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What is your main ED?


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Poll: What is your main ED? (394 member(s) have cast votes)

What is your main ED?

  1. Anorexia (70 votes [15.84%])

    Percentage of vote: 15.84%

  2. Bullimia (75 votes [16.97%])

    Percentage of vote: 16.97%

  3. Compulsive eating (109 votes [24.66%])

    Percentage of vote: 24.66%

  4. Food phobia (14 votes [3.17%])

    Percentage of vote: 3.17%

  5. overweight/obese (55 votes [12.44%])

    Percentage of vote: 12.44%

  6. yo-yo dieting (17 votes [3.85%])

    Percentage of vote: 3.85%

  7. Combination of the above (please specify) (102 votes [23.08%])

    Percentage of vote: 23.08%

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#81 JD

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Posted 26 November 2006 - 12:10 AM

hey
I'm annorexic
If I eta I'll get fat
If I at I hate myself

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Posted 30 November 2006 - 07:00 PM

compulsive eater here
It started about three years ago and got out of hand
I have better control over it now generally speaking but the last month has been a struggle

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#84 just_a_girl

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Posted 02 December 2006 - 09:01 PM

Hey,

I was bulimic for about 6 years, it pretty much ruled my life (freqent daily binge purge). Was underweight for a while and possibly considered anorexic, but is hard to feel that. Anyway, for the first time in as long as I can remember I am not bingeing or purging. (three episodes in three months vs many times daily). It's hard though, I look normal, I eat normally....yet feel as eating disordered in my brain as ever. I don't want to go back to the b/p because it was HELL. I was fiercly addicted, and took me moving round the world to break the addiction. I'm scared I'll go back...I don't feel "safe" yet. Plus am starting to count calories and obsess again. This is bad :hearts: but now I have started is hard to relax again over food....I just wish I didn't think about food/weight so much. I wish I could think about other stuff instead.

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Posted 02 December 2006 - 09:20 PM

i find that it is difficult to think about other things when you are very depressed. i use my bulimia as a way to deal with depression and become obsessed with something other than suicide and the inability to concentrate on other things
nothing is forever; nothing stays the same
even if you desire it to

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#86 louie

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Posted 05 December 2006 - 01:39 PM

I have bulimia....I have no self control when it comes to food it seems....So, when I eat it... I feel really bad....Then I go and get rid of it before my body has time to digest it....I have been stuggling fo a while now.... :bump:

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its hard to say with my eating, it skips around alot.
not eating, then binge eating, then not eating hardly any thing, then binging n purging. i really dont no.... :hearts:

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Posted 02 January 2007 - 10:51 AM

Bulimia.....9 LONG years :hearts:

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Posted 02 January 2007 - 01:12 PM

Welcome to the forums, (((Dee)))), I'm sorry you've been struggling with your ED... i've been struggling with mine for over thirty years, so I know how you feel....I hope you are making strides in your recovery, or at least baby steps... :bump: We are all about support, so feel free to talk to us.

Again, welcome to the forums!
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#89 shadowgem

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Posted 02 January 2007 - 09:16 PM

I'm obese and struggle with overeating. It started after I had my child thirteen years ago, then got dramatically worse when I took antedepressants plus an antipsychotic. I hate the way my body looks - it's embarrassing every day - but when I get angry, nervous, stressed or depressed, I eat. I'm currently seeing a psychologist to see if its possible to break this cycle.

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Posted 03 January 2007 - 12:14 AM

Hi Shadowgem,

:hearts: to the forums,

I am glad you have found us, this is a very caring and supportive community.
Good luck with your therapy and if you need to talk, we will be right here :shocked:

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Posted 03 January 2007 - 03:04 PM

Hi, Newbies! I'm new to this thread but, I found the DF in October. I have probably been in denial but, I know I'm an emotional eater. I've never binged or purged, but I sure do eat too many sweets! I am overwieght, on AD's and really struggling to exercise and "eat right."

I do hate being the weight I am but, it's not a high priority compared to my other depression symptoms. It is something I want to work on--this being the new year and all! :hearts:
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Posted 03 January 2007 - 03:09 PM

i was bulemic for about 2yrs. and now that that is gone i can not eat barely anything and feancee really hates that. i am luck if i eat once a day but there are times i forget that i haven't eating and x weeks have already past. i wish everyone the best with any ED's that you may have. with love, hugs, and kisses

veronica

Edited by I am Cat, 04 January 2007 - 01:27 AM.


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Posted 06 January 2007 - 07:43 AM

Im an emotional/comfort eater.


Am overweight too, thanks to ADs and too depressed to do excercise I guess.


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Posted 06 January 2007 - 03:12 PM

i totally understand too depressed to exercise.. exercise never happens if im depressed. *hugs*
nothing is forever; nothing stays the same
even if you desire it to

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Posted 12 January 2007 - 02:32 AM

compulsive overeater, and overweight. on really bad days i'm so happy at the sight of food, it's ridiculous and then i hate myself. on better days, i watch what i eat, and i feel better. but...right now, still struggling i suppose.

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Posted 12 January 2007 - 02:33 PM

i was bulemic for several years in my teens, intermittently as an adult but not in recent years. became a yo-yo dieter.
am a binge-eater, now am obese. wish i lived in an urban area with access to ED-specialists & programs. once asked my then-shrink to refer me to an ED program and he told me to go to Weight Watchers, the moron.

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Posted 19 January 2007 - 03:12 PM

I was anorexic throughout highschool mostly because of depression. When I pulled out of the depression in college I also managed to pull out of anorexia for awhile. It is something I still struggle with, especially with my anxiety disorder (OCD). I also stick to "safe foods." I will go for months eating the same meal for lunch every day and dinner is the same too (but different then lunch). But at least I'm eating!! (:
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Posted 20 January 2007 - 11:23 AM

Hi Green eyes,

Welcome here..........and thank you for sharing. I'm am glad you are eating!! Safe foods will always be there in our minds, now won't they?

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Posted 20 January 2007 - 06:23 PM

Thanks for the welcome (:
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Posted 22 January 2007 - 01:32 PM

i have been diagnosed with anorexia, purging type. but sometimes it feels more like bulimia. especially lately.
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Posted 22 January 2007 - 01:40 PM

Hi Butterfly,

:hearts: please know that you are not alone here, we all understand *sigh*
Are you still in therapy for your eating disorder?

Hope to see you around the forums,

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Posted 22 January 2007 - 02:38 PM

Welcome Butterfly!
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Posted 26 January 2007 - 04:47 PM

Is what I have an eating disorder? I don't know.
I have emetophobia (fear of vomiting), but that is just one aspect of my issues with food. I compulsively eat peanut butter cups and don't ever feel hungry for anything else. Although the foods I eat make me feel sick quite often, I can't or won't change my diet. The thought of eating healthier depresses me. I feel that if I eat anything different than my "comfort foods", that my anxiety and feelings of insecurity will spiral out of control.
If you believe in peace, act peacefully; if you believe in love, acting lovingly; if you believe every which way, then act every which way, that's perfectly valid— but don't go out trying to sell your beliefs to the system. You end up contradicting what you profess to believe in, and you set a bum example. If you want to change the world, change yourself. -Tom Robbins

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Posted 01 February 2007 - 10:19 PM

Welcome (((((Sweetfreak))))),
You should meet Lizzy, one of our Senior Moderators. She too, has a fear of vomiting. :shocked: And it sounds as though you definitely has disordered eating, though I'm no professional... so I can't diagnose you.... you should see a professional and be upfront with him/her about your symptoms. The first step is scary, but it gets easier as time goes on... It will only continue to haunt you if you act as though the white elephant isn't in the room with you... (your eating disorder).... Professing that you have a problem is the FIRST step to recovery.

Don't be afraid to take it. We're here right beside you... every step of the way. :bump:

wishing you love and laughter,
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Posted 02 February 2007 - 01:12 PM

Hey all

Just thought I ought to say hi....and that I'm anorexic......or at least I was before I became bulimic......then after that I just got 'large'.......while still being anorexic in my thoughts. So....I'm a 'large' anorexic in recovery....or at least a sort of recovery.....or, well, who knows?

Never been particularly keen on labels....or at least not ED ones.....I think (!)

I'm doing better than I used to physically, but I'm still quite screwed up mentally....clearly

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Posted 02 February 2007 - 01:23 PM

(((((kitten))))),
boy, can I relate to THAT... label me and put me into a spinning slide! LOL.... welcome to the forums, (((((kitten))))))

It's nice to have you here.

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Posted 02 February 2007 - 02:16 PM

Welcome (((((Sweetfreak))))),
You should meet Lizzy, one of our Senior Moderators. She too, has a fear of vomiting. :shocked: And it sounds as though you definitely has disordered eating, though I'm no professional... so I can't diagnose you.... you should see a professional and be upfront with him/her about your symptoms. The first step is scary, but it gets easier as time goes on... It will only continue to haunt you if you act as though the white elephant isn't in the room with you... (your eating disorder).... Professing that you have a problem is the FIRST step to recovery.

Don't be afraid to take it. We're here right beside you... every step of the way. :bump:

wishing you love and laughter,
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Thank you for the support, Cat.
Actually, my therapist does say that I do have an ED. I have just always thought of EDs as having to do with an obsession with weight, and I don't have that. But he says anyone that doesn't eat right and is obsessed with food the way I am has an ED. I certainly don't feel healthy most of the time because of the way I eat, so I guess that would be an ED.

Oh, and if Lizzy is reading this, I am sorry you have a fear of vomiting, too. :(

Edited by sweetfreak, 02 February 2007 - 02:39 PM.

If you believe in peace, act peacefully; if you believe in love, acting lovingly; if you believe every which way, then act every which way, that's perfectly valid— but don't go out trying to sell your beliefs to the system. You end up contradicting what you profess to believe in, and you set a bum example. If you want to change the world, change yourself. -Tom Robbins

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Posted 21 February 2007 - 02:28 PM

i recently started taking topamax for migraines and one of the side effects is weightless and appetite change. my whole life i have been a big eater but also very active so just a normal healthy weight. after i started college, i of course put on a couple of little love handles but nothing too major. lately, because of my medicine i have dropped about XX pounds, and people keep saying how great i look and i tell them i'm not trying to lose weight, i'm not on a diet, and it's my medicine. but i'm getting scared, because i like it! and i'm hungry but i'm not eating even when i haven't eaten all day or since the day before and when i do eat, i eat very little because i fill up so quickly now. am i developing some kind of eating disorder? i have no idea bout this kind of thing and if it is a disorder which one is it?

Edited by SarahN, 21 February 2007 - 02:41 PM.
Edited out amount of weight loss as it can trigger our members with an ED


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Posted 21 February 2007 - 02:43 PM

Hi Veronica,

I am sorry you are struggling with your weight at the moment. What you are describing sounds like the start of disordered eating. I hope you will consider talking to your GP about these recent developments before things get too out of hand.
Keep us posted, we care :bump:

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Posted 23 February 2007 - 11:29 AM

Hello everyone,

I am new to the boards and just thought I would drop in and say hello. I am in my mid, now coming late (oh my god, this is sounding old) thirties and I have been struggling with anorexia for the past ten or so years. At times it has been ok, tolerated, in remission if you will - and at other times I will go right off the charts with restriction. I did a six week residential program last summer and have remained in the care of an outpatient treatment team, for which I am very grateful.

ED's are nothing but an uphill battle and if you can summon the strength to fight off the demons, you realize or hopefully will realize the light at the end of the tunnel is NOT the headlamp of the oncoming train.

I wish everyone well here - I know it's not easy.

Take care!

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Posted 23 February 2007 - 11:34 AM

Hi Equestrian,

Welcome to this part of the forums.......sorry you have been struggling with your ED so long.
It is a hard battle and the road to recovery is long and hard ( unending I sometimes feel :bump:) but yes, it can be done and life can be good again.

Good luck and please take good care of yourself,

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Posted 26 February 2007 - 10:12 PM

lately i have been drinking lots of coffee and teas.. because it gives me energy but fills me up so i dont have to eat real food.

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#114 Jolie

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Posted 26 February 2007 - 10:33 PM

Hi everyone, another newbie here. I'm overweight...well, no, that's not entirely true. I am morbidly obese--at least according to the standards set by the American Medical Association. I also suffer with depression. Food is a great comfort for me. Too great, obviously. I'm trying to be honest with myself and with people to whom I talk about my eating/weight problems, but as you know, it's not easy.

I visited an online Overeaters' Anonymous meeting the other night and was quite interested in the way the group has applied the 12-step program to their eating habits. The meeting was an interesting experience and I went away with a lot to think about. I still haven't processed it all. What I did get out of it right away though is the realization that stuffing my feelings with food is just as much of an eating disorder as it would be if I didn't (or couldn't) eat BECAUSE of my feelings. I hadn't really thought of it that way before, and hadn't really admitted that I AM dangerously overweight because my mind sees me differently than the mirror or camera does.

There's an awful lot to think about, some new ideas and realizations to consider, along with the acceptance that I can't just take one problem at a time, fix it, and then move on to the next problem once the first is wrapped up all neat. It's depressing to realize they are all inextricably linked and will not be resolved one at a time. To work on one, I need to work on the other.

It feels as though I'm on the verge of some kind of grand "ah-HAH!" moment, admitting I've got what *I* think is an eating disorder.

Ugh. I'm very tired tonight and probably not making much sense. For now, I'll leave you all with positive thoughts and light.

Pleasant dreams!
Jolie
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Posted 26 February 2007 - 10:46 PM

:hearts: Jolie,

it can be very hard to admit that you have an eating disorder, but once you do you can make a lot of changes to get better. i gained weight from my meds and i'm not very happy with it, so now i decided to eat healthy foods until i can get rid of the med-weight as i call it. it can be very frustrating because it is a long road, the important thing is to remember you need to change your eating habits... not just go on a diet but change your lifestyle of how you eat. that will make things so much easier in the future. if you change things little by little, week by week you will get back on track :)
maybe you can find an activity to take your mind off of the emotional eating. remember baby steps, don't over-do it all at once and don't be too hard on yourself.


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Posted 27 February 2007 - 05:38 AM

I am constantly going up and down. B4 xmas I felt I was at a good weight.....now ugh, spare tire is all I have to say

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Posted 27 February 2007 - 05:11 PM

I'm in the combo department and was obese the majority of my life because of compulsive overeating. Now I fear gaining weight and see a returning pattern as I try to gain control of my life. There are times when I don't eat or do eat and purge my system in one way or another. This is the first time I've admitted that to anyone.

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Posted 28 February 2007 - 10:37 AM

((((Towmatter))))))

Welcome her and congratulations on that very important big step............admitting something is not right. We are to support you and help you wherever we can.
Don't be afraid to come here for advice, we are here to help :shocked:

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Posted 17 March 2007 - 07:07 AM

im an over eater,i think constantly about what i can eat next,its like how i look on the outside(revolting)is how i feel on the inside

i never seem to feel full,and i feel guilty for bingeing constantly,so i eat some more to try stop the guilt....im stuck,i really do hate myself
its horrible that people look at me and think im just a pig,but i really cant stop at the moment,its horrible

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Posted 17 March 2007 - 09:36 PM

((((lynndyloo))))

don't be so hard on yourself. no one thinks that you are a pig, you are not! there are other ways of expressing yourself than forcing yourself to eat your guilt away! it's never-ending. do you have a t? or maybe it would be good to bring it up at a doc appt. you don't have to feel this way hun :hearts:


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