My Life Changes Forever... In A Few Hours :(

It is 8:06 pm and i am sitting here about ready to jump through my skin ... tomorrow morning my friend arrives. My life is going to change forever and today i made some very very big steps towards freedom. I have an appt on thursday with my brother to get my husband cut off my welfare. I have already had the account changed from his account to my account in which the money gets deposited into (even though he screwed me for money again this month as he is not providing neccessary documents to the government and getting extra money he is not claiming from his mother - this bugs me i am such an honest person :( ) I also had my doctor write up documents in regards to our upcoming divorce and that HE will not be in any way shape or form in charge of my mental health but my parents will be in case of something happening. I have made all the preperations to meet my friend tomorrow morning at the bus terminal when he arrives from the USA :) I am so nervous but excited and soooo anxious. OMG i am doing this. By friday of this week i will have my brother, puppy and I out of here and an amazing person whom i think i love very much will be here by my side for some support. I also called my mom today. THIS was HUGE as i have not talked to her in over a month and i had a lot to come clean about. I told her everything i have done - i have a hotel for my friend to stay while i get the guts to tell my husband and get my things and such .. he should know this is coming. but he is clueless and i hate that. he thinks he has me forever :( No way, he wont win this time. I told my mom A LOT. About my upcoming pdoc appt and mental state. She is worried... she wants me out of this mess.. I want my family bacK so bad :( I cant even think straight ... i hope this blog makes sence - i am shaking so bad its hard to type. So ya tomorrow morning i will go get him and take him to the hotel - it is even pet friendly so i can take my ddog there if i have to :) I will come back here and we will have a talk that will lead to a fight that will i am sure lead to the cops here at the house :( I am so scared. I have to do this though i need to take the risk. it cant get any worse then this i know that it can only get better .... I am hoping my parents will be able to lend me some money to get an appt and my bro will get a job and move on with life , and i can focus on me for the first time in a decade... a whole decade wow and i am only 28. I cant stand life slipping me by anymore... in a few hours i am changing it all ;)