I wasn't sure where to respond, but I'd rather the depression central be a positive posting.

Eileen, thank you so much for all your help, I really appreciate it.

I wouldn't go to another doc, I'd never find anyone who suits me as well as Barry.  I'd just stop therapy.

What he said that did me in was how disappointed he was in my lack of progress and that I should be a whole lot further along in the therapy process than I am.

You know what?  Most of that IS my fault, but not all of it.  When I think about the fact that I've been going to him for almost 9 months, seen him maybe 14 times, on an infrequent basis, he bears some of the blame.  But why "should" there be "blame"?  He frequently seems to feel the need to assign blame:  He cancelled appointments, forgot me, and it was my fault that I waited so long to call him to remind him.  He knows I don't call.  Why make me feel even more of a loser than I already do?  I know he's a busy pdoc.

I have been trying, but sometimes I do back slide.  I can't be the only patient that does that.

deb
tell him what you've said here.  

I'm not trying to get at you, it just triggered something that I've noticed over the years I've been here at DF how easy it is for folk to change their drs.  

You are not at fault for not being further alone in the treatment process, you are a human being not a progress chart.  Perhaps you  could talk to him about why he said that and that it upset/annoyed you.  All people are different and will take different lengths of time to work out their own particular problem.  

Aren't humans individuals and not text book examples?

I'm not getting at you Deb, please don't be upset at my other post in DC.

take care.
Eileen

I know you're not.

I'm not upset about the dc thread - I almost responded there.  You are right, it can be great avoidance by switching docs.

Thanks.

  deb

I am starting on a low dose of Paxil CR.  I told him that I really didn't want to deal with medication and the start up SEs but he wouldn't let out of the office without something.  Said that he'd consider adding others to the cocktail, once he sees how this works.
    deb

deb thats the best way to go about meds, one at a time, that way you'll know if one is not suitable for you.  Try not to be so negative about the meds, they can help get us back to our usual self or at least get us stablised so that therapy can be beneficial.

Eileen

Right now I'm just scared.  I'm thinking this may be my last chance with this pdoc, so I'd best not mess up.  Everytime I start a med, I'm just positive that "this is the one that's going to help".  Then it doesn't, and I start my sabotage.
deb

talk aboiut this with the PDoc, tell him/her about your fears and worries.

Well it's been awhile since I posted about my meds.I have been increased again.

Seroquel 300 mgs.
Prozac 80 mgs.
Inderal 80 mgs.
Tegretol XR 800 mgs.
Nuerontin 1200 mgs.
Ambien 10 mgs.
Klonopin 0.5 Mgs.

I know it seems like alot but I also take a couple of them for my seizures too...and it's good in the way that it helps with the moods too.The Prozac seems to be keeping the depression at bay.

Hi Taffycat,
I was on Paxil and I tried also the Paxil CR. I wouln't be scared if I were you because Paxil CR is great to get used to and gentle on you. At least it was for me, however, I was only taking it because I had depression and anxiety. None of the SSRI or even Effexor helps me with my BPD (which controls my anger and makes not feel so low on myself). I would follow the doctor's recommendations, however, if you get too sleepy and start to get bad chest pains after a while then it won't be good for you. That's what happened to me once my depression and anxiety were gone. I began to not be able to get out of bed and the chest pains didn't help either. I am currently on Wellbutrin for my BPD because anti-psychotics make me gain too much weight (namely Zyprexa). The Wellbutrin SR, boy was it invasive, but as the days go by the side effects start going away, and it's supposed to keep the weight off. I don't know yet as I just started but I feel better after the initial four days. I asked the doctor for it because I am 80 pounds overweight and I can't deal with it and it's making me sad constantly. :verysad3:
I haven't yet tried any anti-convulsants but that is because I currently just see a family doctor and they are afraid usually to prescribe those, even though it's shown to be helpful in mood disorders. I had a psychiatrist but he retired and I have to say, I really miss him. He was great! But it's so hard to find a psychiatrist now, and especially a good one. My family doctor is not too bad because he listens to me and prescribes what I want if I can prove to him that it helps. I think he does that too because he really knows nothing about mental illness. Most don't know as I had to give up on two other family doctors in the past, but that was because too they didn't listen to my symptoms and make wrong diagnoses for me. And I think that a doctor that diagnoses you without properly checking you or even properly listening to you is a bad doctor. That's too bad as I also have had a bad back for the past few years because of being abused and I was diagnosed until now as having a crushed bone in my spine. I'm just waiting for my MRI now. I suggest that anyone here that is taking medication to do their own research into a medication before taking it, as doctors also make mistakes and unless you want to suffer with the wrong stuff, you can be taking the right medication.
Thanks,
Vera

Went back on Risperidone in Oct 2004 and apart from 1 month have been on it ever since. Just at 1mg sort of a holding pattern. It mostly works. But last night I took 3mg.

eileen

is anyone on prozac if so how long does it take to get in your system?

hi lisa. Welcome to DF!
As with anyother SSRI it can take up to 6 weeks to get the full effect of prozac. That said, when I was on it I noticed a difference within 1 week.
Good luck!
Lynnie

littlelisa
I'd say the say as Lynn but it might take 6 weeks after you are at the correct dose. If you have just started the med its unlikely that you are at the most therapeutic dose.

I hope it works well for you, for me it didn't work out, I am allergic to prozac (happened 1 month after I started it and just after I had filled a 2nd prescription).

Welcome to DF.

Eileen

Was on Klonopin, Celexa for two days (nightmare for me) and trazodone at night.
I get a feeling of tingly stingy ants all over my body and arms from trazodone, similar to anxiety but without the anxiety(due to Klonopin?)

Anyway

All that is stopped today, I still have Trazodone and some Celexa, I've actually found that a TINY TEENY dose of Celexa and 0.5mg of Klonopin made me feel really normal today...so I'm sad that the doc wants to stop the Klonopin...

No clue how I'm going to be feeling this whole week that I now have in front of me...

He originally wanted me on Lamictal but I refused, not knowing what it is and insisted on another SSRI...
Now I think that might have been a lil mistake...anyone experience with Lamictal?



Hope I get my meds sorted out soon, as well as the diagnosis, since I seem to be overlapping a lot with BPD and Bipolar 2 (my dad was bipolar too)

Jeebus...



Wish me luck guys...

Hi AmberBlack and

I have BPD and have been on citalopram (Celexa) on and off for three years now. I have literally just started lamotrigine (Lamictal) this week. I think I am on a very low dose 25mg per night going up to 50mg in a couple of weeks.

Why did you refuse the Lamictal? My understanding is that it is primarily use in the treatment of epilepsy however it is also used for BPD as a mood stabiliser. I think it is also used for bi-polar.

Having only been on it three days it is to early to see any difference! However I am still taking the citalopram 40mg as well, which is a high does for me.

Girly