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Medicate 1.5

Posted by Anji , 20 November 2012 -

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Hello

so I've been on Atarax for about 3-4 weeks now and my body has already gotten used to them... I talked to the therapist last week and tomorrow I'm starting to take a new medicine. This time it is a pill to prevent; depression, anxiety and obsessive compulsive thoughts/behavior (I have no idea what to call it except for that since the direct...

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Medicate

Posted by Anji , 15 October 2012 -

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Hello!

I feel surprisingly good today. Me and my mom went to our first meeting with the therapist. It went well, although the therapist was 20 minutes late. There were two of them, two ladies, one of them took my mom into one room and talked to her abut all sorts of things(I don't know what exactly). The other one took me into an other room and we...

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Not A Step But A Jump.

Posted by Anji , 03 October 2012 -

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Hi

I just took a 3 times as big a step then I was intending today.

First; I went to the counselor today, thinking that I wouldn't talk abut my problems. I was more planing to just talk to her abut random topics.

Second; I talked to her abut my problems, mostly Them. And we talked, she didn't just listen but we had an conversation.

Third: The...

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And I'm Falling Down, Down, Down...

Posted by Anji , 28 September 2012 -

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I’m feeling really down today. They have been really mean today; they’re telling me to do things. Bad things. Things that are bad for me. Permanent things. Things that will cost me my life…

I hate it! I HATE that I’m so weak. That I’m such a coward. I hate my fears. I hate my awkwardness. I hate the people helped making...

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From Bad To Good To Worse.

Posted by Anji , 27 September 2012 -

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Hi

so today has been okay, this morning I felt really down and was considering skipping school. But I didn't, for two reasons; 1. I didn't come up with any valid excuse and 2. I had my favorite class today(theater).
It got better as the day went on, and I managed to be social towards my classmates and I even went with some of them to the library...

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Bad Day

Posted by Anji , 05 September 2012 -

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Hello

Well today was a pretty lousy day... first I missed my train to school and the next train was late so there was no chance for me to make it in time or my first class.
Then later, wen I went to the counselor, I had a small anxiety attack. I was shaking, my hands were getting sweaty, my hart was pounding and I was fighting the urge to run away as fast...

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New Start

Posted by Anji , 04 September 2012 -

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Hi.

I apologize for not posting anything in such a long wile but I haven't had any motivation to wright stuff down plus nothing that interesting has happened.

So on to the point! As most of you know summer is over and so is my vacation. I've started a new school, gotten new classmates and a few new friends, but I've also lost the...

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Work And Going Away Again.

Posted by Anji , 03 July 2012 -

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Hello DF!

So tomorrow is the last day of work for me at work...I'm both happy and sad abut it, I'm happy because I'm finally able to relax and have a vacation and I'm sad because now I have nothing to focus on, I have no firm reason to get out of bead or leave the comfort of my home...well except for my desire to see L face to...

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The Past Few Days.

Posted by Anji , 28 June 2012 -

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Hello!

I'm sorry that I haven't posted anything the past few days but I haven't had the motivation for it.

So to compensate I'm going to tell you abut the past week. (oh god, this is going to be a long one)

Lets start with last Friday; It all went well at work, I got of early (abut an hoer) so I took an earlier train to my bf. When I...

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Going Away For A Few Days...

Posted by Anji , 21 June 2012 -

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Hi.

I'm really tired right now, but still in control!
I've been seeing things all day, mostly shadows and seeing signs and other objects as people.

It's not as fun at the post office anymore, I'm alone almost the hole afternoon... and They like it when I'm alone, that's when They are the most active.

But! I cant rest right...

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