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Scattered On Mondays
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rockbottom
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30 July 2012
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God I hate Mondays.
The two days of peace and relative calm seem to do little to quell my anxiety about Mondays. I got myself really worked up this morning for no good reason. What a waste of energy.
I've been off the valium for 2 weeks now pretty much cold turkey - and boy it's not easy. It was all too easy to reach for it when I needed it. But I've made my decision, I'm only going to take those meds which I absolutely NEED (ones for my IBS and ones for my blood pressure, as well as my new anti-depressant, which like voldemort remains un-named). I've halved my beta blocker intake, and I'm going to try to stop taking those as well (under supervision).
Med withdrawal is tough - I'm sure everyone here knows that all to well. My sleeping is all over the place - up far too early (5am) and can't sleep until past midnight. You could fit a week's worth of shopping into the bags under my eyes.
I'm trying to remain positive in the face of adversity. I'm going to be doing some assertiveness and self-esteem work with my therapist over the coming weeks, which should help with my conflict situations at work.
The two days of peace and relative calm seem to do little to quell my anxiety about Mondays. I got myself really worked up this morning for no good reason. What a waste of energy.
I've been off the valium for 2 weeks now pretty much cold turkey - and boy it's not easy. It was all too easy to reach for it when I needed it. But I've made my decision, I'm only going to take those meds which I absolutely NEED (ones for my IBS and ones for my blood pressure, as well as my new anti-depressant, which like voldemort remains un-named). I've halved my beta blocker intake, and I'm going to try to stop taking those as well (under supervision).
Med withdrawal is tough - I'm sure everyone here knows that all to well. My sleeping is all over the place - up far too early (5am) and can't sleep until past midnight. You could fit a week's worth of shopping into the bags under my eyes.
I'm trying to remain positive in the face of adversity. I'm going to be doing some assertiveness and self-esteem work with my therapist over the coming weeks, which should help with my conflict situations at work.
That's a major accomplishment coming off valium cold turkey! Good for you! You're right, med withdrawal is a pain.
It's good that you're doing that work in therapy. I hope it helps with the awful bully at work. That still makes me mad to think about, you're such a nice person, and you don't deserve that (not that anyone does).
Sending you lots of hugs, my friend.