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I Think I Need To Get Help

Posted by Gisèle , 18 April 2013 -

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This blog isn't going to be for everybody. Please step around it if you're not well. Seriously. And if this reads like I'm standing outside of myself, that would be because it's exactly how I feel.

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Six hours ago I felt fine. Perhaps even the teensiest bit euphoric. I don't know why but I...

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If I Could Forget What I Ever Wanted...

Posted by Gisèle , 16 April 2013 -

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Dear Santa.

It's way early, I know, but I'm a girl in a hurry. I'm also grimly determined to get what I want.

So, lean in and listen up....

I want amnesia and I want it at the flick of a switch.

You have one, two...eight-and-a-bit months notice. I could make a baby in that time so don't tell me it's hard...

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A Great Friend ....

Posted by Gisèle , 14 April 2013 -

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A great friend will cry with you. Not necessarily because they understand but because they can't help it

A great friend will not accept too much self-deprecation

A great friend can be trusted with the things that hurt the most

A great friend shelters you from fear and doubt and your least rational misgivings

A great friend dare...

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Communion

Posted by Gisèle , 31 March 2013 -

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I really don't understand myself.

A girlfriend who I don't see much of anymore has asked if I would like to go watch Collingwood (Australian Rules football team) play their first game of the year. I jumped at it and am writing this waiting for it to start . Apparently she is dating someone involved with the club so...

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Stuck

Posted by Gisèle , 26 February 2013 -

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Dear all, I have not long read read the first 25 or thirty blogs here and have been moved enough by many of them to want to say something. Except I can't because the words get stuck somewhere between my head and my hands. It's frustrating. I don't ever think I'm going to make a difference to anyone's day but I do wish that if any of you think no...

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Smart Phone Salute

Posted by Gisèle , 18 February 2013 -

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After a miserable few days it was a relief to get out on the weekend. We did a few things but the highlight was taking my daughter to see Black Caviar . Sunline might be the very best horse I have ever seen, Makybe Diva my absolute favourite, but for sheer spectacle I have never seen anything lke it. The amount of children in her thrall...

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Baby Did A Bad, Bad Thing

Posted by Gisèle , 13 February 2013 -

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Thank you, Chris Isaak, for providing the soundtack for this particular blog because baby did indeed do a bad, bad thing. It's worse because I'm feeling guilty AND a little pleased with myself. That's nothing new nor is the inevitably of it all. These emotions will bounce off one another for a while, then I will make the other person in this small saga ou...

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Homesick

Posted by Gisèle , 12 February 2013 -

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I hate being 800 kilometres (thank you Apple Corporation for such ready access to silly trivia) away from my children. Really, 'hate' doesn't do the feeling any justice. I HAAAATE....well, I think that's clear But I love (LUUUUUURV) it when Ruby rings me, on the pretext of not being able to find her pretty pink and white blazer, only to tel...

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Thank God You're Strangers

Posted by Gisèle , 31 January 2013 -

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Last night's entry was typical of so many before it. I got to how I feel, wrote a few vague sentences about it and left it at that. And it was ever thus. I have an admiration for people that can deliberately and methodically and earnestly get to where their blogs need to go. I always feel constricted somehow. And as much as I know confronting these t...

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Day & Midnight

Posted by Gisèle , 30 January 2013 -

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How many times can I say goodbye to myself? My past self, I mean. That I am loved doesn't seem to matter That I try and try hard doesn't seem to matter That I cut my feet walking naked into my worst fears doesn't seem to matter That I love and that I am kind doesn't seem to matter Nothing seems to matter It's ok for a while then the...

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