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The Rain Has Brought Peace.

Posted by Tymothi , 17 June 2012 -

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It's cute. There are birds singing outside, and the Goddess is repeating their song. She whistles to them through the open windows while she floats around the room, her challenged but in some ways flawless duckling trailing her every step of the way. It is a rare morning, and I am a very lucky man.

Last night, we watched as the blackness rolled in....

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(A Writing Project From The Old Days....)

Posted by Tymothi , 15 June 2012 -

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Heidegger’s Best Nightmare

Once upon a time,

The being of the be-ing of the be ing with the bee’ng, and the being of the be and the bee and the inging of the ing and the be and the ing-be, and then the be and the bee, with the bee and the B, had no choice but to be in Be and ing in Ing, and then it was the be, then the being, then the...

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Horror Vacui.

Posted by Tymothi , 20 May 2012 -

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As it relates to depression. Possible triggers to follow, so don't read this. Stay away!

It was this morning that I realized something. Our depression is often supported by choices we make. Now, I've made some ugly choices in my life. A lot of choices made didn't feel like choices at the time - but they were. All of...

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I Like Reading Books.

Posted by Tymothi , 14 May 2012 -

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And the sad thing is, I've always been a painfully slow reader. I retain more than most, but take ten times longer to get through something. It's unfortunate. Once, I took a speed reading class, and the guy was unable to help me. It was just sad. I think it's OCD-related sometimes. I have to re-read pages out of sheer compulsion. Pitiful.

So...

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Okay, So I'm No Sound Engineer But...

Posted by Tymothi , 07 May 2012 -

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the wedding was actually almost enjoyable. For various reasons, some of which aren't the kind of thing to be printed here, but others of which are actually quite interesting.

I had a role. The role was to control the sound board and cue each of the musical pieces to play at specific times during the ceremony, from a prerecorded CD. Simple enough,...

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It's Hardly Believable

Posted by Tymothi , 03 May 2012 -

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that the weather could make such a difference. Today, May 3, is the first day THIS YEAR that has felt "normal" to me. Maybe my upbringing did more damage than good, where that's concerned. Maybe I'm just photosynthetic. Either way, the rise in temperatures have me able to be outdoors during the day, the number one depression-killer when...

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A Funny Thing Happened On The Way To The Forum... I Mean The X-Ray Lab In The Basement Of The Local Community Health Clinic....

Posted by Tymothi , 10 April 2012 -

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So I went to see the doc today to have him look at my hand, which may be broken (or worse), and while I was sitting in the waiting room, this old lady comes in and drops down in a seat ahead of me and instantly begins talking to the younger lady beside her. "This one day I saw my husband of 54 years asleep on the couch. I went to bring him...

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Grylls Can Dodge A Croc Attack; But What About Depression?

Posted by Tymothi , 22 March 2012 -

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September 25. Daylight.......

Bah. Nerd in me taking over. Sorry bout dat. But he did get me this far, so.... And anyway, there isn't actually any daylight. It's gotten chilly and windy and rainy. The rain I love, but the rest can go back to the arctic where it belongs. Never mind.

Anyway, I managed to get my head above water for a little while. I...

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Jeez, Where's My Happy Entries? What The-?!

Posted by Tymothi , 18 March 2012 -

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I guess. Maybe I don't know. Myabe I'll just start topic-titling every installment "TRIGGERS", just to dodge any posible problems? When I first started doing DF, I got reprimanded repeatedly for saying triggering things in like every post...

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Whoops

Posted by Tymothi , 13 March 2012 -

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It’s been a while. Not to whine or anything, but the embarrassment of neglecting my friends here is something that supplements my currently very intense suicidal impulse. I’m sorry. It’s been a very. Very. Bad winter.

Except for the weather. Third northern...

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Sneaux. Boo! :/

Posted by Tymothi , 12 January 2012 -

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Well, there it is. It's snowing, and plentifully. Enough, one might say, to cover everything, and to keep it covered, encased in ice, until sometime in the spring. Sigh.

The funny thing is, we all knew it was going to happen sooner or later. We'd been given an amazing gift until now; the last two years we were covered in the ice long before now, so...

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Hey! A New Interface For A New Year! Awesome! Happy New Year, Everybody! Now Clean Up This $%#$@ Planet!!

Posted by Tymothi , 02 January 2012 -

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No wonder my blog attempt failed last night. I wrote an extended entry, and then when I went to post it, it went blank and I couldn't do anything. Must have been during the changeover. I'll have to see if this new interface is good or not. So far so good!

It snowed earlier today. I'm surprised that there isn't any accumulation on the...

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What's Up With People Putting Only White Lights On Their Trees These Days?

Posted by Tymothi , 16 December 2011 -

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Sometimes - very rarely - I surprise myself. I was all set to post a whole new entry full of whines and woes, and then I re-read the last entry I made. Sometimes I surprise myself. Huh. I guess that's why I keep this blog after all, isn't it? How am I supposed to put something rancid and raging now, after that? Geez. I mean... Tch. Nice going,...

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December....

Posted by Tymothi , 01 December 2011 -

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An annual tradition, now with new involvement, and new spectators!

Every year on December 1st, I play the album (December) and remember. I remember everything. I've been doing it since I was twelve (that makes it twenty years exactly), starting, I think, with hearing it in the car on the way home from the hospital. My mother was very sick, and it...

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Repairs.

Posted by Tymothi , 12 November 2011 -

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Feeling much improved the last day or two. Whew.

It's like swallowing that nasty medicine you've always hated but that you've always known was good for you. Gyugh.

Well, it was always hanging over my head that I wouldn't be able to have my own life, that I would prefer to have some kind of independence. But, as always, the universe has its...

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Pkkchkkpkkchhhkk!! (The Sound Of Something Crashing)

Posted by Tymothi , 07 November 2011 -

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I saw her and her children to bed. I watched as she snoozed, finally off her feet after a rigorous day at work, mumbling sweet gratitude for the massage I gave her aching back. Then I went across the hall and spread blankets over the boy, tucked his bear in his arm, and switched on his night light. Checked the door, turned everything off, sat down... and...

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Dat Blog Bit....

Posted by Tymothi , 06 November 2011 -

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I'd have a hard time thinking of a time when I was happier in my own element than when I took her to New Orleans for Voodoo Fest and we ran into more members of my family than I'd seen in one place in as long as I can remember (at least two decades). It was an amazing way to show her where I came from, and an amazing experience to share with her....

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Well....

Posted by Tymothi , 04 November 2011 -

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How are you? Good? Surviving? That's nice.

I discovered something recently. As in, like, this morning. Firstly, my one escape is cut off, because between the cat and the cold I can't handle being in the one place where I could otherwise entertain myself. You see, when you can't stop sneezing, it's hard to grip the controller at all. In...

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Love & Demons....

Posted by Tymothi , 25 October 2011 -

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No, I'm not talking about Mickey & Mallory. I don't even like them. And what the %#$@# is up with everyone being obsessed with Robert Downey Jr.? I do not get it. I thought he was a- No, never mind. No celebrities allowed here. Not in my world.

Sigh... Maybe I should write a book. "How to Be Attractive to Anyone", AKA...

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I Don't Need No Doctor. Yeah.

Posted by Tymothi , 23 October 2011 -

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It's an unusually beautiful day today. I'm still a tad panicked about not beig able to find a job, as my funds dwindle and the chances of being homeless grow and grow, the closer I get to the coldest months ofthe year. Heh. Yeah.

But still.... I don't need no doctor.

It's a beautiful day. What good would it do to be panicked about...

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