That's a good idea, Lizzy. Thanks for the welcome. And thanks for taking out time to be a Moderator here. That's a caring thing to do. To make sure you get to each one of us newbies. Bless you and I wish for you peace of mind and heart.

Hi to everybody else too and I wish for you all the same good fortune.

Raynie

Thank you for the welcome Lizzy.

Thanks both of you! I got here via searching for information regarding side effects when taking Efexor - finding people to share experiences with, some who I could help because I was further 'dwon the road' than they were ........ I have found during the years that sharing, having a Good Moan, the occasional laugh ........ all helps. Knowing we are not alone. Knowing that people do survive despite difficulties.

Browse round, join in, ask, share, explain ........

Hi. I am 22 years old, and have suffered with depression, anxiety and ocd, for far too long. my new issue is intrusive thoughts and these thoughts making me feel guilty for even having them or for things I have never even done. I am currently on 112.5 g of Effexor, and also clonazapam. I am also currently in therapy as well. I feel like sometimes the effexor is working, when the doctor ups my dose, but the anxiety and ocd is still bothering me. I am happy to have found this forum. I find it comforting to know that I am not the only one with these problems, and to have others to talk to that will understand.

browse round, join in; you are NOT alone !

QUOTE (guppy @ Jul 24 2004, 08:49 PM)

<font color='#FF00FF'>Yoganut, welcome to the forums. There are lots of us here with stuff we thought only we had until we got talking to people and its amazing much we all have in common. You aren't alone there is a great support network here. I hope you can find some answers </font>

I am new to this or any other forum in regard to my OCD. I am 56 years old. I have been suffering with the same type of intrusive thoughts for 20 years. I take a combo of Luvox and Wellbutrin to help me from losing my mind. When the thoughts occur they are always the same, just a different person is dead. It used to be my son was dead, he wasn't really, but it was very real in my mind. I was in mourning for 3 years before I sought help.

Every minute of every day I was being destroyed by this thought of my son in a coffin and I would relive the pain of "just learning about it " constantly. The pain was unbearable, I lost my job, my friends and almost my fiancee. His love for me was incredible, imagine being with someone who doesn't want to be touched or loved and cried incessantly! We got married 6 weeks after treatment. I took Zoloft at that time and I felt like I was almost healed. The thoughts would try to get to me and sometimes they would, for 10 minutes or so, and I would go into mourning again, then suddenly the negative thought was erased. In 1995 I gave birth to a daughter. I wanted to try a new antidepressant that would allow me to feel things more deeply, like , JOY AND PASSION for my childs milestones, I felt almost numb physically but my brain was feeling everything, I had no affect. My GP (he wasn't the doc that prescribed the Zolot 4 years prior, she was a psycopharmacologist from a hospital) tried to take me off Zoloft after 4 years of it sucsessfully making me somewhat whole in some ways and zombie like in others, BAD CHOICE OF DOCS. My OCD kicked in again after 3 weeks of trying different drugs. I was suicidal! I thought my 2 year old daughter was dead and I would go and hug her and cry because even in my arms where I could feel her, see her, touch her and kiss her it seemed only a dream and I would awaken from my bliss to realize she was really dead. I imagined her in a coffin being lowered into the ground. The pain of this type of thought process, again, was too much to bear. I was in crisis and had to be hospitalized and treated all over again for my depression by a psycopharmacologist. It took a while before I became stable again. To me, being dependent on drugs to stop your emotional pain is very fragile, and I could break again, for any number of reasons I wouldn't be able to afford my drugs. I have not talked to anyone about my pain for 20 years, I don't know why I never sought this type of help before. Yes, my husband has been put through the ringer and he still stays and wants to stay. For those that are not and have never been depressed understanding what we are experiencing is almost impossible. So if your spouse stays, willingly, they are truly guardian angels put here to love us unconditionally.

I guess my post is to introduce myself, and to seek support from others who have experienced the same or similar OCD. Why this particular subject is tormenting me, why not something less painful and destructive. Does anyone know what the underlying reason is for OCD to manifest itself in the ways that it does for each of us ? I am terrified of my thoughts, I am terrified they will take over my brain and that I would have to do something, unmentionable to myself, to stop the most horrendous pain any mother could endure, from repeating itself day after day after day. I suffer in silence I am in the closet, so to speak, and it is and has been a very lonley place.

Lori

stress and fear can cause OCD. Being a parent is a HUGE responsibility. How much child care do you have other than the children's father?

Hi everyone, i'm new to the site, i'm 22 years of age, i live in the sunny part of Scotland; which it still rains everyday lol. Having read a lot of the topics and posts on this site it comes as a relief to me to be reassured that i'm not the only person that suffers from these crazzy tiresome obsessive thoughts, i have watched my brother suffer from this illness since he was 17 and now he is 24 and he's had it severe; but he's not alone because i also have had small taste of it for years which i have managed to hide, but when is enough enough, because i'm seem to be getting worse in my head. If you ask me from personnel experience on this topic, it seems to be a lot to do with mood because i've seen times when i couldn't give a rats because i was happy, but later everything goes to hell, inparticular when i wake in the mornings i feel depressed and don't want to get up, i have disturbing thoughts about lots of things paranoia and the best of it is i know it isin't real, but the worst is when i have paranoia of what if, the magic word what if a lot different from actually but for OCD sake it comprehend's this as actually putting a spiral into depression, but hey it's just an obsession eventually you got to get angry and wake up, but then it eventually comes back. As hard as this illness may be and i know everyone who has it has there fears and obsessions, but sometimes when you just get on with things you forget about that past obsession and it becomes irrelavent, i know that much, thanks for listining, anybody wants to talk about OCD i'm happy to listen and i will try to help as i know how harmfull this really is.

how's the weather in Scotland? We've had very cold dull weather since 26th. OCD can rule our lives so we need to develop skills to help deal with it. Stress can make it worse too. Browse round the forum, join in, see how others cope. You will see that you are *not* alone!

Hi all! My name is Lisa, I'm 19 years old and live in Melbourne, Australia. I am studying a Bachelor of Psychology in Business at University. I live in a small 3 bedroom house with my husband (who is 32), my Sister In Law, and my Father and Mother in law. We have two dogs, a German Shepherd named Schultz and a Scottish Terrier cross Foxie Terrier named Bim.

I was diagnosed with borderline OCD when I was 14, and I tended to check doors, windows, irons and stoves to make sure they were locked or turned off. I also washed my hands obsessively, weighed myself obsessively (and excessively), and cleaned for hours to make sure things were perfect. I also started when I was 15 to start writing lists and record my food intake and weights. About 8 months ago I was told by my doctor that I have 'outgrown' my OCD however have developed OCPD. I obsess constantly about time, I always feel as though I'm running out of it, and am obsessed with planning each hour of every day and things in the future to the point of anxiety and stress. I find that my constant need to plan interferes with my study quite a bit as I always feel that I need to completely understand the material before I begin an assignment, then I need to plan it and I refuse to actually begin the assignment until I've planned it and my time thoroughly - which often leaves me very little time to do the assignment. I have high expectations of myself and am very hard on myself and my results in life and in the classroom. I constantly feel like everything needs to be planned, and don't like surprises because things that aren't planned tend to scare me. I'm not very impulsive, except when I'm really excited or scared, and in fact moved to Melbourne on a wave of excitement - afterwards I totally broke down and locked myself in the house because I was too scared to venture out into a strange place. My husband tends to get quite frustrated with me because I'm always worrying about things that I cannot control or things that are too far into the future to have any real perspective on it, but he does understand that it is a compulsion that I can't completely control.

Many people when I tell them that I have OCPD or depression laugh at me because they think that I can completely control it if it's something in my brain. My husband at first didn't believe that I had OCD/OCPD when I first moved in with him because I am no longer obsessively tidy, and in general just like a 'normal' (whatever that is) when it comes to tidiness. He can see it now though, when it comes to my own personal cleanliness and the way my mind works.

I have found one positive with my OCPD and that is that it has helped me score a great job at a community TV station as a Personal Assistant. My compulsiveness to organise time means that my boss is very well organised!

This post has been edited by bloops: Jan 17 2009, 01:16 AM

OCPD is?

Oops sorry - Obsessive Compulsive Personality Disorder.

Oh wow you sound exactely like me!! lol! I love all the arts too :) especially singing, acting, drawing and writing, and I am also suffering from depression, OCD and anxiety mine for 6 years. anndd I'm currently coming compeletly off Prozac! haha crazy eh!

I'm Britney! its nice to meet you:P

Hi there, my name is Aimsley and im from the UK.
I have OCD, Borderline Personality Disorder, emetephobia and ADHD. I am 21 years old and have had OCD since i was 5 but only got dianosed last year. I also got diagnosed with BPD emetephobia and ADHD last year as well.
My OCD manifests itself by handwashing and a general fear of contamination and also magical thinking.
I currently see a therapist and i see my pysch every 6 months.
I spent 5 weeks in hospital recieving treatment for the OCD, BPD, emetephobia and ADHD and thankfully now im on the mend.
Occasionaly when i am stressed it will flair up but i know how to deal with it better now.
Thanks for reading.
Aims. x x x

Welcome, it is nice to know that your coping skills are helping! Browser round, join in!

Hi everyone!
i am 40 and I have ocd. i live in the frozen tundra of north america!
I have had this since probably 7 or 8 years of age in varying forms.
i was not formally diagnosed until about 3 years ago, and that was a psychologist saying "sounds like you have ocd."
I have pretty poor health insurance, and couldn't sink 3000 plus into counseling...so i spent 30 bucks on two very helpful books and was put on celexa.
the ocd surfaced in childhood, my biggest recall of it would be things like oppositional thinking...if somebody gave me a gift out of kindness, i would think "why" and feel i should not have it. I started to have what I call what if episodes in high school. For example, I would hear on the news that an elderly couple would be found dead in their homes. I would immediately panic that A) the beloved couple living on the nearest land to us would be found, and B) I'd somehow be responsible. Pretty scary for a 17 year old. I never dared tell anybody for fear I was crazy.
After high school, the symptoms went away until about the age of 30 for some strange reason.
They surfaced again, this time much more serious...what if thinking, obsession, rumination, etc. Hyperresponsibility. Hypermorality. Fearing I had stolen from a store by getting too much change. Fearing I had driven over someone. Fearing I had said or did something extremely inappropriate. Fearing I would get people sick...Fearing that the person that was my friend from church who just announced they are battling cancer, that i was somehow responsible for it...
It was never enough to take me out of the game of life. I functioned, kept going (I am a teacher!) , and put on a happy face. Began running. I lost 60 pounds plus and started to run marathons. I enjoyed the training, the challenge, and certainly enjoyed looking like I was 18 again.
i have also battled seasonal depression (living in a dark, frozen country helps none of these things!) light therapy, exercise, fish oil have all done wonders....

2 years ago, doctor put me on medicine. I was on celexa until this past month. The medicine helped me in many ways. It gave me perspective. It gave me time to address my faulty thinking, and gave me time to understand my "unwelcome visitor." The medicine worked well for me.

The only problem I had with the medicine was that a) I put on 20 pounds, and b) i became extremely lethargic. I needed naps on a daily basis. I tapered off Celexa and have been off for almost 3 weeks now. I feel fine. I still do get an occasional symptom-thought but it is quickly dismissed as "oh, shut up ocd....i've heard enough out of you...sit down and be quiet.." I still perseverate on things, jokes, songs, etc....but big deal... I still only weigh about 180 pounds, but if you are a marathoner, you go try run 26 miles with a 20 pound weight on your midsection!

additional note: Do not watch Napoleon Dynamite if you have a junior high level humor and are a perseverator.... :)

Right now, I am feeling good and am in the best shape of my life. My hope in posting and reading on this forum is to continue to understand the bully that has sucked a lot of fun out of my life, and help others understand that bully, too.

Browse round, join in!

Hi Riley
not sure if it will help you, but it helped me to learn as much as I could about OCD. I read several books on the topic.
One helpful mantra (if you will) is to write off the ocd as "just my ocd". When you can separate it from who you really are and what you REALLy feel, then you are on the way to taking a lot of power away from this stinky unwelcome guest in your life.

Here's another thing: The stinky unwelcome guest will likely be living in your house forever. The good news: he gets one room, and one room only. That one has also helped me, a lot.

You are not going crazy!

Hi everyone, I'm Erica and I'm seventeen. I guess I've been dealing with strict OCD since I was in elementary school, I think around the second or third grade. I've dealt with what one might consider typical or common obsessions as well as some that I would consider unusual or uniquely mine (such as one that I'm dealing with now). I'm not on any medications.

At the moment I'm losing control over my life to a current obsession and am trying very hard to overcome it. I have hope though.

Hi Everyone,

Im goaliechic and im 25 years old. I joined this forum about two weeks ago when i was seeking help for my obsessive thoughts/depression and anxiety. I think sometimes people dont believe me that i have these feelings bc i seem like my life is fine. I have a wonderful husband, a cute dog, some good friends, recently married, homeowner and grad student. My family is also good but we have a history of emotional abuse/ stress/dysfunction due to mental illness which i believe has brought me here today.
I grew up with a mother who suffered from bipolar disorder. My father worked two jobs to care for me, my mom and my three sisters. Two of my sisters are older than me and i have a younger sister. My older sisters saw a lot more than i did growing up. None of us ever saw a therapist for what we experienced growing up. My oldest memories of my mother were her being held down to an ambulance bed in the kitchen and having the paramedics take her to the ambulance for attempted suicide. I remember her running away for three days and not knowing if she would be alive or dead. I remember going to visit her in the hospital and her being so sedated that she really didnt know how to react to us. She held out her hand and gave us a wooden beaded necklace that she made us. most of my other memories i blocked out. All of this occurred before i was ten years old.
When i was around ten she got better and started getting the help she needed, but soon relapsed. She went thru stages where she was obsessed with god. If she wasnt in bed she was in front of the tv. She never wanted to spend time with us. And if we asked her to take us shopping or other places for school necessitites she would say yes and then never go thru with it. I blamed myself alot for her illness. I always thought that she didnt want to be with us. I would get frustrated etc. I learned that the way to get attention from my mother and father was to excel.
I learned to be the pefect kid, the perfect student, the perfect everything. If i was doing good then i was getting attention. Getting praise. I wasnt being ignored. And my dad and mom were smiling. Jump ahead to age 25 and i dont know how to do things for myself. I am stressed and full of anxiety if im not perfect. I had to get a 4.0 or i freaked out. I had to look the best , everything had to be picture perfect...or i had a meltdown.
now i feel empty. I obsess about past failures. Past wrongs. I ruminate about all the what ifs. All day long. Im sad and not myself. I dont know who i am anymore. I cant bring myself to do the things i used to love. Obsessive thoughts take over my days. I wake up panicky thinking "i should have done this, i should have done that"

And thats why i am here...to find support and get better and find myself once again...

Goalie32 ........ you are now in an adult perspective and maybe feel you could have done 'more' ......... as a child it is never explained that depression is an illness which is *not* the children/s fault because somehow adults want to protect their children and my parents attitude was that Dad's illness was nothing to do with us ... they would deal with it ... even though it impacted. Daily! What should have been explained to you was how your Mum felt - maybe she wanted to be a 'good' Mum who would go out and about with her kids but maybe she didn't have the energy, maybe she had panic attacks at the thought of leaving the house, of having to choose clothes etc. for the girls, to have to open her purse in a queue to pay for stuff ............ ? I didn't understand Dad's attitude until I had panic attacks myself, then something clicked in my brain ........

Now you know that nothing/no-person is perfect. Give yourself a break. Who are you trying to please these days? Did your being 'perfect' alter anything ........ start by forgiving yourself!

Hi,

Looking for a little advise. OCD is a member of our family. My brother and parents suffer from OCD. It seems to have skipped me, but has settled with my 19yo daughter. A recent break up with a boyfriend, has seemed to set her in a very disturbing direction. The relationship lasted for only a year, and was never what she was truly looking for(she told me this). But she is now obsessed with him, more so than a normal break up. Feeling sad all the time, waiting for him to contact her, even just a text message. She is driving her friends away, and that's all we ever talk about. After two months her away message yesterday was "I'm sad, when am I going to feel normal again". This does not seem to be just a normal sad breakup thing, but an obsession with a relationship, that was something it was not. We see her studies and relationships with friends and family suffering. She told me that she just wants to go back to the way it was. Back to what I asked her, the fantasy that never really existed? We are at a loss as to how we can reach her. She is in counseling at school. She listens and says she knows what she needs to do, but never takes that first step. Does this sound like an OCD reaction or is this normal?

hello, i'm matthew, 19, londoner, found this section of the forum and thought it was as good a place to start as any with some of my problems.

i have suffered with OCD since i was 13ish. i think i learned it off my mum and i still have it to this day at 20. to me that feels like ages but i'm sure alot of you have gone through worse so i can't complain. is OCD genetic or is it a case of learning from what i grew up with?

so yeah OCD doesn't control my life but makes a fine embarrassment at times.

lets have a go through some of the rituals then shall we um.

hate being the last one out the house cos that means i have to check everything is safe and the responsibility lies on me.

things i am compelled to check: doors, windows, cooker, keys, plugs, taps, then things like front garden before i leave and back door patio before closing the back door. so that's at home then out i'm checking under seats before i leave them so yeh i look like a bit of a terrorist which isn't such a good look :S then at work i used to have to work with customers accounts which i had to check over a few times till the brain finally understands what i told it the first time ;l

currently i'm not receiving help for my OCD, haven't got a clue what help is out there tbh. i like to think my counting method works with my ways of making things into 7s but yeah usually have to go through a few 7s lol so :/ lol

anyways i better stop typing soon before this becomes essayish. it's nice to hear different accounts from people makes me feel somewhat more normal i spose lol x

I haven't been diagnosed with OCD, but I seem to be showing a lot of symptoms, which brings up a few questions. I just hope that you don't mind me posting here.

Since I was very, very little, I've always been extremely careful not to step on the cracks of tiled floors or sidewalks, counted things for no apparent reason, moved fingers or clicked my tongue unable to stop until I reached a perfectly even and satisfying number of movements or clicks, been bothered by things that didn't look "balanced" enough, and paid extreme attention to tiny details in things that shouldn't matter. I would get very angry at myself if I found that things weren't as good as they should be, and they never were. It makes me wonder if I may have developed OCD/OCPD.

I’m Ellena, 20, from Melbourne, Australia 2nd year Arts/ Law at Uni. Having only just found this site a few days ago all I can say is what a relief! I *think* I suffer OCD of the thought variety. Ruminating over past problems is my weakness (by in the past, I mean can go back over a year). They are always negative or embarrassing events and the more I think about them, the worse the problem seems to become and the prospect of resolution or acceptance becomes almost inconceivable. On two occasions It got to the point of weight loss, and the problem would be on my mind 70% of my waking hours. Usually it just happens when I’m not distracted by other activities and I can go through periods of no symptoms.

However, after reading the 'rumination' post, and realising properly that these thoughts are shared by others and irrational (irrational I did know, but not to the extent I understand now), my symptoms have decreased to the point of being free of negative thinking for the last few days! Amazing what simply saying to myself "this train of thought is not the 'norm' and not constructive”. After saying that, I know it won’t be the last time I fall into a 'rut' of thinking!

I have an official diagnosis of OCD from Yale University, a diagnosis that I got after 2 to 3 years of being misdiagnosed elsewhere as having a phobia.

I have contamination issues: I am NOT a germaphobe at all, which is so ironic--and often makes my contaminations harder to explain. The chief ones are adhesive particles (so anything sticky from bandaids to price stickers), salt and other chemicals used as de-icers in winter, magnetic particles, and paint chips. And I am sure there are many other "mini" ones, but those are the ones that ruin my life. I also have a tiny bit of the "checker" in me, not enough to cripple me, but I am careful when locking a door or addressing an envelope.

OCD came into full bloom for me when I was in my mid-30's, one fine November afternoon, and I even remember it was a Friday. I wish I could take that day away, when due to one particular "accident", I became aware of everything being made of particles, and that it is impossible for me to control those particles.

I have had all kinds of treatment, from cognitive behavioral therapy to attempts at meds. I have created some "movement" in it, mainly through self-help, but right now following the deaths of my mother and father, and extreme exhaustion from dealing with life, it seems to be worse. Right now I wish I wasn't here in this world and would just fade away.

I have created a blog, and would really appreciate if someone could check out my latest post on "Miserable day of shopping"....because I have to go out shopping again tomorrow, and I am not sure quite what went wrong last Friday that my trip was so bad. I also have a general introduction there, if anyone wants to check it out, but mainly I am looking for help before I attempt to do errands again!

Hi my name is Danielle I postd on here before but for th life of m I cant find my post so I'm posting again lol

I have been diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder with Psychosis. I am 15 years old and have been hearing voices an seeing black spots on walls for about 2 and a half years now. I've been hospitalized 5 times now and I just had a breakdown on friday at school. I was scared and I felt that everybody was against me and they were trying to **** me.I think I had a panic attack, it was hard to breathe and the walls were moving again. The obsessive thoughts are ruining my life and I don't know what to do about it. I'm always scared and my step dad recently made me a ring and I keep on thinking that the ring will chop my finger off, I can't stand in doorways too long or else I freak out. I think that I will be chopped in half. I cant even wear tightly collared shirts because I feel claustrophobic and I start to get feaked out. Is anybody else like me? So far I know nobody who has this problem and it would make me feel a lot better if I knew somebody who was going through what I'm going through.

Hi Danielle

That must be pretty scary to cope with. Can you convince yourself that these things won't happen or do they take over?
I understand the tight fitting clothes around the neck. I can't wear polo necks or anything too tight either or I feel claustrophobic.
I'm sure there are lots of people here who understand what you're going through. Well done for posting.

PRT xx

Newbie here!

I am Lori, 34 y/o in the Midwest. Lots of mental illness in the family, most are in denial and refuse treatment. Gramma is bi-polar, schizo with multiple ECT (that's what 8 kids will do to you if you are predisposed). I had some depression as a teen, step-mom from hell, and some crazy rebellious teen years. My boyfriend rescued me and we married young. We had 2 kids, and hubby died from leukemia at age 26. That was where my MI escalated. The stress was overwhelming.

I had never been treated, but anxiety attacks lead me to see my doc. Though I was a lot better, I still have always ruminated about my dad and step-mom. She is manipulative and enjoys excluding my sister and I from events at her discretion, then when I get upset she plays the victim and denies it all. I feel like the psycho every time. Eventually I realized my life is much more normal without them in our lives, though it hurts like hell. So I still ruminate about it. "What if I tried again, what if I..." It is crazy talk. After 9 years of Effexor XR I saw a decline. I switched to Cymbalta 60, it is better already. I still need help for the ruminating though. Anyone have any suggestions?

The other problem is a therapist who is experienced in this area. Thanks for listening.

Obcessed with my carpet being clean. I'm also obcessed with the way my hair looks. I'm afraid of clowns. I've been on cymbalta and I hate it! I don't want to be on medication but anxiety has been getting to me. Since I have been on it, all noises seem much louder to me. I feel disoriented and my sleep is interrupted. I can't function this way.

Crescent Moon,

I'm embarrassed now by reading all of these posts. I have been feeling like something has been wrong for a while. I can't even explain it to my girlfriends or anyone I date. I don't actually get to date as I am a single mother of a 3 yr old. This adds to the aspect of lonliness.

I realized I have a little bit of OCD. I have to pump my gas in amounts divisible by 5. IE. $7.55 or $6.25. I'm also very nervous about driving over bridges. I roll my window down and take my seatbelt off. This is sad.



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Hello, as I've mentioned in another thread, I'm 22 and from Ireland.

I've been suffering from OCD for about 10 years I reckon. It never really bothered me as such (all what I did was the usual lark of washing my hands three times, flicking the TV from channel 9 to 10 to 9 again, and so on, minor things like that).

Last summer though things took a turn for the worst. I got severe paranoia about my surroundings, I felt like people were watching me (something like that Truman Show movie), it drove me insane. I had to keep thinking to saying things to myself that it's all made up in my head (which it was obviously), but a part of my mind thought otherwise (I was starting to wonder if I was suffering from schizophrenia). Anyway, I decided enough was enough and went to a shrink to sort it out. I was prescribed Prozac, and while it seemed to get rid of those paranoid thoughts, the OCD never shifted.

I stopped taking the Prozac for two reasons:

1. The price of it, a months dosage was pushing over €100, and given I've only a part time job, I just couldn't afford to pay for it.

2. It caused severe erectile dysfunction, resulting in an ability to get it up, or maintaining it if I did manage to get it up. That caused serious depression in me, so I quit it.

Anyway, I've been off the Prozac for about 6 months now, and all sorts of crappy thoughts seem to be going through my head. For instance, about 2 years ago, I did something that I've since regretted and wish I never did (nothing illegal or anything, just something embarrassing). While I forgot about it for a long while, it was only recently (in the part 3 or so months) has it come back to haunt me. I can't get it out of my head, and I have to say a certain thing out loud to try and mask it. If I don't say thing thing, I get a sudden feeling of anxiety and can't concentrate at all. I try not to say thing thing too loud or else people would probably think I'm mental or something (well, I am mental, but no need to broadcast that to the world).

Anywho, I'm going to the shrink on Wednesday (12th) too see if their is anything that can be done about this.

Hi guys. I already replied to the main new members post, but figured that I should also introduce myself here since this part of the forum is probably where I'll be spending most of my time. I'm Ricky (female) and I used to come on DF. Oh, and I have OCD haha.

Hi and Welcome back Ricky.

It will be great getting to know you! Please make yourself feel at home.

Trace

Hello, I am from Pakistan ,Adnan I am now 14 year i feel ocd from last 4 years. some months ago doctor said to me that i am facing ocd. I think if i will not repeat or touch something again somethink bad will happen to me or i will become like a person who i hate.when i touch somethink i see photo or images of person who i like.That also happen when i wash my hands or face.

I am ,very depressed

HI Adnan, welcome to df!

Sorry to hear you are feeling depressed. Is the doctor treating your OCD? If it goes untreated it can really add to your depression. I hope you find the site useful.

PRT xx

yes we contacted the DR in Saudi Arabia he said take medicine 4 ,2months you will be ok
but there is not any effect on me.

Unfortunately it's not always as easy as that. Has the 2 months passed yet? If it has and you're not seeing any improvement, maybe you could speak to him again? Is it possible to see a psychologist where you live?

ofcourse its possible to see in pakistan psychologist.alway i am having compulsion
and
obsessions.Yes months had been past.

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