After seeing a therapist for a while he said I may have a mild form of ocd. Mostly intrusive thoughts and picking at my skin, especially around my hands. I've posted about some of this in the relationship forum, but basically about six months ago I found out my husband had been chatting with someone he met online over the phone. It was quite a lot...like hours each day. We took a break then went to counseling and tried to work things out.

Since then I have spent so many hours checking up on him. I can't stop obsessing about it. I guess it's for the best in a way because I found out there was a lot more to the story. He has all these different accounts and profiles on adult sites trying to meet both men and women. He did admitt to me yesterday that he had arranged meetings with guys but never followed through with it. Knowing him he wouldn't have told me that much if that was the worst he had done. I'm getting a little off track here. Basically I know there is no hope for our marriage. We are living apart right now but I come over every day to get our son off the bus and take him with me. I will usually look through his computer while I'm waiting. When my son goes to bed I will be up searching for more profiles or info on line. I really feel like I can't stop and I don't get it. I have all the proof I need that he is a scumbag so why can't I stop? This has been consuming me for months now and I'm so sick of it.

I just drove all the way out to his place to see if his truck was there...which it was. I feel like he has already done enough damage and it's just not fair that this is eating away at me while he doesn't seem to care. I am getting almost no sleep because I am up searching online for hours after my son goes to bed...then have to be up extra early to get him to school.

Sorry if this doesn't really fit in this category.