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September 26Th, 2012

Posted by addict1968 , 26 September 2012 -

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Haven't written since the last week of June as it has been an unending downward spiral and I just haven't felt like doing anything. I am in dumps all over again since July and experiencing the darkest of darks now. I am getting so tempted to get back to drinking again and drown myself intoxicated every night - but am fighting it so hard - will be so...

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June 21, 2012

Posted by addict1968 , 21 June 2012 -

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Its been difficult days lately - having to deal with nightmares and the depression and just feel so tired. Last night self harmed myself out of sheer desperation to feel something - anything other than depression and the pain really felt good. I just had to do it and it did feel better but I know I have to stop lest it turns into an addiction. I just wish I...

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June 12, 2012

Posted by addict1968 , 12 June 2012 -

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It was my b'day yesterday and was kinda hustled having to reply to all the entries on facebook and not to mention texts on the cell - but it felt good too. All this time I was pushing everyone away from me - just wanting to be alone - hurting people who cared .... well you guys know how it is when we want to be just left to ourselves. Receiving so many...

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Demons Of My Past ....

Posted by addict1968 , 08 June 2012 -

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How do I face the horrors and demons of my past? I know I will have to some day if I have to really get better ......

All these years (30+) had alcohol to drown in and seek oblivion - been 6 weeks today am off of alcohol and all the past demons are coming back as the worst nightmares of my life - all that abuse ..... hurts to even go down that road - have...

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June 7, 2012

Posted by addict1968 , 07 June 2012 -

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This will be my first attempt at a blog entry!!

This has been one journey so far ..... went into severe depression around Jan 2011 and hit rockbottom sometime Feb 2012 - found DF then - was searching desperately for a place where people would understand me and I could also relate and feel comfortable with. I have been fortunate in that DF was...

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