QUOTE (ronnyw @ Aug 30 2009, 12:00 AM)

I'm 57 years old, and retiring in 3. So many years lost. Bird2E, you and your daughter are very fortunate to have a life of happiness ahead of you. Stay close to her, and never stop loving her. She'll love you for that.
PeaceY
Old Hippie
Thanks from another old hippie!
I am 57 also, and have often mourned the "lost" years. I had back surgery 2 years ago and had a lot of time to lay around, reflect and ruminate and somewhere along in there I had an epiphany. I said "Screw it! There's still a lot of life in this old Bird afterall. I "retired" when my daughter was 2 and now that she's gone off to college it's my turn again."
I certainly hope that you can get to this point too. Its been a long, hard road, but in some strange way I think of myself as one of the lucky ones.
In a very small nutshell: I was born to two people who should have remained childless. I was molested by a relative from ages 4 to five and go NO support. I have struggled with my identity and sanity for basically my entire life. I have attempted suicide 3 times and been hospitalized twice. I had no role models for parenting skills and planned on being childless. But fate has a way of playing tricks....I had my daughter at almost 40 and have, I hope, been the best Mom I could. Now, smack dab in the middle of middle age, and semi-handicapped with pain (it comes and goes) and I feel fantastic!! That could be the meds (I take 150 mg. of Effexor XR every day) or it could be that I finally got my

together. I probably know myself way better than most do, and can now say I have looked the devil straight in the eye and said

you! I know how hollow words sound when you're down, but believe me when I say, if I can do it, anybody can.