I have atypical severe depression with some possible other things. I've taken lots of different kinds of meds in the past that helped but at the same time causing other problems. In a last try effort to give a new thing one more try before going to an MAOI I wanted to give this med a go.
So it's been almost 3 weeks on the 30mg of Mirtazapine.
Week 1 - First few days slept all the time, then I started to get warm fussy feelings of peace, love, and happiness a kind of feeling I haven't felt in 7 years. Also I got another kind of energizing feeling that I haven't felt since I was 12 years old. These feelings came in flashes now and then but nothing stable yet.
I also started working out again and had good energy which I haven't done in a couple years.
Week 2 - No effects at all. I took an antibiotic that week so is that possible it could have interfered?
Week 3 - I tried increasing the dose to 45mg for 2 days and it made me feel really crappy and also made me toss and turn and not sleep, so I dropped back to 30mg. So then I felt like crap for a few days. Today I think it may start to be picking up again.
But I am also noticing this other thing. Occassionaly now I get these feelings of yuckyness is the best way I can describe. Like a feeling when certain things in your life aren't right, well I'm noticing I'm feeling the effects of those things more. Things in my life are very crappy right now so of course one would expect to feel crappy. But I'm wondering. Is the med making me feel even crappier or is it just making me FEEL more in general where as before I had found a way to turn those feelings off? Does this make any sense I hope so.
It is different from an SSRI because an SSRI would just make me HAPPY no matter what was going on in my life. Which isn't necessarily a good thing as we need some negative reinforcement to enable us to make positive decisions. But at the same time I really liked feeling happy and uninhibited and free.
Is this med going to make me feel happy, uninhibited, and free like an SSRI does? I've also developed some social anxiety because of my depression and it's bascially put my once extremely social and happy life to a complete non-existant one. Do you guys think Mirtazapine can help with this too?
I'd be happy to just go back to an SSRI if this doesn't work, but I did that for years and suffered a HORRIBLE sex life because of it and no matter how depressed I am now that is just the one thing I cannot part with so if this med can work for me it will be a godsend!
I know most meds take 6-8 weeks. I've heard this med kicks in sooner and since I feel I am still depressed it worrys me that it's not working. Are those happy flashes good signs of what the med will be like in a few more weeks? What do you guys think? I know I very much may add Wellbutrin as an augment because I have major motivation and ADD type problems too, but before I do I want to make sure I like this med first before I go mixing things.
Please help thank you!
Edited by beaches09, 20 March 2009 - 03:39 AM.