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Catharsis

Posted by apple_bloom , 29 August 2012 · 121 views

I went to the house yesterday to pick up some things. I had texted my father earlier and told him not to be there. Thankfully he respected my wish, because I didn't want to see or tall to him.

As I got my things and cleaned up my room a little, I decided to write a letter for my father. I hadn't really thought to do it before, but it seemed like a good idea.

I wrote everything that had been on my mind that I hadn't been able to tell him before. I'm not sure how much good it will do, but at least I explained myself. There's some relief in that.

I'm not sure if I necessarily feel better. It's more of a blank, empty kind of feeling.

LibraryLady

Aug 29 2012 11:31 AM

Apple Bloom, I'm glad you did that. I think you needed to get it all out of your system, and I imagine you do have a sense of relief!

I think you may be feeling a little empty because you were carrying that around in you for so long and now that it's out, there's sort of an empty space there!

You will be OK though!

apple_bloom

Aug 29 2012 03:58 PM

Relief, yes. And you may be right about the emptiness resulting from carrying that emotional weight for so long, but I feel it's more than that. It's the kind of emptiness that comes from loss.

jojin

Aug 29 2012 07:18 PM

That's ery good that you took time to write out how you feel to your dad. Sometimes, letters are just as powerful as words and this is a good way to get everything off of your chest.