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I'd love to answer and well, I just don't know. Right now I feel fine and I always question what I would be like if I came off the meds.
The answer to that question is usually something I just DON'T want to know. I have come off meds before and anxiety overtook me. I hated the feeling. It was like my whole life had been consumed with a plague and everything became a threat, everything became misery. I can only equate the feeling to the lowest anyone can feel, where you are insignificant and belong to no one, are not part of anything, except dread.
I don't think I want to risk feeling that again, for anything. When you've been on the recovery path for so long, you question yourself constantly but I want to prevent relapsing at all costs.
This post has been edited by kirkwuk: Jun 22 2009, 06:07 PM
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