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Don't Mess With Marylin Manson

Posted by Hertz , in Dreams 22 May 2013 -

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The dream began with a hockey match. One of the goalies was a very young man. His mother had told him what equipment to use. The opposite team had Marylin Manson as one its players. The young goal keeper mysteriously died right after the match, and it seemed the cause might have been linked to Manson. It readily appeared in the dream that Manson killed pe...

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Doubt Instinct

Posted by Hertz , 12 March 2013 -

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I'm in one those strange moods when I think life is absurd. I'm not sure what to do.

The other day I was watching a tv show about some guy somewhere in eastern Europe who was raising and keeping a pack of wolves, and training them to appear in Hollywood movies. One of the wolves was the alpha male. Sometimes the wolves would fight to challenge the...

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Thoughtful King

Posted by Hertz , in Dreams 24 February 2013 -

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The dream was taking place in a desert. It evoked antiquity. A king or emperor of that era was speaking and I was listening to him. He recalled an instance where he was playing poker or black jack. In the middle of the game, an old counsel man asked him if they could speak privately and the king accepted. The old man told him that everything ages and even...

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Socializing 2

Posted by Hertz , 24 February 2013 -

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I wish socializing was as enjoyable as drinking a glass of water after hours of thirst. Maybe if I get stranded in a desert island it would give me a new perspective on social interactions. I'd know what I value, because I'd miss it. If I become too isolated too long my mental state deteriorates. I then decide to meet people. Something happens i...

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Date

Posted by Hertz , 22 February 2013 -

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Went to a date today. The girl was pretty but I found myself bored most of the time. We don't have much in common. Plus, she's been living in this country only for the past 5 years, and she is not very fluent in my language. So we have different cultural references and communication is not very fluid. She didn't seem very warm. Things did not click. I don...

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The Trip That Should Not Have Been

Posted by Hertz , 07 February 2013 -

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Stranded in Brazil. I accepted an invitation for which I had no enthusiasm whatsoever. I figured once here I wouldn't want to go back, a bit like kids who go to camp for the summer. Nope. It's really awkward because my host saw through me pretty quickly and now knows I don't want to be here. My plane home leaves only on the 15th. I could ch...

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Recurring Nightmare Takes New Direction

Posted by Hertz , in Dreams 14 January 2013 -

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For the past 13 years I've been having an awful recurring dream. I have it once or twice a year. In real life, at the end of high school, I had to go through a series of exams, one for each subject, e.g. maths, history, biology etc. It lasted 6 days, with one four-hour exam each day. If I didn't pass it obviously I couldn't go to university and so o...

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Travel, Anger, Socks

Posted by Hertz , in Dreams 24 December 2012 -

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I dream I am travelling by foot in a foreign country. Some guy stops me and threatens me in order to steal my stuff. He is very large, obese, and he has a smaller, weaker accomplice. I suddenly have a gun in my hand and shoot them both to death.

I continue walking this foreign land. It is late in the day, it is dark. I arrive at a beach. I see some people...

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Learning & Rest

Posted by Hertz , 21 December 2012 -

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Sometimes when I learn something new it echoes through time. For example, I listened to a guy giving advice on socializing. He was giving tips about what to do when you enter a group setting in a class or professional retreat environment for the first time. He says it's important to wait a little bit until there's already a bunch of people there,...

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Simulacrum

Posted by Hertz , 23 November 2012 -

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Listening to the Unsolved Mysteries theme in loop. Reading about ghost stories, each draped in tragedy.

I'm not sure why, but I feel a bit better than usual. There's a pressure off my chest. Breathing is easier.

Even if I don't believe in an afterlife, somehow these stories resonate inside me. Right now I feel at home.

I think...

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