hi,
I wasnt sure where to put this, because i´m not officially diagnosed. But I think you know a lot about racing thoughts, so I wanted to ask here.

Since 2-3 weeks I have a bad phase again. I´m extremely depressed, but this isnt the worst thing.
I have horrible racing thoughts, I cant concentrate and I get anxious. I went home from work today again after spending some time in the bathroom, sticking needles into my arms, but without any success for that moment.

I have intermediate examination next week and there´s no way I can go there like this! My head is ******* me, every sound hurts (im becoming a tailor which means there are about 20 sewing machines around me), I cant concentrate and when I want to focus on a point my eyes start to flutter.
I´m having anxiety and I´m close to tears all the time. I just feel like I lost it!

I´m not on any medication (wished I was right now ), and I dont know what to do. Is there any way I can make me head stop with this s*** for at least one week? any sedative pills or sleeping pills that knock me out a bit?
My stopgap would be alcohol, but I´m happy that I´m not getting drunk that often anymore. there was a time I got drunk 3 times a week because of my racing thoughts and I dont want to go back there.

I just know I need to change something by monday!