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Lady Mozzer`s Rollercoaster Ride



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Struggling

Posted by Lady Mozzer , 12 April 2013 - - - - - - · 85 views

I have really been struggling lately.I am so,so depressed.I have such low energy that getting out of bed seems like a daunting task..Just doing everyday things fills me with anxiety.I had a panic attack on tuesday and couldn`t complete my errands.I had to go back home and take my meds.I feel this deep,deep depression.I really feel like I am losing hope.It...


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Overwhelmed By The Darkness

Posted by Lady Mozzer , 12 February 2013 - - - - - - · 112 views

Overwhelmed By The Darkness I`m very ashamed of myself tonight.I gave in to my intense SI urges.It`s been coming on for a while now.Things were tolerable.I wasn`t a great,big ball of sunshine or anything but it was better than before.My therapist was talking to me about going back to school.I wanted to get on with my life and move on.The illness won`t let me.It started coming back a...


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If You Only Knew...

Posted by Lady Mozzer , 19 December 2012 - - - - - - · 115 views

I haven`t written here in a while.The truth is I guess I just haven`t had the strength to do it.I just need to get some things off my chest I guess.

My sister was here the other day and she said a few things that made me kind of angry.It was about my dealing with my mental illness.One of the things she said to me was that she did not think that I was...


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Despair

Posted by Lady Mozzer , 20 October 2012 - - - - - - · 97 views

I `ve just been feeling so lost and blue these days.I feel like I`m sinking deeper and deeper.Everything is cloaked in darkness and I can`t see clearly anymore.I`m just so lost and alone.I try to keep it all inside because it`s really difficult for me to talk about it.It`s much easier for me to write these things down.Things really hurt so bad right now.I...


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Feeling Sad And Lost Si Triggers

Posted by Lady Mozzer , 07 October 2012 - - - - - - · 162 views

Feeling very pensive tonight or should I say this morrning.I have this overwhelming feeling of sadness and loneliness.

Some things from last week have made me upset.It`s about my dad and his bad temper.When he gets angry it really bothers me.My sister and two of her kids were at the house.My dad was writing a phone message down and the pen stopped...


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Into The Darkness I Disappear

Posted by Lady Mozzer , 20 September 2012 - - - - - - · 145 views

I`m feeling pretty lonely tonight.I want to si so badly right now.Just to feel something other than what I am feeling right now.I feel the darkness creeping in again.It`s dark and noisy upstairs then sometimes it`s so quiet and empty and blank.I`ve been having such a difficult time getting to sleep.I want to rest but I don`t take my meds so I can stay up...


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It`s Happening Again

Posted by Lady Mozzer , 18 September 2012 - - - - - - · 99 views

I went to my p doc today.He`s keeping me on the same meds which are 120 of Cymbalta,600 of seroquel and lorazepam.I was kind of glad things stayed the same.

I spent last week ill with a cold.I`m feeling better physically.It hit me pretty hard.I`ve been pretty down.I`m afraid it`s happening again.I didn`t sleep last night.It`s almost midnight here and I`m...


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A Little Bit Of My Story

Posted by Lady Mozzer , 09 September 2012 - - - - - - · 184 views

I don`t know how to start this... but here goes.

Lately I`ve been having a great deal of trouble concentrating and gathering my thoughts.The depression has been sinking deeper and deeper.In fact I feel like I`m sinking.I have very low energy.I sometimes feel like food doesn`t taste good anymore and there is no color in my life right now.I love music but I...


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Standing Still

Posted by Lady Mozzer , 31 August 2012 - - - - - - · 110 views

I want to be positive.I`ve been feeling unwell lately.When I`m not feeling ill I`m feeling nothing at all.It`s foggy up there and I don`t like it all.Life seems empty,hollow and grey.I can`t get pleasure from anything.On the outside I try to keep it together because I don`t want to burden anyone.My family asks me "what`s wrong".I just say it`s one...


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This Depression

Posted by Lady Mozzer , 17 August 2012 - - - - - - · 166 views

I`ve just been totally exhausted lately.I`ve been so out of it I scared my family on tuesday.All I wanted to do was stay in bed but I had a pdoc appointment..Needless to say the pdoc upped my cymbalta up to 120 a day because of the depression.Everyone has been asking me if I`m okay.I`m trying to be.I hope this helps.My brain has just been so foggy.I can`t...






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