor tomorrow. Even if I have to take a cab 5 mins walk away or I will get a house call.

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Hi Intagliogirl

I am glad that you are going to see the doctor, as it sounds like you are not doing too well at the moment.

Please let us know how it goes.

Trace

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I know exactly how you feel. I had to battle with that every day before my zoloft started working although this week I have had a very bad week and felt like you.

Hang in there, I know how hard it is.

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I am feeling so overwhelmed at the mo with university. I love it so much there but my depression is holding me back. I have been on Venlafaxine since 2004 150mg. I have no motivation to cook myself a meal or do anything. I've been in bed 2 days. Just on the internet. I have been living on chocolate and diet coke to give me energy (yes I know). But its the only thing I have at home. I'm too tired to go to the shop for food and too tired to cook. I live on my own I'm 36.

Amanda

I think that motivation is the key here. You have to literally force yourself to get up and live your life. I know it can be extremely difficult and wallowing seems like the easy option, but wallowing in depression and defeat is not the answer, because it digs you into an even deeper hole. The longer you wait, the harder it gets. However, I believe that depression is a personal journey which some people have to endure. So, while you should be doing things and at least attempting to enjoy your life, don't just think that depression will go away easily and completely, just like that. It is like a giant pit, and if you don't attempt to climb back up, you'll fall deeper. I think that depression can absorb your life completely, and that it almost puts you in a derealised state of extreme despair or emptiness. And that is extremely difficult to break out of. However, the more you attempt to live your life, the more pride you can feel for actually trying and the more pride you can feel in choosing strength over simply allowing it to beat you.

I won't say good luck, because that won't make a difference. But, I do hope things get better for you.

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Thanks everyone

I went to the Doctor. I'm lucky that my mental health clinic has a duty team if you are having a crisis. I said I wanted to see my consultant or the registrar Psychiatrist to discuss my meds. I have been seeing a Junior Doctor for a while and as much as he needs to learn I need to get better. It took me just under 3 hours to get up washed and ready to go. I also went into university afterwards to see my classmates. I see the registrar on the 25th.

I was good to chat but exhausting. Small steps. I love university I thought it would motivate me but when things get too much or overwhelming I just want to hide away. I feel like I have weights attached to my limbs its so difficult to move. Bed just takes all the weight away from my body.

My friend is meeting me for lunch today so that will help.

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Thanks everyone

I went to the Doctor. I'm lucky that my mental health clinic has a duty team if you are having a crisis. I said I wanted to see my consultant or the registrar Psychiatrist to discuss my meds. I have been seeing a Junior Doctor for a while and as much as he needs to learn I need to get better. It took me just under 3 hours to get up washed and ready to go. I also went into university afterwards to see my classmates. I see the registrar on the 25th.

I was good to chat but exhausting. Small steps. I love university I thought it would motivate me but when things get too much or overwhelming I just want to hide away. I feel like I have weights attached to my limbs its so difficult to move. Bed just takes all the weight away from my body.

My friend is meeting me for lunch today so that will help.

You sound like you have atypical depression. That heaviness in the limbs is called leaden paralysis. One more symptom you have is that you're feeling worse in the evening, while in nonatypical (i.e. melancholic) depression, you feel worse in the morning.

Do you oversleep and overeat as well?

I have the same symptoms as you, and I've been on Zoloft for 5 and a half months. I feel better, more positive, and have a brighter view on things, not so anxious, do not overeat at all (I had pretty bad bulimia). But my lack of energy, motivation, will and interest to do anything (take a shower, etc.) have persisted (although less than before Zoloft). So my pdoc prescribed me Wellbutrin this Monday to give me some energy and motivation. It works on noradrenaline and dopamine. So I'm taking both Zoloft and Wb now. Since I've started taking Wb I wake up a lot easier in the morning and hear my alarm even when I don't have enough sleep! Usually I would not hear it, I have such a deep sleep.

How did things go for you in regards to meds? What are you on now? :shocked:

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Hi Intagliogirl

I am so glad that you went to the doc and that is great that they have crisis duty team.

Take each moment and each day as it comes and you will get there.

How did the lunch go?

Trace

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Hey

Im still pretty bad with the eating and getting up, I ant bear food at the mo which is not helping the energy thing. I have started not getting to sleep till 02:30 then waking really early but my mind is the only thing awake. My body feels so heavy. I have made myself go to university every day so far this week. It takes me about 3 hours to get up and out. Everything is such an effort. My appointment with the psych is not till 25th.

Amanda

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Hi Amanda

The 25th is not that far away now and I hope you can get some help.

I am glad that you are going to university every day, even though it is hard for you to get going.

It shows that you have strength and eventually things will get easier.

Trace

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I went to see my Psychiatrist yesterday. It was a new registrar and he was really lovely (and good looking :shocked: ). He had put aside an hour to talk with me and really reassured me about my worries. I still feel really tired but this week has been better. I'm trying to achieve one thing a day no matter how small. He told me if my body needs a rest I've not to feel guilty or worry about it. He recons with all the exam stress I will get tired quicker.

I've just to keep taking the Venlafaxine for the moment as he doesn't want me to get upset during exam time. He said incase I don't get on with a different dose etc

So thanks for the support and I know where to come now for advice.

Amanda : )

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Hi Amanda

I am so glad that the psychiatrist was lovely and good looking!

He sounds like he is really thoughtful and gives good advise too.

Thank you so much for letting us know how it went and keep strong.

Trace

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Its weird though. I'm up and out but I seem to be wandering aimlessly. I decided to go out for a coffee yesterday but after I did that I stood outside the coffee shop for ages trying to figure out what to do next. Even at university they are noticing and commenting on my aimless wandering. My doc is sending me to neurology on Tuesday because I'm getting numb down my left hand side. Ugh will this never end?

Amanda

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Its weird though. I'm up and out but I seem to be wandering aimlessly. I decided to go out for a coffee yesterday but after I did that I stood outside the coffee shop for ages trying to figure out what to do next. Even at university they are noticing and commenting on my aimless wandering. My doc is sending me to neurology on Tuesday because I'm getting numb down my left hand side. Ugh will this never end?

Amanda

I get up like today and I often try to figure out what to do. I know what I should do but what do I want to do? That I don't always know.

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(((Amanda)))

I just finished cleaning my house, working in the garden and gathering pile of garbage after a long period of depression. I was in bed for months, worked from home and didn

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I've read lots of self help books. I bought a book on procrastination and still haven't read it. Im having schema therapy at the mo. I've had cognitive and psychodynamic in the past but this seems to be helping a lot better. I bought a vitamin tonic thing today to see if it would boost me up. I'm back in bed though. Its supporting all my tired limbs.

Amanda

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I am feeling so overwhelmed at the mo with university. I love it so much there but my depression is holding me back. I have been on Venlafaxine since 2004 150mg. I have no motivation to cook myself a meal or do anything. I've been in bed 2 days. Just on the internet. I have been living on chocolate and diet coke to give me energy (yes I know). But its the only thing I have at home. I'm too tired to go to the shop for food and too tired to cook. I live on my own I'm 36.

Amanda

I just realized how much I feel like you do today with this first post. I am 37, live on my own and too tired to do anything.

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I've read lots of self help books. I bought a book on procrastination and still haven't read it. Im having schema therapy at the mo. I've had cognitive and psychodynamic in the past but this seems to be helping a lot better. I bought a vitamin tonic thing today to see if it would boost me up. I'm back in bed though. Its supporting all my tired limbs.

Amanda

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I know EXACTLY what you're going though. I was studying an post-grad degree last year, and the stress of final term totally overwhelmed me. For the last few weeks I could barely leave my room, and I just ate nachos (or sometimes just the dry nacho chips when I was too scared to go to the shared kitchen).

I was stuck in a cycle of procrastination. I would just go to the lab, sit there for eight hours, then go home, feeling more depressed as I hadn't achieved anything. Procrastination is a horrible, debilitating state to be in. Its ironic that doing nothing can be so stressful... exhausting even.

I still passed though. You'll get through it, I promise you. :shocked:

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Sun_Through_Sky I have the same symptoms as well. Oversleeping and overeating, although I dont seem to taste anything I am eating. I have been sitting in my apartment with all the blinds closed in the dark....not even realizing I am doing so. It is just quieter and more relaxing...havent been able to shower and the thought of cleaning my apartment is exhausting. Been off work for the last 2 days and finally told work what is going on (although I am sure they already know since I am never to work on time, dont hear my alarm ever). I have been on many different AD's over the last 10 years. Starting to slip again so I am now coming off Effexor XR and going on Cypralex.

Small steps indeed Intagliogirl. Every day is a new day. Hope tomorrow goes well too. Be sure to update us.

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I know EXACTLY what you're going though. I was studying an post-grad degree last year, and the stress of final term totally overwhelmed me. For the last few weeks I could barely leave my room, and I just ate nachos (or sometimes just the dry nacho chips when I was too scared to go to the shared kitchen).

I was stuck in a cycle of procrastination. I would just go to the lab, sit there for eight hours, then go home, feeling more depressed as I hadn't achieved anything. Procrastination is a horrible, debilitating state to be in. Its ironic that doing nothing can be so stressful... exhausting even.

I still passed though. You'll get through it, I promise you. :shocked:

You totally described it well, I am eating crap like nachos and just quick fixes. Prob why I'm so tired. I'm kind of like if I hide away it will go away. I went into university today and basically wandered for 4 hours. I was too anxious to rest and tired walking it is horrible. :wwww:

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Sun_Through_Sky I have the same symptoms as well. Oversleeping and overeating, although I dont seem to taste anything I am eating. I have been sitting in my apartment with all the blinds closed in the dark....not even realizing I am doing so. It is just quieter and more relaxing...havent been able to shower and the thought of cleaning my apartment is exhausting. Been off work for the last 2 days and finally told work what is going on (although I am sure they already know since I am never to work on time, dont hear my alarm ever). I have been on many different AD's over the last 10 years. Starting to slip again so I am now coming off Effexor XR and going on Cypralex.

Small steps indeed Intagliogirl. Every day is a new day. Hope tomorrow goes well too. Be sure to update us.

I have been keeping my blinds closed too. I'm trying not to feel guilty about naps too like my doc said if I'm tired sleep! Hungry eat! There was three days last week I had no shower or cleaned my teeth. But I just couldn't think about doing it. I just lay in bed. Thank goodness I live alone. I looked like S**t. Find out if your work has occupational health. I'm British and we are allowed up to 6 months sick on full pay. Then it goes down to half pay. Your doc will need to sign you off work though. Might do you good to "gather yourself". :shocked:

Ugh I'm gonna have "things can only get better" on my tombstone. lol. :wwww:

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