So it's become evident that I need SSRIs. I know this, I knew this. But I couldn't stand the weight I was gaining on prozac...or at least what I blamed on prozac. Who knows.
I tried Cymblata. I was optimistic about it since I am in pain all the time. But I reacted really badly to it. So bad I have missed three days of work. So my doctor gave me Prestiq to start. I see that it's pretty much Effexor which I vowed to never go on again because the withrdrawal is so bad. So now I am totally worried. But now I am sitting here thinking...why bother worrying about going off it when I never will be able to go off these things.
Maybe I will feel alive again. Maybe I won't be so angry and annoyed and sad. I don't know.