i have come to the realization , well one being i cant spell and two that i will never have anyone to share my feelings with . i am not willing to go to a complete stranger and pay hundreds of dollars , so my options are NONE..... i dont know what i feel right now , i have been sick and exhausted and i am not on any meds , have been completely off for about awek , i dont know if this is good,, i feel so tired and all i want to do is cry , in tyhe mean time i feel like my anxiety is coming back full throttle ! iam worried about a strange mole that is growing , i dont want to go to the doctor because i am ashamed at how fat i am and the fact that it is located on my gut , yet i feel like i need it looked at , i am worried about my sons next camping trip so much that i dont want to let him go . i am, totally stressed out .... i hope this has all to do something with the fact that i am not feeling good and have taken on more then i can handle.. i want to be off meds and able to function normally and in a strong happy way like i once did .. is this asking too much , i know if i see my doc he is going to want me on something else , aaaaah i am lost i am hating the world again,,,,