Hi Locut0s

Many people have walked away from resonsibility, when they are in a bad place. I realize that you can not seem to make it through. It is entirely your decision. What would the consequences be for you personally?

Trace

Yeah, I've done that. It was a bad place to be at the time. Sometimes, I still regret it a decade later and wonder about the people I used to know. There are always alternatives, but somehow we just don't see this at the time or feel that they're unacceptbale.

Yes I have but I had something else to go to (less responsible, less money - didn't tell the place I was leaving this though). Maybe do a pros and cons list so you can weigh up your options. A week will go by, but you'll know yourself if you really are at the limit of what you can stand.

Well in my experience, I can't walk away. If I did, it would be the biggest mistake I'd ever make in my life. That much I know. You see, my wife has newly diagnosed epilepsy and I love her with all my being. Paradoxically, I can't walk away, nor would I ever feel the ability to. It's not a bad thing, but it certainly makes things very hard at times.

I already knew what I was getting myself into when I told my wife (then fiance) that the time was now or never. I had to either split or stay together and work through it. That meant getting married, getting her on my insurance, and diving in to an illness that is so scary, it caused my mental health issues. She agreed and now I'm in it for the long haul.

I still have days were I have an anxiety attack on the way or at work. I still can't get much sleep if I stay in the bed with her at night. I still worry almost all the time. But in the end, I'll get through it. We'll be happy and she will be healthy (with the help of AED meds). It's the hardest thing I've ever had to deal with in my life, but I'm fighting on. Every day, every hour, every time I wake up to a new day, I never know what to expect. The only thing I can do is stiffen my resolve and take care of myself and my wife. If that's God's place for me, then I have to accept it. I only hope in time I can move on, be happy like I once was, and realize that all of this was worth it.