i am 30 now and i spend a lot of time remembering my early 20s when i was in hospital. i remember how bad it was and it was the worst time of my life. i remember how sick i was and how desperate. being taken to hospital was the worst nightmare and an indignity that most people will never know how intolerable it is to go through that. for some reason i fee...
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Had To Take An Extra Anxiety Pill Just Now
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Well, things have not been going very well for me lately. I'm not totally sure why, either. I had to take an extra anxiety pill just now. I'm feeling very antsy and nervous and anxious.
I did finally get an appointment with someone in the Psych clinic I wanted to get into. It's for August 5th. I'm very happy about this. So why am I so anxious...
I did finally get an appointment with someone in the Psych clinic I wanted to get into. It's for August 5th. I'm very happy about this. So why am I so anxious...
Fighting Hard To Not Stop Fighting...
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I swear this move to "something better" is going to do me in. I have to accept that things are the way they are meant to be, that I'm right where I'm supposed to be in life, and that all things will work out, even if it isn't as I had hoped or planned. I am trying so hard to do all that I can do to keep it together, get done what I need t...
I am so lost............
I don't know who i am or what i am anymore =(
I don't feel human like everyone else, but i look the same
I feel i have my own world that's calling me to join.......
when will i feel like i m not always on edge.......
i really though it was getting a bit better.......
i was pulled in...
I don't know who i am or what i am anymore =(
I don't feel human like everyone else, but i look the same
I feel i have my own world that's calling me to join.......
when will i feel like i m not always on edge.......
i really though it was getting a bit better.......
i was pulled in...
So I'm reading up on this Viibryd stuff and it seems like it can give people anything from headaches to hallucinations.
Well I'm on the lowest dose and I've been teetering on the edge of a headache for the past two days.
Is it bad that I'm actually kind of looking forward to seeing if I get hallucinations? I've never had one before....
Well I'm on the lowest dose and I've been teetering on the edge of a headache for the past two days.
Is it bad that I'm actually kind of looking forward to seeing if I get hallucinations? I've never had one before....
I just I can't do this anymore. I'm so depressed its like I'm just in this dark place all the time. My father hates me he even said that and said I'm a lost cause...he's right I am a lost cause. He'll why am I still alive even. Oh yeah that's right cause god ******* hate me. I hate that I have to wait one more week to see my boyfriend and have him take me...
After drinking til midnight I woke up this morning at 4am and couldn't go back to sleep. All I could think about was where my ex was, what she was doing, who with, was she happy was he better than me in every way. Since I had to work at 7 the only thing I could think of to do was work out. Which for 3 hours straight was probably a bad idea, but I actually...
so today i am conducting job interviews all day to try and hire four jobs,all entry level, man where do these people come from, all morning so far and i have yet to interview one person id even think about hiring. don't they read the descriptions of the job before they apply, let alone making their aplication and resume sound good only to find out in the...
Testing, Testing, 1-2-3
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I cannot even begin to tell you how much I miss getting to say "Check-check." This title reminded me of that. And hey! Now I'm super down and that's not even what I was going to write about, so here's the real blog.What do you do with things that are important to you, that you wish were not important to you? That you desperately want to not...
My days have been better, though my problems are the same.
I was nearly moved to tears in church yesterday. The preacher gave a sermon on fathers and I could only think of how badly I want my own father to change. At the alter, I just prayed for God to change his heart.
It's my sister's birthday today. She's 27. We didn't have a big party or...
I was nearly moved to tears in church yesterday. The preacher gave a sermon on fathers and I could only think of how badly I want my own father to change. At the alter, I just prayed for God to change his heart.
It's my sister's birthday today. She's 27. We didn't have a big party or...
I woke up today, feeling good. Feeling good about getting better, actually wanting to get better.
First I'll be going to my doctor and then therapy in a few days, ive also decided that getting healthy is what I need to do. Since I have a lot of self image and weight issues, I'll be starting to eat clean and keep up regular exercise to burn off this weig...
First I'll be going to my doctor and then therapy in a few days, ive also decided that getting healthy is what I need to do. Since I have a lot of self image and weight issues, I'll be starting to eat clean and keep up regular exercise to burn off this weig...
But I don't like waking up. My goals in life are earn enough income to just cover my bills and spend the rest of my life sleeping. If I won a large amount of money I would buy a small house in a rural area so I could just cook, grow vegetable plants/fruit trees and sleep. I'll be asleep in about an hour yay
I'm wondering if anyone has ideas as to how to ground myself when I start dissociating and losing my grip that it's actually today and not 20 or 30 years ago. I have been repeating "it's June of 2013" like a mantra some days when I'm really overwhelmed, but I would like some other suggestions.
I wear a silver cross that I try to use as a remi...
I wear a silver cross that I try to use as a remi...
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i feel like a wingless bird
too afraid to sing.
or have i lost my voice?
it's impossible to know.
and do i have the choice
to sing a mournful song,
or is it too dangerous
to sing it?
i feel like a falling star
who crashes toward the earth,
moving far too fast,
and losing all control.
and i don't have the stregnth
to keep myself afloat;
will i crash...
too afraid to sing.
or have i lost my voice?
it's impossible to know.
and do i have the choice
to sing a mournful song,
or is it too dangerous
to sing it?
i feel like a falling star
who crashes toward the earth,
moving far too fast,
and losing all control.
and i don't have the stregnth
to keep myself afloat;
will i crash...
I'm going to a free tango lesson a friend invited me to tonight. It's the first time. All day, just thinking about it, I was disgusted about it. It was like a huge black spot on my horizon. To me it's the same feeling as the day before an exam, where you know there is no way you can avoid it, and you just want it to be over with as soon as possible.
I kno...
I kno...
What's Keeping Me From Walking Out The Door?
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14 June 2013 -
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I do this every day,
I wake up, take a shower, get dressed.
I have a ton of plans about how I can do the most with the day.
Then I get scared. Like a feeling of failure.
I sit down and think that I cannot leave.
I tell myself I have to do things in the house, and that I don't have time to do these things outside.
I'm doing this exact same thi...
I wake up, take a shower, get dressed.
I have a ton of plans about how I can do the most with the day.
Then I get scared. Like a feeling of failure.
I sit down and think that I cannot leave.
I tell myself I have to do things in the house, and that I don't have time to do these things outside.
I'm doing this exact same thi...
So yea we get better, but we get bumps too, sometimes when you least expect it. This time it was at my sons kindergarten graduation! Of all places I am sitting there hot and having a panic attack. This was a bridging ceremony where the kid walks from one side of the bridge from the teacher and crosses the bridge to their parent. His daddy did it, I wanted...
My birthday came and went. All I wanted was a night out with drinks and conversation but being the loser I am with no friends, I instead went food shopping. I hate birthdays. My bosses 8 yr old asked me today if I had a bday party and I explained im too old for that and then she asked if i had a bday dinner, and I said no I didnt, and she looked at me an...
the past few days have just been pure hell, i havent had a day off since last tuesday, and its been really really busy, and its just been grinding down on my nerves, ive had 1 emotional breakdown, and a few mini spazzes.
i just cant deal with it, the rude customers, my life being pure chaos right now, my apartment search turning up nothing yet that i can...
i just cant deal with it, the rude customers, my life being pure chaos right now, my apartment search turning up nothing yet that i can...
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