4-20

Hey guys.

Today was the first day in a long time that i've been happy. I had energy, I felt a little spark inside me. It's great to feel like life has hope for me. I'm not thinking about how bad i've felt yesterday nor how i'll feel tomorrow...just today.

I think this medicine is helping me and it's great that only after half a month now I can already see some results, and I'm excited to see how much more it'll help.

I'm not saying that I like the situation i'm in anymore than I did yesterday, or the day before that...i'm just saying that I can look at it in a different way and have hope that things will get better. It's all about perception. Now it's my turn to do some postive things to turn my life into a better direction.

So here are some things that I need to do : find a job so I can be around people more, spent more time around my family, be proactive and avoid sitting in my bed, exercise more, try and reduce my stress level, work harder in school, and really just push it to the limit.

More than anything, it I can spent more time out of the house and stuff all this combined will help me immensely.

I know that I don't like my situation now, but it wont last forever and I have the strength to push through it.

I think that's it for now but I just wanted to share a quote that I read today that I thought was really good:

" Sometimes you have to stop worrying,wondering, and doubting. Have faith that things will work out, maybe not how you planned, but just how it's meant to be."