Very Bad Day
Posted by chacha1 , 09 June 2011 · 178 views
I have had an awful day today I was feeling quite positive at the end of yesterday I had been out with my mum-in-law for a few hours and even tho it was completely exhausting I needed to get out and have some company. but today I felt heavy headed all day and struggled a lot to get out of bed mum-in-law wanted me to take her out for half an hour but I couldn't and kept staring into space it actually felt like a mental form of agony I couldn't talk to anyone on here as I haven't been on my own until now as A is asleep and I don't want him reading this, this is my thing. I tried telling him how I felt but I think its too painful for him to know how much I am suffering I have no idea how I am going to be ok to go back to work next week but I have no money so I have got no choice. I need to reassure myself with knowing that it will get easier but I have only been taking prozac again for a week so it will be a long time before I really do feel better. I made myself go out with A earlier and I do think it helped but even when I am having a laugh with him I still have the heavy feeling and its almost as if I am putting on an act and going through the motions. I have to beleive that this will pass I can't afford for the depression to beat me this time.