Posted 27 March 2009 - 10:37 AM
Thanks so much for the replies from all of you, every one here is so supportive. I am on meds Savannah, although they will be getting changed soon, I take Wellbutrin, which I cut my dosage of in half a few days ago on orders from my doc b/c it has way too many side effects for me, I also take Buspar and a low dose of Adderall since I'm lucky enough to have ADD too. I think my doc is going to put me back on an SSRI, although I must admit I've tried most of them by now. He mentioned Effexor, it's an SNRI or something like that, works on serotonin as well as neuroepinephrine. I was on Cymbalta before the Wellbutrin and it didn't work great, although I never used it with something like Buspar of Abilify so I might ask him if we could give it another shot, it definitely did something, and had less side effects than most ADs I've used.
I feel like all I'm ever doing lately is something for me, to keep myself calm, or from getting overly frustrated or whatever. Gotta say it does feel kind of selfish. I want to be in a place where I can listen to others talk and actually care about what they are saying. It's like I hear them, and I comprehend the words, but I'm so stuck on whatever it may be at the time in my head that I just don't care. I hate that, because when I'm not especially depressed I'm a good listener. Here's hoping things look up soon,
"Who are you to judge the life I live? I know I'm not perfect and I don't live to be. But, before you start pointing fingers, make sure your hands are clean." -Bob Marley