[Orkid_3]

Hi All,

Just wanting to vent to people who understand. I have driven my 16 year old son to a Dr's appointment, only to let my anxiety overtake me, so I turned around a came home. The office is about half an hour away, my hands were visably shaking by the time I arrived. I saw the waiting room was absolutely full and was terrified I would faint or throw up; every thing in my body was saying "Get out of here!", so I made an excuse of not feeling well myself and rescheduled. So, I have to do it again and I know that once I have done this, its terribly hard for me to go back..

I feel like such a loser, I cant even take my son to the doctor - what kind of a mother is that? My son said that it was OK, he didnt want to wait anyway, but Im so upset...my kids miss so much, going out to movies, vacations, etc. because I cant get it together. My world is getting so small...and they are paying for it

Orkid

[chel]

its ok, us moms know how you feel,... are you taking anything like xanax? its helps alot with my anxiety

[Orkid_3]

chel, on Nov 2 2009, 06:58 PM, said:

its ok, us moms know how you feel,... are you taking anything like xanax? its helps alot with my anxiety

I take 1/2 pill of a 1 mg clonazepam at least once a day...They are prescribed to take one whole pill every six hours as needed, but then I'll be wanting to sleep all day. I'm trying to find a balance and it's hard. My doctor is always kind of irritated with me because I take less than he prescribes (he says I am losing "quality of life" and he is right...) . I dont know why, but after all these years, I am afraid to take my medicine.

I've had anxiety problems for 19 years, and its really flaring up in the last 5-6 months, Im nearly agoraphobic, every day is a struggle to make myself go out. Today we just really bad and Im really feeling guilty thinking of all the things my kids missed over the years. Today is the second doctors appointment for my son that Ive had to bail out of...I was in full blown panic =(

Thanks for listening to my feelings, its good to talk to other moms! After typing this out, it seems clear I should up my dosage...lol

Oh, the joys of anxiety!

Orkid

[chel]

i take .5mg twice a day and i know the tired thing,, mine went away after awhile and my body got used to it

[Orkid_3]

Thanks, chel, Im going to try that and see how it goes.

Thanks again for listening =)

Orkid