I have a lot of anger issues. I'm not sure how to get under wraps. I've done threads before where I talked about how I had feelings of hurting other people and had out breaks of anger. My mind just starts going and I try to talk myself out of it but it all makes sense. I'll just be completely honest. I was hurt in a relationship back about 8 months ago, havn't talked with her in about 6-7 months. but still having problems letting it all go. I try to talk myself out of the anger and try to just say it will be okay and that anger isn't the way but it just keeps coming back. I'll tell you what I feel in my heart and head.

When I think about it just on random occasion, I think she deserves to be punished, and that her life deserves to be ruined for all the lying and deception. I start feeling the anger and I try to talk myself out of it. a lot of it in the end, ends in hopelessness feeling that I can't escape the anger and that I just don't want to have to continue living like this(bipolar and having to deal with ups and downs). It's just too much to consistently have to deal with. If I could just move on and forget about the hurt and really have better relationship with someone then it could be better. It all makes sense though, if someone does something wrong to you, then you have to defend yourself...or pay them back I guess in another way...If someone hurts me, I can't just let it go. and even when I'm trying to it keeps creeping back up on me. I never did anything to hurt anyone, and all I ever asked was to be treated fair and honestly. I made it clear what I wanted but even then that wasn't enough to keep me from getting hurt.

It's just always the same thing, and it's gets annoying and frustrating at the same time as being angry and depressed. I guess at the same time too I feel like it's her fault I'm feeling that way. I just want to forget about it and move on. why is this so hard? I try to talk myself out of it but it doesn't work...and the feelings of anger come in they just FLOOD in and I just want to act on them. I don't know what to do......