8/28/12

ok well i might just have the name of my blog be the date cause thats what others do an it just seems easier an stuff so yeahhh, but anyway i had a so so day i got to go out to night an have a girls night an go all out an it was ok an i acted like everything was ok but i don't know I'm just having a hard time an stuff. an with all the emotions, god i can't take the freaking emotions they are ******* me (literally) an I'm so stressed out. an one of my friends ran away two nights ago an i was worried but i knew she was gonna be ok but than another met up with her an left with her an i was freaking out an **** an I'm glad they are home but my one friend her parents well its hard to explain them lets just say not the best or yeah i think you get it an she has a history with cps an stuff. than the other thing is that a friend of mine I'm really close to him an i realized i loved him more than a friend an he used to but than cause of the age difference he pushed those feelings away than i realized i have them an i can't do that, i can't think of being with anyone but him he knows me better than anyone else an i love him an its hard for me to say, an to know he is pushing this feelings away for now maybe forever. an the idea of other girls flirting with him, makes me i don't know sad an jealous an than when he says i need to find a boyfriend an ****, but i mean i guess it doesn't matter cause i can't or never will tell him how i feel...