No No NO NO NO

Everyday is worth living, it may be the day that happiness comes and the dark cloud lifts to let the sunshine in.

Be happy that you wake up. It's another day when life may get better. Some people don't get that chance, you've been given the gift of an extra day.

Set a date for happiness. By 2010 you will be happier than you are now.

Talk to the people on here, they are wonderful, a giant family of people who care.

Keep talking to us, please xxx

I told myself when i was 24 that by the time i was 30 id have all my problems sorted out and be on track with a life. I hit 30 in four months and im no where near-in fact im further away than ive ever been, but ive never thought that if i didnt have all the changes by 30 what id do. i dont think id set a date. Just keep wishing i suppose.

Please give yourself a chance! You are worth it!
Give your new medication the full 6-8 weeks to make a full effect. I'll bet that you will feel much better by then. Don't even think about making a decision either way until you give it a chance. Do you have family or friends? If you "check out early" you are going to deeply hurt someone who loves you.

Blacmhawk,

I've been there...believe me I have and I can honestly say there are other options. As other members and mods on here know a year ago I came oh so close to 'checking out'
Even after I got the help I needed I still had dates in mind, they were an outlet for me, a way to escape how I was feeling...at times the thoughts were the only thing that could bring me comfort from the dark pit I was in. So I've been there and there are better options.

Now a year later I'm feeling hope and optomism again, I'm not 100% by any means, but I realise the way I was, could not have ended well. My advice....take small steps, find other options or distract youself from thinking about dates...most of all if you need support, type what your feeling to your fellow memebers here...we are happy to listen and offer encuragement. I know the encouragement saved me from checking out early...

Take Care

Darken...

Last year, I planned to do it messily in public on Valentine's Day, but eventually cooled down (though I spent the day wishing I didn't have to be alive anyway).

Other than that, though, I don't think I ever 'set a date'.

I've never actually set a date but I have told myself that if my life sucks this badly and things don't improve in the next 5 or 10 years than it's time to go. But the strange thing about life is that you can't predict the future. You can't even say for certain what will happen tomorrow. Things could always get better but then again they could always get worse but you'll never know if you just give up and quit. I am constantly fighting my depression like you are and there are days I just don't know how I'll every make it through but then I might here a new song or laugh at my dogs playing outside and I think about missing all these things if I wasn't around. Depression is very deceptive because it makes us believe that change isn't possible but I believe it is possible to change.

Take care and good luck with the new meds.

(((((Blackhawk)))))) I am so sorry you are feeling so bad!! I haven't set dates but I've thought about it quite often! I'm so glad you are taking med's and that will kick in and that's something to look forward to and there are so many other things as well!! You just vent anytime you need to!!

BlackHawk,
I am terribly sorry to hear you are entertaining the idea of suicide. What's that old expression- suicide is a permanent solution for temporary problems. And please believe me- your problems are indeed temporary. It just doesn't seem like it when you are dealing with the problems. I must agree with AmazingGrace. Life is a gift. So many people are terminally ill and desperately wish for their lives not to be cut short. Don't waste yours. You would indeed profoundly hurt your family and friends. Please stay safe and take care of you.

I was going to end it yesterday, but i couldnt find a convenient way to do it.

thanks for the support guys. i am going to wait a few weeks for the meds to kick in. the worst part about all of this is that i cannot pin down the depression, it is everywhere all at once, inside every thought and it sucks. My doctor told me that depression is a physical illness with mental side effects. I don't know why but thinking of it like that makes me feel better about it. I'm happy i found these forums.

You might have answered my question (in my newly-created topic) if what I have is a chemical imbalance. After all, a chemical imbalance is a physical illness. Anyways, I thank the Good Lord and i thank you Blackhawk. Perhaps i have a chemical imbalance.

David

I never set a date. Years ago I was "there" with a plan. If it weren't for my dog and tdoc, I probably wouldn't be here posting. Rather than having the Sheriff take me forceably to the psych hospital, I went voluntarily. Best thing that ever happened to me. Part of the cause was meds the other being overwhelmed with life. Give your new meds time to work. Keep posting, you know we're all here for you.

If you feeel yourself slipping, call a crisis hotline, 911, go to the ER, call your pdoc, or have a friend come and stay with you.
Sheepwoman