Hi and Welcome Angel Demon

You are definitely not alone with anger issues. There are many others here that also have anger issues. Anger management classes can greatly benefit you. You may also want to have a look in Psych Ed 101, there are 2 pinned topics on anger management in there.
Please make yourself feel at home.

Trace

Hey, I'm Lez.
I'm a 17 year old male, about to turn 18. I live in Australia. I have had suicidal thoughts for over a year (and attempts, but luckily failed), I used to go days without sleep, and I've since gotten proffessional help a bit over a month ago. I don't really have people to talk to, other than my girlfriend, so I decided to join up here, hoping to meet new people and maybe talk about things. Some things that I love are cars, movies and computers. So if anybody ever wants to chat or whatever, well yeah. Cause I can't talk to my girlfriend 24/7 =( The reason why I didn't get help for so long, was because I simply thought my feelings were normal things, and that I should just get over them. But I couldn't get over them. I haven't been really blessed in my life. I always seem to have bad luck, (especially with money). I live with a single mum and a brother, who never chips in to help pay off the bills, yet I try my best to. He's 25, I'm 17, earning $8 an hour (Australian) as a computer technician. It's a much harder job than working at a supermarket. It's a skilled labour job, yet I can't seem to find any other work. All my friends are earning at least $11 an hour (McDonalds). Then I get fines for various things, when I'm legally meant to get at least two warnings, before they issue me a fine. I've had two fines, which drained all my hard earned savings. The only time I'm able to make decent money is when I do bad things. I don't want to keep doing those things, and I'm sick of wanting to **** myself everyday. Anywho, yeah, I'm just here to talk to people (maybe even not about my problems).

Hi and Welcome to DF Lez

I am glad that you are reaching out to a place where you will be understood and you are not alone here.
I hope you make many friends here and find a lot of support.
You sound very responsible and I hope you find a way to overcome and manage your depression.
Please make yourself feel at home.

Trace

Hello Trace,

Thanks for the welcome and advice.

Angel Demon

Hello, i'm not really sure if this is where i'm supposed to be posting... feel a bit silly.
Anyway ...
Hello,

I am a seventeen year old girl and a few years ago my parents tried to force me into therapy when they found out about my self harm. I adamantly refused to go. They've tried to make me go on three or four separate occasions, now they think i've stopped but i haven't, i feel it is an addiction. That's not the MAIN problem anymore but i'm wondering if maybe i should consider therapy/psychiatrist or something?

I have been feeling very depressed this past year, more so than usual, and anxious at times, especially in social situations which i have almost completely cut myself off from. Sometimes i feel like the simple questions people ask me by way of conversation are too broad and i can't answer them. Sometimes i am quite overwhelmed by the lack of understanding i have of the people around me, and feel like i have to leave.

It's gotten to the stage where i literally do nothing with my days, just sit around in my pyjamas, i don't even shower when it's really bad. I also have a hard time sleeping, because terrible thoughts fill my head, such as thoughts of death or pain. I write them down to try and help and am sometimes horrified at the selfish, morbid things i have written. I spend a lot of time thinking about suicide and death, but i've never attempted it. I don't know if i would.

I'm constantly battling with the idea that there is no point to life, and it frustrates me like mad and destroys any motivation for anything. Sometimes i'll be having a good day and the thought 'what's the point' will just suddenly make itself known or 'the world could just explode at any point' and it just makes me give up instantly. I feel like i can't control this.

One more thing i've noticed is how easy it is for the smallest thing someone might say to throw me into a full on mood swing, (this could either be depression, happiness or anger) even though most of the time it's only because i have irrationally forced some warped, false meaning out of what they have said. I can manage to keep my anger to myself most of the time but i feel like it is slowly slipping out of my control. In extreme cases i sometimes feel like i really should die.

I have never talked about any of this (i don't actually have anyone i could talk to even if i wanted to), so i don't know if all these are symptoms of depression or something else. If anyone knows what's up with me i would appreciate their response :) xx[color="#000080"][/color]

Hi and Welcome to DF Sweetbyandbye

You have us to talk to now and you are not alone in the way that you feel now.
We are not professionals, but what you are explaining shows all the symptoms of depression, there are so many different forms of depression and your thoughts of suicide are of real concern.
It would be a good idea to seek professional help, as with the right medication and diagnosis you can feel a lot better and you will be able to manage your life.
Keep posting, as we are here for you.
Please make yourself feel at home.

Trace

Just call me ragged77, I am bipolar and I'm presently going through severe depression. I am going to have my husband take be in to a facility tomorrow to see if we can get this under control. I have had this depression since the 26th of Aug. I have seen my psych but the only thing that she did was change meds and add new ones and neither have helped with the depression. I hate the hopelessness even though I know there is no reason to feel that way. Just can't help it. Hanging on by a thread at this time.

Hi ragged77 and to DF!
I'm glad that you are seeking more help since you are severely depressed. I'm so sorry that you are in such a dark place right now! I know first hand how frustrating and miserable that is! Take care of yourself.
Iowa

Hey all,

new member here and i thought i'd introduce myself. My name is Mick, i'm 26 and live in melbourne australia.


Whilst i have never been formally diagnosed with depression, i have suffered with depressive symptoms since i was 16 and anxiety since i was a kid.
I have been in counselling for 3 years which is a work in progess lol. I lurked on this forum for a couple of days and found it too be a pretty positive space. I'm looking foward to chatting to you all and hopefully adding to the support network around here :o)

cheers guys

Hi and welcome to DF Mick

That's great that you're in counselling, 3 years is a long time, has it been helping? Anxiety can be really crippling, there is a room dedicated to anxiety and panic disorders, you will find some really helpful information there.

Take care, and PM any moderator if you need any help navigating the site.

Shizuku x

Hey Shizuku !


Thank you for the welcome ! Counselling has been helping, i have resisted the process a bit due to some negative feelings i have about myself. e stuck with it though and i don't think i would still be here if i hadn't of kept going. Thank you for pointing out the anxiety forums, anxiety is a monster and it will be great to chat to people in the same boat.


best regards :o)

No problem Mick, we are a welcoming bunch here! Yes you will definitely fine plenty of people with anxiety disorders to share your experiences with. Those negative feelings can be a pain, sometimes it's hard to get them to shut up!

Take care x

Hi, new here.

Well, I was searching around the web, curious to find others in my position. I have a tendency to spend a lot of my time alone; outside of work, I'd say I'm by myself 90-95% of the time. I'm perfectly content with it. I'm happy this way, but my friends and family wonder about me some time. It's not normal in their book.

I'm a 26 year old male stone mason, computer geek, and music enthusiast.

I was made to worry about my reclusiveness and was recommended to get help. I visited a doctor who prescribed me Lexapro; didn't help. Psychiatrist who prescribed me 100mg of Zoloft; didn't help and completely killed my sex drive. And a psychologist whose time I enjoyed the most(even though it was only one visit, and the same with the other two); she helped me pinpoint the events in my life that shaped my personality.

But I do get down and out. It has a tendency to come and go. Mainly, because I'm not happy with where I'm at in life right now. Construction work has pretty much shut down where I'm from. I went from working full-time to one or two day a week schedule. My truck has been repossessed, my bills are over two months behind(my power's been cut off, but i managed to borrow the money to have it turned back on), i had to give up on paying two credit cards that i have maxed out. So this can get stressful as hell. But I consider myself a struggling musician now, so it's o.k. :]

Anyways, I'm trying to give myself more incentive to get up in the morning(read: lazy), so I figure I will join some forums and ease my boredom with a little interaction from time to time. I feel this is a good place to do it. I think I have some things in common with some people here.

Also, you can call me Mac.

Hi and Welcome to DF Mac

You really do have a lot of stress at the moment. I am glad that you have joined us. Its a wonderful place to find interaction and be understood.
You have a wonderful way of looking at things. I find psychologists to be pretty beneficial too.
I really hope that you enjoy it here. There are some wonderful people here.
Please make yourself feel at home.

Trace

Hi. Just found this place online. Hoping it's gonna be a good place to just chat about stuff.

Hi and Welcome fionchadd

DF is a wonderful place and there are some truly wonderful people here.

Trace

Hi I'm Vicky. I am an 18 year old unemployed ex-student. I have had severe depression on and off for the past 4 years. I have never been formally diagnosed as having depression. I tried to take my life 3 times in March of this year.
I have felt the depression come back in the past 2 weeks, this time coupled with hallucinations. I am going to go to the doctors later on today when they open from lunch and insist I see a psychiatrist. I also have severe anger attacks that can be brought on at the slightest provocation.
I feel like I'm a hopeless failure and cannot for the life of me understand why my boyfriend puts up with me. 95% of the time I feel empty inside, like I have no heart to feel with....
I also get very paranoid and twitchy when I'm nervous...

Well that's me...

Hi and Welcome to DF punk4rock

I am glad that you are going to the doctor and going to insist on seeing a psychiatrist, as they will definitely be able to help you.
You have found a place where you are not alone and may we be a great support system and stepping stone in your treatment.
Please make yourself feel at home.

Trace

Hi Everyone. Hi Trace :)

I'm a 20 year old student from melbourne, Australia. Have been refered to a pyschiatrist for an assessment and am going tomorrow. So that should be interesting. I figured since my social life is a bit lacking atm this would be a good forum to check out. Look forward to meeting some of yous
Shaun.

Hey shaun

Good luck at the psychiatrist's. It's always interesting to hear what they think!
Wish I was in Australia - severely lacking in sunshine over in the UK!

PRT xx

Hi and Welcome to DF Shaunbd

I think its wonderful that you have an assessment with a psychiatrist tomorrow. Good luck! You have to let us know how it goes.
Please make yourself feel at home.

Trace

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This is the place to introduce yourself in Depression Central and to tell us what brings you to DF.

Hello, I don't know if I am doing this right. I am brand new to forums. Feeling despair and found this site looking up Cymbalta. Justt going to look around and hopefully not feel so alone and so much fear. Thanks

Hi and Welcome Bjbhoney

You are definitely not alone here. I am glad that you found us, as there is a lot of information and really compassionate and supportive members.
You may find the Cymbalta room helpful to you too.
Please make yourself feel at home.

Trace

Hi,
I just found this forum today actually. I am 22 years old and I have been dealing with depression for at least half my life. I've been in therapy in the past and it has helped. I always hope that eventually this hollow feeling I have will go away for good. I hate the helpless feeling that I will always be dealing with this for the rest of my life.

Hi Sad Girl and to DF!
I'm glad that you've found DF! You'll find this to be a great resource. There are many informative articles in the Portal. The forums are populated by many supportive and caring people. Feel free to look around, making replies or posting a topic when it seems right. See you around.
Iowa

Hi Sad Girl and welcome to DF,

You will find a lot of supporting members here at DF with a lot of information. See you on the boards when your ready.

Thank you very much Trace
Bjbhoney

Just introducing myself in the places where I figure I'll be spending the most time. I thought the username broken_child and those like it were no longer applicable, but it seems they are. I was first put on anti-depressants when I was 14 and have been on numerous different ones, with none of them really working. I'm 22 now.

I've lost 3 close family members (my om grandma, and grandpa) and am a survivor/victim of human trafficking.

I'm sure there's more that'll come out eventually but that's it for now.

Hello my name is Maureen and I come from New Zealand
I have struggled with bipolar for many years and am on quite a bit of medication.
The depression is -for me- is the hardest. I have had several manic "episodes" each time leading to a hospital stay.
Currently I am in a good space and am coping OK (please note I say OK, to cope brilliantly is my aim .)
I have 3 boys who keep me busy.
I am really excited that I have come across this site, it's fabulous. It is so inspiring to read others stories.

Hi roxxanne and welcome to DF,

I'm glad that you are excited and have found DF inspiring. We do have a variety of rooms that may be of use to you like Depression Central and also Bipolar. Make yourself comfortable and jump in anytime you want. I hope that we can help you in getting to your aim as we have many members who can relate and share information and hopefully ways in getting you to feel better then just ok.

Hi and Welcome to DF Broken_child

I am so sorry that you were a victim of human trafficking, that must have completely destroyed you. I am glad that you have found us, you will get a lot of support.
I hope that in time, you can work through all your pain and find something that works for you.
Please make yourself feel at home.

Trace

Thanks for the welcome Trace. Sometimes I think I won't ever be "okay" and maybe I won't. I'll probably always struggle to believe what they told me and will always get a little tense when the topic of human trafficking comes up. The memories of it will certainly never be pleasant, that's for sure and they don't seem to be going anywhere.

Writing, either poems or just writing out what I remember, has helped me so much over the years. It's a great outlet.

Hi Broken_child

Writing is a really good outlet. Have you thought of starting a blog here? It has helped so many people.

Trace

Hello

Hi and Welcome to DF Punk

Please make yourself feel at home.

Trace

Thanks, i never know what to say with this kind of thing

Trace, I have started a blog. Right now, I haven't written anything new, just an intro and some of my poems but they were written before and I just copied them. Even that is helpful

Hello, name is Bill. Ever since 2005, I've self harm 3 times, and thought about many times in between. I also suffered from Bipolar I, panic attacks, severe depression, was the cause of the 3 self harm attempts. I believe what brought this on was last summer, I was running some heavy equipment. I had a lot of experience working around it, and they just started training me. Well, they let me run it one day, and I almost seriously injured someone. Ever since, I lost the desire to going back to work, full time and part time, in fear I might mess up as bad as I did. On top of that, I had a bad experience with a female friend I knew for the last 10 years. That sent me into a whirlwind and that night I tried to self harm (2nd time). I did see a therapist and was on medication (depression, bipolar, mood swings, paranoia). IDK what you would call it, but I said the heck with it, and stopped the medication and stopped seeing my therapist. I have no ambition/drive anymore, like nothing seems all that important.

This post has been edited by SecretMist: Oct 7 2009, 09:46 PM

Hi Wildbill and welcome to DF,

I'm sorry that you have been through so much and I'm glad that you have been able to reach out here at DF.
Given your history I would like to ask you if you would consider going back to a pdoc/therapist? It does sound like you need some help right now and I am not at all a professional but you may even think of going back on meds if your pdoc recommends them. Have a look around and make yourself at home.

Hi Everyone.

I am new here,I have BPD and currently in therapy which is helping alot,I would love to offer my support to others if that's ok.

Nice to meet you all.

Tink xxx