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I Just Don't Get It.....

Posted by DeeBear , 18 April 2013 -

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It hits you where you live. When I think about it, that's kind of a strange phrase, but on the other hand, it makes perfect sense. It reminds me of a line from Queen's "Hammer to Fall":

"Lock your door but rain is pouring
Through your windowpane"

Everything is so "In your face" nowadays that it seems like we're all just bouncing off of one another, ge...

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Hey God, Got A Sec?

Posted by DeeBear , 19 March 2013 -

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Hey God,

Got a sec? Just want a quick word. I'd introduce myself, but you know, well, you're God and all so you know who I am. Matter of fact, you know what I'm going to say already, so I guess I should ask beforehand that you don't strike me down or smite me or anything.

I'm just wondering, could you lay off for a little w...

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Just Can't Let Go

Posted by DeeBear , 20 February 2013 -

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I'm at that point in the winter that I keep looking at the calendar, wondering how much longer the cold weather will keep me indoors. Christmas used to be the worst time of the year for me, but this year, waiting for Spring has gotten me down worse than the holidays. I told my doctor the other day that I thought bears had the right idea - slee...

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Dreaming Again

Posted by DeeBear , 16 February 2013 -

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I've been having a lot of insomnia lately. I went for a while without sleeping, then slept all day and through the night, back to insomnia, and now I'm back to sleeping all the time. It's maddening. Once I began sleeping again, I started having dreams again. In one, I was surrounded by people I knew, but it was hazy, and I couldn't...

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What Is And What Should Never Be

Posted by DeeBear , 10 February 2013 -

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Once again, it's been a while since my last confession. I often think of things to write about, but just don't make it to the computer. I've always been introspective, but it seems that I'm always contemplating the big picture, while stumbling through everyday life. Lately, though, the weather has been miserable, and I've turned more to t...

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Slightly Out Of Phase With Reality

Posted by DeeBear , 05 January 2013 -

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Once again, I come back here to talk about my regrets. And once again, it is the result of a dream. Just to get where I'm at down, I had some anxiety before Christmas, and by the time it was here I was too tired to get any worse. That's the good thing about fatigue, sometimes it keeps me from becoming anxious or having anxiety attacks....

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What Might Have Been

Posted by DeeBear , 15 December 2012 -

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I'm trying to get back in the habit of writing more in my blog. I used to write every day, no matter what, but things change. I think it was good for me to do that, that it helped me deal with day-to-day stress, but with the changes in my health and my disability, maybe I just didn't feel I needed to blow off as much steam. Everything changed...

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I Came, I Saw, I Worried

Posted by DeeBear , 08 December 2012 -

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Of all the things I've dealt with, the anxiety is the worst. I've said it before, and I still believe it to be true.

Sure, the fibro hurts every day - to the point that the doctor suggested that the pain was causing my blood sugar to go high - but when the anxiety comes, it's devastating. BTW, I've learned that if I check my blood sugar...

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Regrets About Regrets

Posted by DeeBear , 04 December 2012 -

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I've still been doing a lot of thinking. And dreaming.

Of course, I dread the holidays, as I do every year. I've got some of my shopping done, but I need to order a few things - soon - to make sure they get here on time. And I need to get out and do some shopping, but I hate it. I often will only go to Wal-Mart late at night this time of year...

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Meaning Of Life Crap

Posted by DeeBear , 29 November 2012 -

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I've had a lot on my mind lately. Meaning of life crap. The stuff that nobody ever really understands, so I don't know why I bother.

I've been struggling for some time about what to do with my life, and having to start over again for quite some time. I had a dream recently, though, that seemed to settle my mind on that score. I read...

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