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Mothers Day

Posted by allalone6 , 13 May 2013 -

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yesterday was a heartbreaking day. Facebook was pure torture. My news feed was filled with well wishes for mothers day and pictures of kids. Being a mother is all i want in life. when I was younger and going thru a rough time, i would tell myself on those suicidal nights to hang in there, that life will get better and that "this" will pass and hold...

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It Hasnt Been A Fun Ride And I Want To Get Off.

Posted by allalone6 , 08 May 2013 -

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i want to die. plain and simple. im not liked or wanted. im not even acknowledged by most. I dread waking up and going to work. theres no point to my existence.

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Mistake

Posted by allalone6 , 30 April 2013 -

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I think i made a mistake. long story short...ive worked at my current job for 8 years. i used to love my job. its a little family owned place and i felt part of the family. when my depression kicked back in, my really good friendship with one of my bosses got ruined. its made it difficult for the past 3 years here, she doesnt hide her hate, she flat out i...

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How Do You Stay Strong When You Have Nothing To Grasp Onto?

Posted by allalone6 , 29 April 2013 -

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i feel inadequate. im not a very good friend, seeing how i lost them all. theres no possible way to justify the loss of over 7 CLOSE friends, so it has to be me. im not a girlfriend material, since in over 10 years of being on dating sites, ive had no success.

im tired of just going thru the motions of the day. im tired of the silence....

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Whats The Point?

Posted by allalone6 , 21 April 2013 -

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to being alive if there really is no purpose for you?

Im not a mom or a wife....so its not like i have a family who needs me.

i have no friends...no one acknowledges me in my daily life, so no one would care if i just didnt exist

im replaceable at my job, what job position isnt replaceable...so wont be missed there

my lif...

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Its My Own Fault

Posted by allalone6 , 16 April 2013 -

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what on earth is wrong with me? seriously there is something completely wrong with me. I am obviously an awful horrible person. I am now on my 6th lost friendship. i know where i went wrong with the others, depression has truly ruined my life. this one though, understood, knew i couldnt control it, dealt with it with her mom, she understood, so i th...

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Another Fail

Posted by allalone6 , 25 March 2013 -

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so, i was suppose to have last tuesday off from work due to contractors and our office being shut down for the day. I went ahead and asked a coworker out to lunch, knowing she would say no, cause she has been distancing herself from me. and lo and behold she said no. but thankfully, i went into work cause the day off got postponed to this tuesday (to...

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Just Another Night

Posted by allalone6 , 19 March 2013 -

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Came home last night to my cold dark empty house. I turned the lights & heat on and started dinner. I sat down at my kitchen table, for the first time in ages...i find myself just eating on the couch in front of the tv mostly. I sat at the table and stared at teh 3 empty seats. i started to wonder if they will ever be filled. over the past 6 years my...

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Catch 22

Posted by allalone6 , 13 February 2013 -

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I set myself up again. I must like punishing myself. I once again asked a co-worker (stupidly the same one from before) to go for a hike this weekend. I asked 2 weekends ago to assure adequate time to coordinate. She surprisingly said yes, i was so excited, couldnt wait for this saturday to get together. but deep down i knew it was too good to be true, i...

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Must Be Me

Posted by allalone6 , 31 January 2013 -

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i toyed with writing in the public forum. I didnt want to. I feel badly that I whine about my life. but in my defense, this is the only place i can vent. I normally keep it in or write on my blog. i gave in. i wanted interaction. i knew better. so i gave in and posted...hoping to just talk and my post appears to be invisible just like i am with my su...

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