Dealing With Fear

I have been dealing with fear this weekend as I´m still living in uncertainty and that is not a good place. Thankfully I can manage most of the symptoms of fear with the CBT methods, relaxation and guided meditation. I´ve made action plans and in a few days I will go away for a few days to rest. I need to get some time off and be refreshed before jumping into all the stressful meetings the last week in September.

I need to write down that despite the fear, I will be OK. I need to deal with stuff that is unpleasant, but there is no choice. How long will this uncertainty last? Well, as long as it takes. It is the end result that counts and I look at myself as I hope to be in three years time, debt-free. It does not come on a silver platter. It needs to be fought for so naturally there is some growing pain.

I´ve been also using some of the old stuff I learned in twelve step meetings. I´m currently going through the first three steps and what many people call God, I call Higher Power. Nature is my temple. I am trying to let go of my fear and hope that what comes out of this experience will make me stronger and leave me with a better knowledge. There is a group in my area about to start a new twelve step program and I might join them this winter. It is not AA or DA, it´s just coping with the problems and challenges of life by using the steps.

We´ll see how it turns out.