17 September 2011 -
So people will tell me I look nice.
So people can't use my size as a joke.
So people can't treat me like I'm inferior.
So my parents won't remind me I'm gross.
So my sister can't derail an argument with, "At least I'm not fat and ugly."
So my partner will find me attractive and will love me.
So I'll finally look in...
My girlfriend told me it's okay to tell her when I feel bad enough to be suicidal. Should I tell her about how I feel today? She's had a rough day and I don't want to make it worse, but she said I can trust her. I don't want to hurt her.
Today I wondered if anyone would miss me. I know people would but I feel so insignificant.
I'm tired of whining and complaining so I won't be updating this anymore. I used this to get out my negative feelings, but all my feelings are silly and insignificant, so I shouldn't talk about them. Thank you for reading so far, any of you who bothered with me. This is my last blog post here.