Hi all,

First off, I have nobody in my life to share this (even my doc barely speaks english) with so any thoughts greatly appreciated. So I have lifelong anxiety. In the past year and a half it has gotten really really bad and has now turned to bad depression + anxiety. The thing that scares me the most is the last year and a half I have had some of the best things going on in my life. But since I feel like s*** all the time I can't enjoy them. This is really scary because what will happen when I actually have things going wrong in my life?

Either way...I started Mirtazapine (norset for those of us in Europe) 2 months ago. Started at 15mg. First couple days I was a zombie, it hit me hard. Then the next 2 weeks or so I felt great, thought I was back to my old self. But then it just stopped working, actually went the opposite direction and now it feels like it is worse. It has now been about 4-5 weeks like this. I can barely have a conversation with people and want to avoid them at all costs. Doc just upped me to 30mgs and I have been on that for 2 days. But I am wondering if I should just quit now. Is it really going to all of a sudden turn around?? Every day seems to be getting worse. From what I have read Mirtz shouldn't take long to be fully absorbed in your system. I have presentations coming up for work, friends coming to visit and will be traveling and I can't afford to have gut wrenching anxiety all the time. What has everybody's experience been like when increasing dosage?
Please somebody let me know your thoughts!!!!!!