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Cave Dweller

Posted by JohnnyB in JohnnyB's Corner of Existence, 18 May 2013 - - - - - - · 4 views

The start of passion, for anything, is the sulfur flare of a match head, a spark of light in the darkness, the rumble of thunder that is the harbinger of a storm. It is the essence of purpose, the realization of inspiration, and all meaning is derived from it.
 
Wonder, bring to me life. Draw my eyes to see things unknown in the darkness, and so brin...

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05182013

Posted by james555 in james555's Blog, 18 May 2013 - - - - - - · 4 views

If I had to bet I'd say that's about all the Aripiprazole is going to do for my anhedonia at this dosage. It seems the lower the dose (2mg & 5mg) the better it helps my loss in interest (I'm at 10). I think at higher doses it actually hurts me when it comes to my loss of interest...it's mainly for shutting down psychotic symptoms at higher doses (10mg...

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Will I Ever Be Heard??? Will My Efforts Ever Be Truly Noticed... Not Stolen And Me Pushed Aside... :(

Posted by theone11 in my life.... plus poems and other stuff :) , 18 May 2013 - - - - - - · 43 views

 i have been trying and trying to get noticed and to get my voice heard about anti bullying, talking to school boards, having my ideas just taken away and my plea for help ignored, even though i had life coaches and anti bullying companies telling me that i have what it takes to become someone ... and yet i can't even get " my foot in the door ", i w...

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Good / Bad - Who Knows?

Posted by teasips in Teasips Blog, 18 May 2013 - - - - - - · 60 views

How secretive should I be about my illness?  
I think I'm becoming more and more careless in retaining my privacy.  
I trust too easily.  
   
I had carelessly posted this   
   
"  I'm sorry that I didn't react well when you complimented me on my weight loss.  
It's really 100% my fault.   
Please read my explanation.  
Not...

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Under My Wings, I Will Protect You, Warrior.

Posted by Fighting 4 Survival in Fighting 4 Survival ~ Piece Collection, 18 May 2013 - - - - - - · 39 views

Avenged Sevenfold - So Far Away
 
Kneeling with a gaze to the sights of the sky, it's layden arms weep with the tears of bereavement entrenching the very cracks between the exposed earthly hollows, softening the harsh wiles of this land, layed barren by the travelers of the past.
 
Now only memorys are conceal within the earths secret life, live...

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Getting Worse

Posted by canadiankelly in canadiankelly's Blog, 17 May 2013 - - - - - - · 63 views

Omg I cannot stop crying.
I have never felt so alone in my 41 years. My relationship is over. My 16 yr old son hates me.
I think I need some time to myself to get through this withdrawal.
I am really not a bad person but no one wants me around. I don't mean to be sad. I feel like a square peg trying to fit into a round hole. I wish I could find the one...

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Rrrraaaaaaawwwwwwrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!

Posted by Ravenna in Ravenna's Blog, 17 May 2013 - - - - - - · 101 views

       I love my mom, but she drives me crazy. While I understand how hard dealing with depression is, I wish she wouldn't bring her depression into my wedding. She keeps going back and forth whether she is even going to come. I know it is hard for her to see my dad, but they split up almost 10 years ago. I wish she could jus...

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Feeling Okay

Posted by jojin in jojin's Blog, 17 May 2013 - - - - - - · 91 views

I've been feeling okay for the past few days.
 
Another up and down with depression, so it's resided for now. I wasn't so anxious at work, but I still have the negative thoughts at the back of my mind. I've been in a bad habit of calling myself "stupid." I immediately correct myself after with a quick "no" and then it's gone. I guess I still feel som...

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Regret

Posted by irah007 in ira's Blog, 17 May 2013 - - - - - - · 52 views

So much regret it hurts. Literally. I wish I hadn't done it, but I had and now I'm facing the consequences. And I don't dare to tell anyone, not even my other half. How would he look at me?? I hate myself. Please make the pain go away. God, please help me to always remember you, please don't let me repeat the same mistake again.

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Another Night When I Can't Shut Off My Head...

Posted by anglcsprt in Angel's Blog, 16 May 2013 - - - - - - · 160 views

I have been going over and over what I need to do.  I can manage to do job searches and find jobs I used to be able to do and at the time of the searches, I feel confident that I can do it again.  Then comes time to get the resume ready so that I can apply for the job, and my head fills with thoughts of the limitations I have been experiencing a...

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Thursday (Yesterday For Me)

Posted by Nataya in Nataya's Blog, 16 May 2013 - - - - - - · 94 views

So i went to see my normal therapist on Thursday.
 
She seemed very disappointed with the lady and joondalup mental health because the way she dealt with me
especially just telling me i have a personality disorder and nothing more.
 
She tried to explain it in a way that i could understand but it still didn't make sense...

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Good News!!

Posted by yesican in yesican's Blog, 16 May 2013 - - - - - - · 122 views

Started out the day feeling really tired and blah...still dealing with the pms and didn't sleep well. Had an appointment with my family doctor this morning to check in and to get my b12 injection..she is such a sweetheart and so supportive.
Got home and felt like having a cry..so I did- no real reason! just the lovely hormonal craziness going on.
Lied dow...

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Thursday

Posted by Shmooey in Shmooey's Fort, 16 May 2013 - - - - - - · 36 views

i think I have forgotten how to hope

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Headache.

Posted by Fate Blackwell in Fate's Fate, 14 May 2013 - - - - - - · 100 views

Well, I've got a few details to work with so far on where I'm going.  It's a standard dormitory-type place.  Four to a bedroom, two bunk beds in each room.  But with mandatory "for your own good" activities each day like exercise, crafts, therapy, and other "keeping you off your ass" type fun.  I can do this.  I've handled the who...

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Feeling Better

Posted by Summer896 in Summer896's Blog, 14 May 2013 - - - - - - · 148 views

I went back to my "not thrilled, but not depressed" fall-back position a couple of days after I last posted, so I don't want anybody to think the severe depression has lasted all this time.
 
Last night I got seriously pizzed off. I am SO TIRED of feeling this sad/blah. I am determined not to feel that way any more. The medication can only do so much...

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Feeling Miserable On Emsam

Posted by Kls2303 in Kls2303's blog, 14 May 2013 - - - - - - · 166 views

Put the patch on around 10 this morning again. I told myself I would not take it off today no matter how bad I felt, so it is almost 1 now, but I want to take it off so badly. My heart is beating very quickly and I am very anxious. The phone just rang and I practically jumped out of my skin. I want to not be depressed so badly...It really hurts to think t...

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Short Vacation

Posted by duck in duck's Blog, 14 May 2013 - - - - - - · 49 views

I took a few days off and went on a trip to a neighbouring city, Calgary.  I took my dad with me who is wheelchair bound. We had a good time and I felt really great.  When I returned to work it was tough. My supervisor added more work to my shift. He broke his promise he made two months ago. That got me down and I am trying to recover from it. F...

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Just Some Thoughts I Want To Write Out

Posted by galacticrabbit in galacticrabbit's Blog, 14 May 2013 - - - - - - · 54 views

Trigger warning I talk about self harm, nothing specific or detailed, mostly about scars
 
Today in anatomy class we went over scars and wounds and how tissue heals and I....was actually triggered by it. My professor just kept saying things like "We all have a scar, or more, it just means we have an exciting life," and all I could think about was how...

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A Little Sunshine In My Life

Posted by Olister in life, 13 May 2013 - - - - - - · 192 views

it's been a very long time since i've checked in.  and i decided to just sign on and write and update.
 
i guess one could say i am doing well.  i certainly would say i am not currently depressed.  i have been off meds at least 1 - 1.5 years now.  wow.  imagine that???  after everything. 
 
what can i say?...

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Mothers Day

Posted by allalone6 in allalone6's Blog, 13 May 2013 - - - - - - · 85 views

 yesterday was a heartbreaking day. Facebook was pure torture. My news feed was filled with well wishes for mothers day and pictures of kids. Being a mother is all i want in life. when I was younger and going thru a rough time, i would tell myself on those suicidal nights to hang in there, that life will get better and that "this" will pass and hold...



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