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Drawing A Blank

Posted by apple_bloom , 11 September 2012 · 113 views

Yesterday I sat down in the shower and cried.

I'm not sure why. I only cried for a couple minutes. I didn't really have a reason; it just seemed like the thing to do.

It doesn't happen often, but I've noticed a few times when I've just felt so overwhelmed with emotion I just wanted to burst into tears.

Most of the time, I'm just...blank. I'm usually busy with work, so I put on my mask and pretend everything is okay and care for my clients. Otherwise I'm with my mom and I don't talk to her about anything. I put everything out of my mind, buried in my consciousness, and it only really comes out when I'm alone.

I don't even feel like I'm living. I feel like a shell, empty and blank. I've felt that way for such a long time.