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Faith
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07 September 2012
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Yes, I know. We're terrible, terrible creatures. Not even sure why we're here to begin with. We have all sorts of excuses. Family problems. Abusive loved ones. Self hatred. Unable to start out in life. The list goes on. The abuse goes on as well, but it doesn't have to. It may not have to, but is there anything that can be done about it?
There is a motivator in life. I am still a depressed individual as I write this, largely due to being trapped by life circumstance. So why do I still get up and fight? How do I still do this? I will be honest: this has taken years of work for me to accomplish and perfect, but it has been well worth it and I am willing to teach how its done.
First of all, other people can help you stop your negative thoughts. I am not going to argue that. But if you want to change what lies in you, what motivates you, then that is solely your responsibility. If you want to rise from the depths of depression, the first step is have faith in yourself. It is from feeling that we first arise out of the depths. This comes in small steps. Place your faith in something that you KNOW you can do. Never focus on the maybes, do not focus on the worst case scenario, for that is only one side to a two-sided coin!
Take for example, doing the laundry. You know how to do it. The problem is that the longer you think about doing the laundry, the more anxious you will become and the bigger the chance that you will do nothing about it. All of this increases exponentially within a matter of seconds. If you wait long enough, those negative thoughts win and nothing is done.
How is this seemingly impassible wall of anxiety and negativity overcome? The answer does not come from the mind! That push of motivation cannot come from the same source that is depressing your life. That doesn't mean there is no way to motivate yourself, because there is. It is a part of ourselves that was never taught in school, never talked about publicly save in strange new age forums, and totally forgotten about in our feelingless depression.
But if you tell your mind, consciously, in this moment, tell your mind to suddenly focus on your abdomen, something happens. You will feel something. That something is the key out. You have to let your self feel it, let it spread throughout your body and soak in its warmth. This is something that negative mind has never told you about. Because remember, the negative mind is working against you, so you must work around it to defeat and transform it to your liking.
This is the very essence of your being. Completely blocked out by a depressed mind, its absence makes zombies of us all. Some people call it your spirit, your soul or perhaps your essence. You can call it whatever you want. But upon feeling this, we suddenly realize that there is something more to the human body than what we can see in the mirror, or what our mind tells us. The mind never told us this. Why? What is it hiding? Why doesn't it want us to know this? Because this is a threat to the depressed mind's very existence. Remember, in order to defeat depression, we must work around the depressed mind first. This is entirely possible.
And this is where faith comes in. There is something down there, in the abdomen up to the center of the chest. A warmth, a spark, something. We might not be able to logically figure it out, but this doesn't matter. The warmth that it gives is so inviting compared to that cold emptiness of depression that we do not want to feel it go out again. Do not lose that connection to your center of being.This is a part of who you are. Do not let depression or anything else take that away from you. You are in total control over this aspect of yourself, and it is only you that decides to keep it.
We now begin to realize that there is more to our lives than what our minds tell us. This feeling is illogical, but only to the mind. To the rest of the body, we have a sense as to what this could be. Call it intuition if you like. But upon realizing that there is more to our body than your depressed mind lead us to believe, we suddenly have a way out of the hole.
This feeling has a knack for silencing all those negative thoughts that a depressed mind regularly produces. Notice how when you focus on this feeling, that your depressed thoughts are kept in the background. They may still be there, but they are far quieter than they used to be. Suddenly, we see life in a different light. Our eyes focus upon the things in front of us. We notice the filing cabinets, the bookshelves, the windows, the curtains, the clothes on the floor. Wait! Clothes! The laundry!
And you would expect that depression to tell you otherwise here, and indeed the cringing of the stomach has already begun. Has it? That feeling that we have just discovered now surrounds the stomach, and envelopes the rest of your chest. The stomach may clench out of auto response, but those thoughts do not come as before. They are broken. But that's not important. What is important is always focusing upon that feeling in your gut, upwards throughout your chest. We begin to understand that there is more to life than what our minds have told us. With the mind now in the background, we can use this feeling to completely circumvent the mind. Let's see how it likes a taste of its own medicine!
You see the clothes on the floor again. Again, it almost seems impossible. But something stops the anxiety this time. No, the anxiety itself is being transformed! Your sense might reel from this realization, but we're not done yet. This is where the magic happens. Instead of telling our minds to perform a task, we focus upon the feeling inside of your chest and tell it to perform a task. Suddenly, a great feeling will emerge, and laying in bed will seem more and more uncomfortable as the feeling becomes more intense. It is not like anxiety. This is something different, something that needs to be done. The future does not seem to matter as much anymore. Because now, you are focused on the present moment. This focus is key to maintaining your motivation.
Amazingly, you get up and walk across the room and pick up the shirt, and drop it onto the bed. Now, we're not even thinking about our actions, we're simply doing them. Action is one of the greatest weapons we have against depression. As long as we are continuously busy with something, the thoughts of the negative depressed mind will have a harder and harder time in reaching you.
Focused on right now, you walk around the room and pick up all of the clothes, and set them on a pile on your bed. You stop for a moment, but something tells you to not think about it and keep going. So you do. Taking the pile, you put them inside the washer, put your cup of detergent in and start it up.
You did it. And you did it in a way you never imagined before. Because the magic begins below the mind. As you start doing chores around the house in this fashion, you start to gain a small confidence in yourself. It may not be much at all, but it's there and you notice it. This is what we call faith.
By relying on our past actions, we can be confident of the future by using the same method that we just experienced, over and over. And this will only continue to enlarge the faith in yourself. The depressed mind is now totally in the background, almost not even noticed. With this faith, we begin to learn how we really work, and we try to keep this feeling as long as it is possible.
I'll end this here since this is a pretty long post, but I hope my first explanation helped you see things in a different light. It is not just the negative thoughts of the midn that fill our entire reality. There are other aspects of ourselves that lie dormant in a depressed body, for good reason: they can permanently keep depression in check. These abilities work around the mind, as we just experienced. The spirit has been roused, but this is only the beginning. The new life has already begun.
There is a motivator in life. I am still a depressed individual as I write this, largely due to being trapped by life circumstance. So why do I still get up and fight? How do I still do this? I will be honest: this has taken years of work for me to accomplish and perfect, but it has been well worth it and I am willing to teach how its done.
First of all, other people can help you stop your negative thoughts. I am not going to argue that. But if you want to change what lies in you, what motivates you, then that is solely your responsibility. If you want to rise from the depths of depression, the first step is have faith in yourself. It is from feeling that we first arise out of the depths. This comes in small steps. Place your faith in something that you KNOW you can do. Never focus on the maybes, do not focus on the worst case scenario, for that is only one side to a two-sided coin!
Take for example, doing the laundry. You know how to do it. The problem is that the longer you think about doing the laundry, the more anxious you will become and the bigger the chance that you will do nothing about it. All of this increases exponentially within a matter of seconds. If you wait long enough, those negative thoughts win and nothing is done.
How is this seemingly impassible wall of anxiety and negativity overcome? The answer does not come from the mind! That push of motivation cannot come from the same source that is depressing your life. That doesn't mean there is no way to motivate yourself, because there is. It is a part of ourselves that was never taught in school, never talked about publicly save in strange new age forums, and totally forgotten about in our feelingless depression.
But if you tell your mind, consciously, in this moment, tell your mind to suddenly focus on your abdomen, something happens. You will feel something. That something is the key out. You have to let your self feel it, let it spread throughout your body and soak in its warmth. This is something that negative mind has never told you about. Because remember, the negative mind is working against you, so you must work around it to defeat and transform it to your liking.
This is the very essence of your being. Completely blocked out by a depressed mind, its absence makes zombies of us all. Some people call it your spirit, your soul or perhaps your essence. You can call it whatever you want. But upon feeling this, we suddenly realize that there is something more to the human body than what we can see in the mirror, or what our mind tells us. The mind never told us this. Why? What is it hiding? Why doesn't it want us to know this? Because this is a threat to the depressed mind's very existence. Remember, in order to defeat depression, we must work around the depressed mind first. This is entirely possible.
And this is where faith comes in. There is something down there, in the abdomen up to the center of the chest. A warmth, a spark, something. We might not be able to logically figure it out, but this doesn't matter. The warmth that it gives is so inviting compared to that cold emptiness of depression that we do not want to feel it go out again. Do not lose that connection to your center of being.This is a part of who you are. Do not let depression or anything else take that away from you. You are in total control over this aspect of yourself, and it is only you that decides to keep it.
We now begin to realize that there is more to our lives than what our minds tell us. This feeling is illogical, but only to the mind. To the rest of the body, we have a sense as to what this could be. Call it intuition if you like. But upon realizing that there is more to our body than your depressed mind lead us to believe, we suddenly have a way out of the hole.
This feeling has a knack for silencing all those negative thoughts that a depressed mind regularly produces. Notice how when you focus on this feeling, that your depressed thoughts are kept in the background. They may still be there, but they are far quieter than they used to be. Suddenly, we see life in a different light. Our eyes focus upon the things in front of us. We notice the filing cabinets, the bookshelves, the windows, the curtains, the clothes on the floor. Wait! Clothes! The laundry!
And you would expect that depression to tell you otherwise here, and indeed the cringing of the stomach has already begun. Has it? That feeling that we have just discovered now surrounds the stomach, and envelopes the rest of your chest. The stomach may clench out of auto response, but those thoughts do not come as before. They are broken. But that's not important. What is important is always focusing upon that feeling in your gut, upwards throughout your chest. We begin to understand that there is more to life than what our minds have told us. With the mind now in the background, we can use this feeling to completely circumvent the mind. Let's see how it likes a taste of its own medicine!
You see the clothes on the floor again. Again, it almost seems impossible. But something stops the anxiety this time. No, the anxiety itself is being transformed! Your sense might reel from this realization, but we're not done yet. This is where the magic happens. Instead of telling our minds to perform a task, we focus upon the feeling inside of your chest and tell it to perform a task. Suddenly, a great feeling will emerge, and laying in bed will seem more and more uncomfortable as the feeling becomes more intense. It is not like anxiety. This is something different, something that needs to be done. The future does not seem to matter as much anymore. Because now, you are focused on the present moment. This focus is key to maintaining your motivation.
Amazingly, you get up and walk across the room and pick up the shirt, and drop it onto the bed. Now, we're not even thinking about our actions, we're simply doing them. Action is one of the greatest weapons we have against depression. As long as we are continuously busy with something, the thoughts of the negative depressed mind will have a harder and harder time in reaching you.
Focused on right now, you walk around the room and pick up all of the clothes, and set them on a pile on your bed. You stop for a moment, but something tells you to not think about it and keep going. So you do. Taking the pile, you put them inside the washer, put your cup of detergent in and start it up.
You did it. And you did it in a way you never imagined before. Because the magic begins below the mind. As you start doing chores around the house in this fashion, you start to gain a small confidence in yourself. It may not be much at all, but it's there and you notice it. This is what we call faith.
By relying on our past actions, we can be confident of the future by using the same method that we just experienced, over and over. And this will only continue to enlarge the faith in yourself. The depressed mind is now totally in the background, almost not even noticed. With this faith, we begin to learn how we really work, and we try to keep this feeling as long as it is possible.
I'll end this here since this is a pretty long post, but I hope my first explanation helped you see things in a different light. It is not just the negative thoughts of the midn that fill our entire reality. There are other aspects of ourselves that lie dormant in a depressed body, for good reason: they can permanently keep depression in check. These abilities work around the mind, as we just experienced. The spirit has been roused, but this is only the beginning. The new life has already begun.
