Bad Dream/noticing My Mood

For almost a week I've notice my mood has been anxious, bored, and fidgety. (thank you to the threads 'How Are You Feeling Today? and 'Your Feelings in Single Words) I don't know why I'm feeling this way other than I'm anxious about classes and have nothing else to do except brood.

Also had a bad dream last night. Not a nightmare, but I dreamt my cousin came out to everyone as a lesbian which gave me the courage to come out to them as a guy. Everyone was reluctant and grudging in acceptance but accept they did. There was no arguing or angry words in the dreams.
I found it really upsetting when I woke up because I know in reality this will never happen. My cousin is very much straight and my entire family is homophobic (to my knowledge).
I'm disgusted with my body. One minute I think I look as good as I can at the moment the other I feel ugly and fat. I'm frustrated that my chest has to be too big to hide (thank you genes!) frustrated that I seem to be going nowhere. There's a group for t-guys in the next city but I have no way of getting there. There's nothing in my area that I can get to (that I know of). That's what happens when you live next to the backwoods I guess.