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Last One Before The Change

Posted by Nataya , 22 August 2012 -

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So this will be my last blog before the huge change.

I'm trying to look at it in a positive way but its so hard.
Its meant to be a small holiday for us also, I'm not excited I am scared and don't want to go. I would rather stay at home with my cats, but i can not do this.

I will be seeing my mother on Monday its not a thing i look forward to...

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Reality Sets In

Posted by Nataya , 20 August 2012 -

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I am trying.....
So hard not to be paranoid that i'm in trouble. I have every right to be paranoid though because i could get in a lot of trouble very easily. I have tried to explain this to my partner but he always gets angry at me, saying i don't want to be with him anymore, because i don't have a resolve for the issue it is just an issue....

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Dingle Dangle edited

Posted by Nataya , 16 August 2012 -

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Still just hanging by that silly little thread.

But it NOW has more weight on it. Phil's daughter will be with us, within the NEXT 2 weeks! Not sure how soon i will find out over the weekend once more planning has been done!

Yesterday wasn't so good. I officially scared myself. A man is now inside of me. He is very strong and very very...

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Hanging By A Thread

Posted by Nataya , 14 August 2012 -

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Exactly what the title says.

I'm starting to shut myself down, so i no longer have to deal with all of the changes that keep going on inside me. It starting to become all to much. What makes her think she is even deserving of the air she is trying to breathe? HAHA stupid cow that she is so naive to believe that she deserve to walk this earth as others...

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Taking Its Toll

Posted by Nataya , 11 August 2012 -

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What am i to do.......

I'm having such a hard time staying in control. I am lost. I don;t want to keep going. I'm sick of fighting. I'm sick of upsetting my partner. I'm sick of feeling guilty about his daughter. i'm sick of changing. i just want to stay as one. i feel like i've lost my mind ='( its no longer just...

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Blah Blah Blah

Posted by Nataya , 08 August 2012 -

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I am getting really tied of this irritability! I was meant to spend my day studying for my class that i have tonight. It only started 2 weeks ago. I missed the first class, attended the second. And now really really don't want to go to the 3rd. My focus is shot. I need to be occupied other wise i feel like i need to move around. I...

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Somebody Please.....

Posted by Nataya , 06 August 2012 -

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tell me that i'm not crazy, or mad......

Let me explain, I feel as if i am more than one person, and it is almost as if they have no regard for the person I am try SO SO hard to be. Now people always have been telling me not to believe that i am not a bad person, and defiantly not as bad as i seem to see myself. This is because the last...

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