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Post Abortion Follow Up Appointment

Posted by roads , 05 September 2012 · 126 views

So after a sleepless night I had to wake up at 7 am,because I had an appointment at 8. And so I went straight to shower, I feel like showering is one of the few things I am looking forward to every day. There is something calming in taking a shower. Maybe, because I am kidding myself all my regrets, mistakes and pain are being washed away...
I felt sick the moment we parked next to the clinic. This time there were no religious fanatics with huge posters about what a ****** I am for ******* my baby. I guess it's because it's a weekday. Both previous appointments were on Saturday and those guys made me feel disgusting, as if I did not feel bad enough.
We went in and I had only one thoght in my head - please let this be the last time in my life I come to this place!
To be honest, I thought it would be much more painful to come back there. But I did fine. Maybe because I am too sleepy to care about any of that...
Going to make myself a healthy snack ,because I need to get rid off all the weight I put on because of the stress in the past month and take a nap.And maybe take another shower, just to kid myself I am washing away all problems and sadness...

chucapabra

Sep 05 2012 06:56 PM

All I can say is : **BIGHUGS** to you. those guys who made you feel that way should be ashamed!! they have NO right to do so.. take care and take a lot of rest to recover xoxox

Violet31

Sep 05 2012 08:40 PM

(((((((roads))))))

I´m so sorry for how these guys made you feel. As if this stress is not enough... :console:

Take comfort in the shower. I understand the feeling and use it a lot myself. Water is purifying in some ways and now you need to take all the comfort you can get. :console:

LibraryLady

Sep 06 2012 12:03 PM

I'm sorry too for what you had to go through. It's so unfair that you had to deal with ignorant fools at a time that was super painful for you anyway! Back in the 80's I took a friend to the clinic for an abortion and getting from the parking lot to the clinic door was like running a gauntlet full of angry, hate-filled morons. It was horrible! So, I know exactly what you had to go through, and I'm terribly sorry!

TwilightZephyr

Sep 07 2012 05:13 AM

The protesters are the worst. I remember them making the whole experience much worse for me when I went through that. People have their reasons for the things they do and I think we should live in compassion towards one another. I have to say even after 11 years I think I made the best decision. *hugs* and take care of yourself...you deserve it. <3