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Fog

Posted by T on C , in side effects, voices in the head, Meds, Flashbacks, PTSD, Zyprexa, Zoloft 29 September 2012 - - - - - - · 96 views

Sitting here watching the fog roll in-it's eerie how it seems to cover everything in its mist. At times the sun peeps through, but that only lasts a minute or so and back to grey.
Sort of like my moods...at times I'm on top of the world, then go into a brain fog which darkens my outlook, life and everything around me.

I had many flashback...



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Being Kind To Myself

Posted by T on C , in voices in the head, New start 28 September 2012 - - - - - - · 138 views

Back from therapy, I've been having dissociation all day so it was pretty difficult to keep our conversation on track. One thing she told me was that I needed to be kind to myself. Easier said than done...I'm still beating up my brain for becoming a mess this past year. Sure, I trudge on, but at times it seems that I'm just running around in...



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Back To The Er

Posted by T on C , in Panic attack, Olanzapine, PTSD, voices in the head 26 September 2012 - - - - - - · 157 views

I'm back from the ER. Been a long day, that's for sure. It all started this morning when I started having full blown audible voices telling me to do bad things to myself, a bit like what happened about a year ago when this whole mess started. So I headed into the ER, called the MHP and we talked for a while trying to sort it all out, and figure what...



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Finally Some Good News!

Posted by T on C , in New start, thankful, voices in the head, Zoloft, Zyprexa 07 September 2012 - - - - - - · 169 views

Bring on October. I move into the Victorian on the 1st, yeah! No more shelter or worrying about who's sleeping next to me-I'll be all by myself, safe and out of the elements in my own 1 br apartment. Nice place, went to see it yesterday and picked out the room. Large as well, around 750 sq feet-although I don't have any furniture...



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Fanapt Poop Out

Posted by T on C , in Fanapt, Bipolar 1, voices in the head, Zoloft 23 August 2012 - - - - - - · 106 views

Yep, another Antipsychotic has gone belly up, this time I was on Fanapt which did nothing but make me sick and dizzy, no matter what dosage and time I took it. At least the Zoloft bump up to 100mg was pretty painless these past few weeks. I just have to find something out there to quiet the crowd noise...it comes and goes and when I spin down then the loud...



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Onto Latuda

Posted by T on C , in Latuda, Bipolar 1, voices in the head, Zoloft 27 July 2012 - - - - - - · 210 views

Along with the Zoloft I'm now on Latuda due to the Zyprexa weight gain (20 pounds in a month). So far so good, no side effects at all, it's like I just jumped the hoop flawlessly from one to another. Voices? Yes, but they're a bit more muted than earlier. One downer is I've been in a bad mood for the last few days due to trouble with friends...



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Zoloft Upcoming

Posted by T on C , in Bipolar 1, Celexa, Flashbacks, Meds, voices in the head, Zyprexa 06 July 2012 - - - - - - · 159 views

After the Abilify gave me major insomnia, I'm back on Zypreza for the audible hallucaiations and going to tier off of Celexa and go on Zoloft. Starting to wonder how many meds I'm going to try before I find the magic pill?
Also have been taking Ambien for the insomnia. Works well with no hangover effect like the other sleep meds I've tried and...



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I Hear 'em, Again...

Posted by T on C , in voices in the head, Flashbacks, Zyprexa 17 April 2012 - - - - - - · 227 views

It was quiet, and now the TV is blaring, I guess I'm just a peace and quiet kind of guy, or maybe the mood is leaning towards that direction. The housemates son has his GF in tow and when she speaks it's at airport decibels. I don't want to go back in my room, already did a walk and wanted to jot in the blog for a bit. Ugh, this blows...I do...



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Voices, Again...please Go Away

Posted by T on C , in Olanzapine, voices in the head 26 March 2012 - - - - - - · 244 views

Yarf...they're baaaaaack again. Deep tone dude and my mom this time arguing about who is crazier-me or them. I can hear them clear as day outside of my head so this is no internal noise like I've expeirenced before. Full blown auditory psychosis. I'm trying to concentrate on the noise around where I'm typing to drown them out, and just took...



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Cutting The Ties

Posted by T on C , in Relationship, Homeless, voices in the head 06 March 2012 - - - - - - · 84 views

I hated to do it, but Lib's become a total blow off. Sent her a mail reply stating as such with have a nice life kind of ending. Sometimes we grow apart. I'd say this one is like the space between the Grand Canyon. She used me for years, it's only been since I've become homeless that I've finally seen the light. If I had money and a...



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Seagulls

Posted by T on C , in Zyprexa, PTSD, Flashbacks, voices in the head, thankful 04 March 2012 - - - - - - · 218 views

The rats with wings are circling something a guy tossed out of his car here at McDonalds. I'm parked, drinking a cup of coffee, laughing at their antics and trying to ignore the voices as they're back for some dumb reason. Not one prominent one but the same three who pop in from time to time just to remind me that I'm still a bit toasty...



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Money Flies

Posted by T on C , in side effects, thankful, voices in the head, New start, Homeless 17 February 2012 - * * * * * · 243 views

Man, I have some of the worst luck in the world. If anyone's boating in the Straits of Juan de Fuca, or even Puget Sound finds five $20's floating please let me know. I took off my jacket at the pier today,...



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Zyprexa, Oh Yeah

Posted by T on C , in Olanzapine, thankful, voices in the head, Seroquel XR, Homeless 02 February 2012 - - - - - - · 197 views

I was approved for a script of Zyprexa since the Seroquel pooped out...now I'm looking at the label and it's a plain white bottle-Olanzapine-30 each 5mg tabs cost over $400-maybe Olanzapine has no generic? Is this bottle maybe made of diamond dust? Are the pills gold embossed? I'm counting the lucky stars since I qualified for medicaid, no...



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Sunglasses

Posted by T on C , in thankful, voices in the head, New start 01 February 2012 - - - - - - · 208 views

Mmm, the sun is coming out after raining all night. The Safeway parking lot is glassy looking, air is fresh with a shot of salty smell coming in from the bay. People are shopping, keeping Starbucks stock strong and there's a super cute girl walking past me...she smiled as she passed, and then looked back to see if I was watching her, then smiled...



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Day Of The Dinosaur

Posted by T on C , in voices in the head, Insane 31 January 2012 - - - - - - · 168 views

Chris found a dinosaur tooth. He's hyped that the Smithsonian is going to pay him big money. We all smile and shake out heads in agreement...in reality it's just a piece of concrete with a few rocks protruding out in the form of a jaw. But no one's going to spoil his day. Usually he's quiet, but now he's happy. People who don't know...



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Ear Plugs

Posted by T on C , in Homeless, New start, Seroquel XR, voices in the head 29 January 2012 - - - - - - · 192 views

There's a beer festival going on in town, and ground zero is right above the shelter...the music and sounds of people dancing made for some interesting attempts at sleep even with ear plugs in. Headed out to the car this AM for some peace and quiet, watched the noisy gulls and ravens battle it out for a scrap of food. Happy the cat was in a trance,...



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Happy The Cat

Posted by T on C , in voices in the head, Homeless 26 January 2012 - - - - - - · 124 views

He looks at me, waiting on a hand movement so he can come to the window and rub against it. Gives a quick meow, runs around the van like it''s a race track and begins to stare at the seagulls, batting at the window, probably wishing he could capture one.
He's my company when I'm sleeping in my car, even though he's in the van next door...



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Protection For The Mind

Posted by T on C , in Prazolin, Homeless, Seroquel XR, PTSD, voices in the head 24 January 2012 - - - - - - · 150 views

I remember a piece of advice I got from my therapist a while back-make a bubble around yourself for protection. Tried it these past few days when stuff got weird and it seems to work a bit to relieve the blues. Of course it's just a mind trick but fun to do-when the crackheads come around asking for money I can blow them off with a smile instead of...



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Shellter Blues

Posted by T on C , in PTSD, Flashbacks, Bad Karma, voices in the head, Homeless 22 January 2012 - - - - - - · 164 views

Another night of flashbacks and nightmares, I'm still wondering if it's the atmosphere I'm currently living in stressing me out or perhaps the Prazosin is not doing the magic. My pdoc said it was a 50/50 chance of it working for nightmares, sometimes it works, oftentimes not. I woke up around 5 times last night to either the parents suicide...



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Layers

Posted by T on C , in voices in the head, Homeless 15 January 2012 - - - - - - · 181 views

Nice...I picked a good time to live the vagabond life-it's frozen out, black ice and now snow is falling. Many layers of clothing on-union suit, 2 shirts, a wool sweater and polar fleece for the outermost coat. People are filing in and out of the boiler room, and the free coffee tab has been 86'd by management...good thing for a few quarters in the...



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