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Worried

Posted by rockbottom , 06 June 2012 · 174 views

I'm fed up with worrying.

Worrying about money (which I never seem to have)
Worrying about health (my parents, my sister, my dog, and my own)
Worrying about loneliness (my parents help me quite a lot, and I'm terrified of when they pass. I don't get out very often so I struggle to meet new people - ladies etc.)
Worrying about work (I'm convinced my work is slipping and that job loss or leaving is inevitable)
Worrying about what others think (I know people look at me differently at work after my last little meltdown, I feel so ashamed)
Worrying about things that I needn't worry about (a lack of control, understanding my condition)
Worrying about all the drugs that I'm taking (which really just keep me as I am, I don't feel any better and I'm up to 12 tablets a day).

It's really too much to bear some days. I sit at work again with my head down so that the guy opposite me can't see the tears flowing down my face as I write this.

Still got 6 weeks until my psychiatric assessment - I'm terrified of the outcome and what it may mean. MORE F'IN WORRY

If there's anyone here from England who knows of a support group for depression/panic/anxiety in the County Durham area, PLEASE LET ME KNOW, I REALLY NEED SOMEONE I CAN SHARE THESE THINGS WITH

LibraryLady

Jun 06 2012 10:44 AM

Hey, I can relate to the worry thing. Like you I worry about everything, all the time! I'm glad you are going to have a psychiatric assessment, it sounds like your meds are not working very well for you! It might be time to change to something else. I also think that finding a support group in your area is a very good idea! You have us too! :-)

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Lookingforalight

Jun 06 2012 07:46 PM

aww I know I worry like that all the time too, its so hard to stop but honestly worry doesn't do anything it just robs us of our happiness in the moment. Maybe it's time for a medication change? I actually only felt better when I completely weaned off my anti depressants and took natural ones (like 5 htp for awhile then st johns wort) but I know that isn't for everyone for sure, but its been amazing! Good luck on your evaluation, I know its so hard to do but I wouldn't worry about it too much, if they find out anything new it won't change how you are feeling now just by putting a title on it, and then they can work to find something to help you out even more :) it could be a wonderful thing!

Im from Canada so I don't know any groups, sorry, but I would try self-care (doing something that makes you feel good) as much as you can! It really helps me! And distracting myself, and playing meditations for anxiety :) Good luck with everything! :)

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lostitnher

Jun 07 2012 09:45 PM

Mark, Have you checked with your GP for local groups? Sometimes the receptionist has got blurb on them behind the desk. I am from the UK but am a southern softie lol. (although my dad was in the DLI during WW2)