I am 25, I quit taking my pills... my question is... am I just a time bomb waiting to explode?

I had been taking 600mg of Seroquel for around a year... it was helping but I had some side effects

about 5 months ago I discovered that my blood pressure was crazy high(nearly 160/90 resting in a sitting position).... in less than a year I had gone from 165 lbs to nearly 225 lbs... I was sleeping all the time and had almost no sex drive


then I decided I would not take my seroquel... the first night I went down to 300mg, the 2nd night I went down to 150mg and then I quit cold turkey... I was able to sleep that night but not too well... the next day I was edgy and sweating, but I was freezing cold! then 2 nights after I stopped taking seroquel I couldnt sleep for more than 15 mins at a time... 3 nights into this I couldnt sleep at all... I would just lay in my bed and my mind would wander... the 4th night I would wake up every couple of mins and be in a panic that some1 was coming to get me or do something to me I would hear things that where not there and see things like shadowy figures... I thought I was going to die, then I wanted to **** myself... I finally caved in and took the seroquel I crushed it and held it under my lip like guys do with chewing tabacco... I felt like a looser... then I decided to try again but much much slower... 300mg... I stayed on this does for a week... then I went down to 150mg(half a 300mg tab) for a week... then I went down to around 75mg (1/4 300mg tab) I continued this until I was taking around 1/16th of a 300mg tab... did that for a week and then stopped taking it... I couldnt sleep...



I wasnt sleeping so I was afraid I would go manic... I started to take 2.5mg of Melatonin at bed time... worked like a charm...

1 thing I did notice is that I had much more energy, my mind was sharper, but I would go off on random tangents from time to time

nearly 3 months later I have managed to go from a size 38 waist down to nearly a size 33 and I now weigh around 190 lbs... my sex drive has went from not really wanting to(maybe 2 times a month) to 4 or 5 times a week

I do have moods swings still... I do still get racing thoughts... I do still experience a weird disconnected feeling where sounds seem to slow down and everything around me seems small or very far away as if I was looking at it from some far away place... I might be delusional because I think God is talking to me and through me(however me doctor says thaat is ok as long as it is something that you where raised to believe...)

some thing I have done to manage naturally are:

Melatonin at night to sleep

meditation, esp focus based to clear my mind of racing thoughts

avoiding known triggers

watching tv or a movie to get around stressful situations

praying... this seems to help in all situations... I feel more clear headed when I pray