I am tired of being housebound, being in physical pain from all the stress, of looking at my life 10 years ago as a distant, happy, motivated, caring, confident individual who seems to have died inside along the way, now I am a shell, but a living corpse going through the motions of life that have me feeling like I have been kicked in the stomach every day.
I have been dealing with this for 7 or 8 years now and am just tired of it. I no longer fear death, but welcome it. I will not **** myself due to anxiety over what is on the other side, if there is another side, where I would be because I took my life and most importantly because it would negatively affect my parents and brother for the rest of their lives.
I have no friends, no life, nothing.
Is there any meds in the pipeline that will soon be released? Any hope?
I have tried almost everything aside from SSRI's with exception to the TCA's and Wellbutrin (I hear is worst thing for anxiety). I may try Trazdone or Elavil next, but wha tis the point really...hope is lost at this point.
I wish I could just fall asleep and not wake up and die a peaceful natiural death. I am 30 years old, male. Sorry for the rant or whatev...
Edited by Forum Admin, 20 April 2010 - 05:20 PM.