Maybe This Is The Best Way To Let It Out ...

Posted by loopylulu, Nov 4 2009, 01:01 PM

Well, I've never had a blog before, but it does seem to be a place where you let your head out without accidently embarresing yourself to those you know, but you still get to know people somehow are listening. Plus you can't see them if they roll their eyes! Clever.
Ok well, today has been ... not anything really. I'm getting to the point again when i've paniced myself so much that i'm to exhausted to lift my head up as I walk back to the bus I only just got off having decided I don't have any where near the energy to actually go to my lecture. Since i've got home about 4 hours ago, I just managed a cup of tea, and to log on. I did manage to get from the bed room to the front room to.
the list of things I need to do just keeps getting bigger and bigger and I just get smaller and smaller and and incapable of acheiving anything. Any dreamt of life I once thought I was starting to steer myself towards is getting further and further and I get slower tp the point where today i've just stopped altogether.
What annoys me most today is I know d*** well this is not the worst i've ever felt and that while i'm still at the begining of a stage like this it's the easiest time to shake myself out of it. Before depressions gets it's hand properly in my head. While the little voice can still just muster up 'come on now, you'll feel better if you get outside'. But it seems to not be working so well this time.
I'd like to sit in my cupboard with a blanket over me for a week or so ... maybe i'll try another tea